[ He rolls his eyes, but they're right to question it, honestly. And being guardians makes him unsure if he will get a real answer about leaving on his own terms, if existing became too difficult to endure.
He knows it might, but there could be a chance he can endure to the end, but leaving early seems peaceful. Even if it means he'll be lost, or if he can be in hell where he's meant to be. He deserves nothing or suffering. ]
It's fine if it doesn't. I'll take a chance. [ Because he knows by his breaking point, he will find being in Heaven surrounded by kind-hearted people suffocating. It isn't where he should be, so anywhere else would be fine. ] It really couldn't be as easy as getting me a train?
[ ........ they really should not be humoring this man, but something in their head is steering them toward the idea of realizing that perhaps there are just some people who want to move on. just like there are some who should have that don't want to let go. ]
Would it make you feel better if I looked into it?
Yes, that would be good... [ He knows that they can lie and that's fine, but he can pretend that he can rest when it gets too much. It can keep him going. ] Thank you.
Of course. But I want you to keep in mind that there may not actually be an answer. You may have to live with the choice of continuing to live. Don't forget that.
[ they are kind enough to at least hear him out, but they aren't nice enough to give him hope he can actually eject himself from the situation so easily. ]
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He knows it might, but there could be a chance he can endure to the end, but leaving early seems peaceful. Even if it means he'll be lost, or if he can be in hell where he's meant to be. He deserves nothing or suffering. ]
It's fine if it doesn't. I'll take a chance. [ Because he knows by his breaking point, he will find being in Heaven surrounded by kind-hearted people suffocating. It isn't where he should be, so anywhere else would be fine. ] It really couldn't be as easy as getting me a train?
[ Nonchalantly. ]
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Would it make you feel better if I looked into it?
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Yes, that would be good... [ He knows that they can lie and that's fine, but he can pretend that he can rest when it gets too much. It can keep him going. ] Thank you.
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[ they are kind enough to at least hear him out, but they aren't nice enough to give him hope he can actually eject himself from the situation so easily. ]