Audience - Jacopo

[holyspirits]

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[obdure]

Normally, I'd say it's something you don't want to remember, but...

[ It doesn't not seem like the case here when they're actively thinking about it enough. ]

If you find that there are any changes, progress or setbacks, you're free to tell me. I won't tell anyone. Obviously. [ Just to make sure they know that. ] A solution can still be worked towards. Or at least some understanding.

[holyspirits]

[ this is a nice offer, but they tilt their head curiously and peer at him. ]

Oh? What would you get out of this? [ this isn't accusatory, they are genuinely just curious why jacopo would listen to them while they dig through their memories for a person who might not even exist. ]

[obdure]

[ Genuinely, he also doesn't know. He's following the shape of what he thinks care looks like. Maybe if they are feeling better, then they can do their work better. There could be many things...

But he offers a wry smile. ]

Think of it as payment for the curse I'll be putting on you with my coming questions.

[holyspirits]

[ funny. they actually accept that it's a trade. ]

I'm sure you won't be any worse than the rest of them. But alright. We'll consider it a trade then. Should I be expecting these questions soon then, or are you still ruminating on them?

[obdure]

... There's a tree at the garden now.

[ You know the art where it looks like a shadow just makes someone a completely blacked out silhouette. That is happening with just his eyes showing. ]

Have you seen it?

[holyspirits]

[ spooky... ]

I have, yeah. The tree's been there and the apples were fine, but... I've heard something changed. Have you gone near it recently?

[obdure]

I did since I wanted to see the garden memorial...

[ ... ]

For some reason, when I approached it, I had an understanding that an apple can offer a miracle. For a price. That's an insane thought, isn't it?

[holyspirits]

Of course it is. [ but they say it in a way to suggest that it isn't necessarily untrue. ] But several of you have said the same thing, so maybe not that insane. Is it... are they miracles you think would actually change you?

[obdure]

What is one more corpse on the pile I've already amounted when I was alive... The soul would just become lost, wouldn't it?

[ People are just numbers, eventually. Yet slowly he returns to being normal. ]

But I suppose whatever miracle it is, it wouldn't make her happy.

[holyspirits]

A soul is still a living thing, Jacopo. [ just pointing that out. but... oh. ]

... "her"? [ the girl in the picture, maybe? ]

[obdure]

[ Living is a funny way to describe it and he knows it should make him feel something... Maybe if he was in a more stable mental state, he could mask with concern and horror for being so savage when the reality is he has killed and sent so many people to their deaths.

But truthfully it doesn't. He just looks off to a spot. ]

... Morgana. She also passed on.

[holyspirits]

[ they have feelings on this... but they will not express them. they are instead more interested in seeing what else he says. ]

And who's Morgana to you? [ someone important, it seems, if he's willing to maybe consider what she might think. ]

[obdure]

[ He isn't sure how to answer this... Because what were they? Maybe something before, but they have nothing now. Are his emotions imposing? Desperate. He isn't sure. ]

Someone I should have protected.

[ Someone beloved. ]

[holyspirits]

[ they are pocketing their card, but keeping their gaze on him. ]

The girl from the picture? Or someone else?

[obdure]

Someone else. I had actually wanted to ask—if maybe she was here... In actual Heaven.

[ ... ]

But the chances are low, aren't they. Multiple heavens and all.

[holyspirits]

[ it isn't as if they don't understand wanting to find someone you care for. ]

Multiple heavens and all. I'm sorry. I wish I could give you a real answer about that. [ ... ] When did you last see her?

[obdure]

No—it's fine. I understand. Thank you.

[ He's coming to that he's acting erratic about this and while he doesn't know how to sort that out, he can at least pretend to be put together. ]

She died not too long before I did.

[holyspirits]

It might be something you can ask God at the end. [ someone has to have answers, don't they? ]

I'm sorry. [ ... ] When you say you should have protected her, what does that mean to you?

[obdure]

... Failure. What else could it be? She relied on me and I failed.

[ You know what the erratic behavior will continue, just composed. ]

If in theory, someone asked to be killed, will obliging them still warrant expulsion?

[holyspirits]

I meant more from what. [ but it's fine. erratic behavior is okay. especially given we got here from opening christmas gifts. ]

In theory, it would probably send you to wherever Charlie went, and we still aren't entirely sure where that is. In practice, I would ask why this is a theoretical and why expulsion's the desire.

[obdure]

... Anything, everything. She suffered so much.

[ merry Christmas he may have to ghost them forever after this ]

I see. I had just wondered if a killer would be absolved if it was someone's wish and ask.

[holyspirits]

[ but my hei threads.......... ]

...I'm sorry. I doubt she would have held that against you. [ they know not of this. ]

I don't know though. I don't know what would happen if one of you chose to kill again. [ ... they should not ask this, but. ] Is that a wish you're thinking on?

[obdure]

[ they can bump into each other by happenstance... my requests being like (and then they are in the same place at the same time).

He's quiet about the first part and doesn't comment on it. ]

I didn't say that, but I have an interest in skipping trial over something that shouldn't be considered murder. It's a favor.

[holyspirits]

[ they are used to stubborn, depressed men ignoring when they're right. it is okay. ]

You didn't have to. You wouldn't be asking if you hadn't thought about it even a little. [ but hm... ] You want to avoid the consequences because you wouldn't see it as a wrong against you, since you asked. Even if it's considered a wrong in heaven?

[obdure]

The conversation with Jing Yuan had me wonder... For him, life was tedium and death was freedom. It could have been remedied by him asking someone to kill him.

[ he made this up on the fly. ]

It'd be a mercy, even if murder is a sin, but context matters, doesn't it? With the tree, they would also benefit. It could become transactional.