Then we don't know if it could have remedied anything, so maybe it's not important. [ they would feel this way regardless. ALSO WHAT ELSE ARE THEY SUPPOSED TO THINK??? ]
You want to pick everything apart and see what rules can be changed and what the lines are. Is that it?
With all this free time and the sudden change in the apple tree, I'm bound to imagine scenarios!
[ to be fair, if he was on the receiving end of this kind of conversation, Jacopo would definitely think the other person is being a deranged madman. he is a hypocrite. ]
[ they're going to stand on a box and beat up this man. ]
I don't think you have any proof that it isn't suspicious, but I'll drop the accusations for now. [ a pause. ] Though I would rather you do ask anyway.
[ it is, they are having to look up at him so far. ]
I was cursed my whole life, Jacopo. Another one isn't going to matter. [ they mean being destined to kill the person they love, which is how this stupid conversation started. god. ]
You say that, but it does matter. It's going to weigh on you and make you a little shorter.
[ Sorry, that isn't true. He also normally doesn't believe in curses... But circumstances and sentiments. ]
... I'm going to be trying my best here, doing this project. [ Like this is a good way to preface or soften any of it. ] But it'll help me if I know there's a way out.
Don't tell me you're willing to let your conscience guide you now. [ rude. ] We're your guardians. What else are we meant to do if we can't help you?
[ but okay. they listen, and there's a nod. ]
... a plan b. I understand why you're asking, but I don't know if we can guarantee it'll go the way you want it to. If you do your best and prove yourself, your exit will come at the end of the period. And if you really don't want to go back, you could probably negotiate.
[ He rolls his eyes, but they're right to question it, honestly. And being guardians makes him unsure if he will get a real answer about leaving on his own terms, if existing became too difficult to endure.
He knows it might, but there could be a chance he can endure to the end, but leaving early seems peaceful. Even if it means he'll be lost, or if he can be in hell where he's meant to be. He deserves nothing or suffering. ]
It's fine if it doesn't. I'll take a chance. [ Because he knows by his breaking point, he will find being in Heaven surrounded by kind-hearted people suffocating. It isn't where he should be, so anywhere else would be fine. ] It really couldn't be as easy as getting me a train?
[ ........ they really should not be humoring this man, but something in their head is steering them toward the idea of realizing that perhaps there are just some people who want to move on. just like there are some who should have that don't want to let go. ]
Would it make you feel better if I looked into it?
Yes, that would be good... [ He knows that they can lie and that's fine, but he can pretend that he can rest when it gets too much. It can keep him going. ] Thank you.
Of course. But I want you to keep in mind that there may not actually be an answer. You may have to live with the choice of continuing to live. Don't forget that.
[ they are kind enough to at least hear him out, but they aren't nice enough to give him hope he can actually eject himself from the situation so easily. ]
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[ WHO CAN PROVE OTHERWISE! Until this Saturday when Hawke acts weird, I guess. ]
I didn't say that. [ Stop thinking it's him. ] I'm curious about how this system works and the possibilities.
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You want to pick everything apart and see what rules can be changed and what the lines are. Is that it?
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[ to be fair, if he was on the receiving end of this kind of conversation, Jacopo would definitely think the other person is being a deranged madman. he is a hypocrite. ]
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[ this is going well. ]
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You're imagining things.
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Am I? Because it seems to me that you're the one who came to me with questions without prompting at all.
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I meant you are imagining suspicion.
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I don't think you have any proof that it isn't suspicious, but I'll drop the accusations for now. [ a pause. ] Though I would rather you do ask anyway.
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He will take this though, even though they basically argued over something stupid. It's fine. ]
I did tell you this was going to feel like a curse.
[ As if he finally relented it's all suspicious. ]
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I was cursed my whole life, Jacopo. Another one isn't going to matter. [ they mean being destined to kill the person they love, which is how this stupid conversation started. god. ]
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[ Sorry, that isn't true. He also normally doesn't believe in curses... But circumstances and sentiments. ]
... I'm going to be trying my best here, doing this project. [ Like this is a good way to preface or soften any of it. ] But it'll help me if I know there's a way out.
[ GIVE HIM A SELF-EXIT BUTTON ]
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Don't tell me you're willing to let your conscience guide you now. [ rude. ] We're your guardians. What else are we meant to do if we can't help you?
[ but okay. they listen, and there's a nod. ]
... a plan b. I understand why you're asking, but I don't know if we can guarantee it'll go the way you want it to. If you do your best and prove yourself, your exit will come at the end of the period. And if you really don't want to go back, you could probably negotiate.
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He knows it might, but there could be a chance he can endure to the end, but leaving early seems peaceful. Even if it means he'll be lost, or if he can be in hell where he's meant to be. He deserves nothing or suffering. ]
It's fine if it doesn't. I'll take a chance. [ Because he knows by his breaking point, he will find being in Heaven surrounded by kind-hearted people suffocating. It isn't where he should be, so anywhere else would be fine. ] It really couldn't be as easy as getting me a train?
[ Nonchalantly. ]
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Would it make you feel better if I looked into it?
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Yes, that would be good... [ He knows that they can lie and that's fine, but he can pretend that he can rest when it gets too much. It can keep him going. ] Thank you.
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[ they are kind enough to at least hear him out, but they aren't nice enough to give him hope he can actually eject himself from the situation so easily. ]