[ oh this is a baby. this is not what they think in so many words, but they do look at this picture, and they notice the cracks. it makes them pause enough to find the right words. ]
Even Lords need companionship, but I suppose with the way things were people kept you way too busy with their demands.
[ which sucks. but they can take a hint even though they are going to come back to asking who that is. instead, they will open their box! and pull out... a single tarot card? it is a page of cups. ]
[ fascinated by how this man would have said that out loud, but i'm not questioning it and neither are they. ]
I'm sure there are still people where I'm from that would call it that. This is a tarot card. Tarot cards are used to read a person's future. My mother specializes in card readings. [ ... ] And she would always tell me this particular card was the one she thought represented me best.
It has a lot of meanings. Usually it's about new beginnings, messages, and possibilities. She used to say it was mine because of all of the potential the cupbearer held, and how that potential was just like mine.
[ which seems sweet, but it was also a lot to consider. ]
Oh, I've been told my fate practically since I was born. I think expectation's always been around. It was... nice to know what to expect, but equally frustrating for so long.
But when you're from a family of psychics it's expected.
I don't know if suffocating was the word I'd use. But it did mean a lot of how I spent most of my life was ruled by that one prediction in my fate. And it meant not being able to do certain things other people my age would do. [ a pause. ] I'm the only one in my family without those kinds of abilities. What I do is a little different, but it means I can't tell my own future. But I wanted to make it for myself.
Oh. It wasn't greatness. It was about killing someone I love.
[ to clarify. this was a thing hanging over their head for years, knowing they were destined to kill the person they loved. ]
I can always do a reading for you myself another day if you were ever curious. I can't feel the connection of the cards as well as my mom or the others, but the basic meanings come through alright.
... maybe I thought that once, but I don't now. [ and to clarify: ] I knew he would die within the year before we ever fell in love. I saw his ghost. And when we first met I couldn't stand him, but I knew his fate. I couldn't... I was always meant to be a part of it. Eventually...
[ there's a long pause like they're trying to compose themselves. ]
He asked me to. He asked me to kill him, because we needed a sacrifice to stop a demon. And it was the only way. So he died in my arms and we purged the monster of its power. [ and... it's fair to explain. ]
And then we asked for a sacrifice in return to bring him back.
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[ So! He gives them their box. Here you go. ]
... People I used to know.
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... are they people you liked, once?
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[ time to blind box open... He gets a polaroid. It's of him about fourteen and a blond girl about twelve. Pretend they are medieval children instead of 1800s, they are still the same characters.
Looking at it, he's quiet for a moment as cracks form on his face, like breaking pottery. ]
It happens when you become busy.
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But you were close before. Who became busy first?
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[ He will tuck the polaroid back into the box, closing the lid and all. ]
Will you be opening yours?
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[ which sucks. but they can take a hint even though they are going to come back to asking who that is. instead, they will open their box! and pull out... a single tarot card? it is a page of cups. ]
Ah.
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[ Squints at their card. ]
The occult?
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It's not—well, for you it may be considered the occult. [ old. ] ...are you familiar with psychics at all? Or the art of seeing someone's future?
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I'm sure there are still people where I'm from that would call it that. This is a tarot card. Tarot cards are used to read a person's future. My mother specializes in card readings. [ ... ] And she would always tell me this particular card was the one she thought represented me best.
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Anyway, he doesn't judge despite it being different from what he knows. It isn't freak shit, so. ]
How sentimental... What does it mean?
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It has a lot of meanings. Usually it's about new beginnings, messages, and possibilities. She used to say it was mine because of all of the potential the cupbearer held, and how that potential was just like mine.
[ which seems sweet, but it was also a lot to consider. ]
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[ Fascinating, but still superstitious to him so he's like. That's neat, I guess. Maybe it's something, maybe it's nothing. ]
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But when you're from a family of psychics it's expected.
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I don't know if suffocating was the word I'd use. But it did mean a lot of how I spent most of my life was ruled by that one prediction in my fate. And it meant not being able to do certain things other people my age would do. [ a pause. ] I'm the only one in my family without those kinds of abilities. What I do is a little different, but it means I can't tell my own future. But I wanted to make it for myself.
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[ Sometimes, not all the time. ]
As you can tell, I know very little about psychics, or that world in particular.
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[ to clarify. this was a thing hanging over their head for years, knowing they were destined to kill the person they loved. ]
I can always do a reading for you myself another day if you were ever curious. I can't feel the connection of the cards as well as my mom or the others, but the basic meanings come through alright.
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fumbling like this would happen to him, though. ]
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Ever since I was little, that's what I was told. So the solution for me was to never kiss anyone, and never fall in love.
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[ Even though he's doubtful that it would be that easy. He isn't even sure if he should ask, but. ]
Did you succeed?
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No. Not at all. Not with a lack of trying, but... no.
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[ Genuinely, and he normally never apologizes. ]
Do you think it would have been better to never have known them?
[ Said quietly, like this would be enlightening to someone (to him). ]
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[ there's a long pause like they're trying to compose themselves. ]
He asked me to. He asked me to kill him, because we needed a sacrifice to stop a demon. And it was the only way. So he died in my arms and we purged the monster of its power. [ and... it's fair to explain. ]
And then we asked for a sacrifice in return to bring him back.
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That's quite a story. I'm a little hesitant to say anything positive, in the case that isn't the end or that you weren't able to bring him back.
[ HE FUCKED UP EARLIER. ]
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