About two weeks ago? [ when you bitches showed up. ] It feels as if I have memories that should be there, of a person who should be there, but I can't figure out what the memories mean or who the person might be.
[ a pause. ]
I haven't told anyone because it obviously sounds crazy.
Yeah. We had time to plan before then, but yes. [ anyway they make a face even if he can't see it. the vibe is there. ] I don't think I need to. It isn't something that would affect either of them.
Perhaps it'll be something you can resolve after this project...
[ Though he still looks kind of concerned about it. ]
If these missing memories don't give you ill feelings, then they shouldn't be forgotten. [ In his opinion. ] Or, if they aren't meant to be, then you should at least get to know what they are.
I wouldn't call them ill feelings. They're feelings I can't identify, of a... thing, or maybe a person. But it isn't a person who's here, and if I don't remember them maybe there's a reason why.
Normally, I'd say it's something you don't want to remember, but...
[ It doesn't not seem like the case here when they're actively thinking about it enough. ]
If you find that there are any changes, progress or setbacks, you're free to tell me. I won't tell anyone. Obviously. [ Just to make sure they know that. ] A solution can still be worked towards. Or at least some understanding.
[ this is a nice offer, but they tilt their head curiously and peer at him. ]
Oh? What would you get out of this? [ this isn't accusatory, they are genuinely just curious why jacopo would listen to them while they dig through their memories for a person who might not even exist. ]
[ Genuinely, he also doesn't know. He's following the shape of what he thinks care looks like. Maybe if they are feeling better, then they can do their work better. There could be many things...
But he offers a wry smile. ]
Think of it as payment for the curse I'll be putting on you with my coming questions.
[ funny. they actually accept that it's a trade. ]
I'm sure you won't be any worse than the rest of them. But alright. We'll consider it a trade then. Should I be expecting these questions soon then, or are you still ruminating on them?
[ You know the art where it looks like a shadow just makes someone a completely blacked out silhouette. That is happening with just his eyes showing. ]
Of course it is. [ but they say it in a way to suggest that it isn't necessarily untrue. ] But several of you have said the same thing, so maybe not that insane. Is it... are they miracles you think would actually change you?
[ Living is a funny way to describe it and he knows it should make him feel something... Maybe if he was in a more stable mental state, he could mask with concern and horror for being so savage when the reality is he has killed and sent so many people to their deaths.
But truthfully it doesn't. He just looks off to a spot. ]
[ He isn't sure how to answer this... Because what were they? Maybe something before, but they have nothing now. Are his emotions imposing? Desperate. He isn't sure. ]
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he is thinking to himself... that he is so inept for this... like what in the fuck. what is NORMAL in this place? for other people? ]
How recently? And what is the nature of what you're remembering instead?
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About two weeks ago? [ when you bitches showed up. ] It feels as if I have memories that should be there, of a person who should be there, but I can't figure out what the memories mean or who the person might be.
[ a pause. ]
I haven't told anyone because it obviously sounds crazy.
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... When we arrived, then you all started your jobs officially. [ Hm. ] You haven't even talked to your fellow guardian angels?
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Yeah. We had time to plan before then, but yes. [ anyway they make a face even if he can't see it. the vibe is there. ] I don't think I need to. It isn't something that would affect either of them.
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[ Tries to narrow things down. ]
I don't think the rest of us have suffered any memory discrepancies...
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[ ...hm... ]
No, I don't think any of you have either. God would have made sure things were as in tact as possible for you.
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[ Though he still looks kind of concerned about it. ]
If these missing memories don't give you ill feelings, then they shouldn't be forgotten. [ In his opinion. ] Or, if they aren't meant to be, then you should at least get to know what they are.
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I wouldn't call them ill feelings. They're feelings I can't identify, of a... thing, or maybe a person. But it isn't a person who's here, and if I don't remember them maybe there's a reason why.
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[ It doesn't not seem like the case here when they're actively thinking about it enough. ]
If you find that there are any changes, progress or setbacks, you're free to tell me. I won't tell anyone. Obviously. [ Just to make sure they know that. ] A solution can still be worked towards. Or at least some understanding.
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Oh? What would you get out of this? [ this isn't accusatory, they are genuinely just curious why jacopo would listen to them while they dig through their memories for a person who might not even exist. ]
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But he offers a wry smile. ]
Think of it as payment for the curse I'll be putting on you with my coming questions.
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I'm sure you won't be any worse than the rest of them. But alright. We'll consider it a trade then. Should I be expecting these questions soon then, or are you still ruminating on them?
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[ You know the art where it looks like a shadow just makes someone a completely blacked out silhouette. That is happening with just his eyes showing. ]
Have you seen it?
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I have, yeah. The tree's been there and the apples were fine, but... I've heard something changed. Have you gone near it recently?
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[ ... ]
For some reason, when I approached it, I had an understanding that an apple can offer a miracle. For a price. That's an insane thought, isn't it?
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[ People are just numbers, eventually. Yet slowly he returns to being normal. ]
But I suppose whatever miracle it is, it wouldn't make her happy.
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... "her"? [ the girl in the picture, maybe? ]
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But truthfully it doesn't. He just looks off to a spot. ]
... Morgana. She also passed on.
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And who's Morgana to you? [ someone important, it seems, if he's willing to maybe consider what she might think. ]
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Someone I should have protected.
[ Someone beloved. ]
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The girl from the picture? Or someone else?
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[ ... ]
But the chances are low, aren't they. Multiple heavens and all.
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Multiple heavens and all. I'm sorry. I wish I could give you a real answer about that. [ ... ] When did you last see her?
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[ He's coming to that he's acting erratic about this and while he doesn't know how to sort that out, he can at least pretend to be put together. ]
She died not too long before I did.
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