... maybe I thought that once, but I don't now. [ and to clarify: ] I knew he would die within the year before we ever fell in love. I saw his ghost. And when we first met I couldn't stand him, but I knew his fate. I couldn't... I was always meant to be a part of it. Eventually...
[ there's a long pause like they're trying to compose themselves. ]
He asked me to. He asked me to kill him, because we needed a sacrifice to stop a demon. And it was the only way. So he died in my arms and we purged the monster of its power. [ and... it's fair to explain. ]
And then we asked for a sacrifice in return to bring him back.
... our second sacrifice worked. He came back to us. [ so it worked out even if they are slightly traumatized given what happened. and also, something they haven't said to anyone else yet. ] But I get the feeling that something happened to intervene with our sacrifice, and there's something I've forgotten now.
[ CAN BE SAID CONFIDENTLy NOW. this is actually one of the very few times he didn't get hardcore grilled/bullied for fumbling a conversation... or just had someone killed for ridiculing him. ]
You've forgotten? I know you have a lot on your plate, but this seems rather important.
It's good. Believe me, it's... very good. [ they didn't want to be without him, thank you. ]
...I don't think I realized I'd forgotten until really recently? But it feels like there are things I'm remembering that don't have a place in my memories.
About two weeks ago? [ when you bitches showed up. ] It feels as if I have memories that should be there, of a person who should be there, but I can't figure out what the memories mean or who the person might be.
[ a pause. ]
I haven't told anyone because it obviously sounds crazy.
Yeah. We had time to plan before then, but yes. [ anyway they make a face even if he can't see it. the vibe is there. ] I don't think I need to. It isn't something that would affect either of them.
Perhaps it'll be something you can resolve after this project...
[ Though he still looks kind of concerned about it. ]
If these missing memories don't give you ill feelings, then they shouldn't be forgotten. [ In his opinion. ] Or, if they aren't meant to be, then you should at least get to know what they are.
I wouldn't call them ill feelings. They're feelings I can't identify, of a... thing, or maybe a person. But it isn't a person who's here, and if I don't remember them maybe there's a reason why.
Normally, I'd say it's something you don't want to remember, but...
[ It doesn't not seem like the case here when they're actively thinking about it enough. ]
If you find that there are any changes, progress or setbacks, you're free to tell me. I won't tell anyone. Obviously. [ Just to make sure they know that. ] A solution can still be worked towards. Or at least some understanding.
[ this is a nice offer, but they tilt their head curiously and peer at him. ]
Oh? What would you get out of this? [ this isn't accusatory, they are genuinely just curious why jacopo would listen to them while they dig through their memories for a person who might not even exist. ]
[ Genuinely, he also doesn't know. He's following the shape of what he thinks care looks like. Maybe if they are feeling better, then they can do their work better. There could be many things...
But he offers a wry smile. ]
Think of it as payment for the curse I'll be putting on you with my coming questions.
[ funny. they actually accept that it's a trade. ]
I'm sure you won't be any worse than the rest of them. But alright. We'll consider it a trade then. Should I be expecting these questions soon then, or are you still ruminating on them?
[ You know the art where it looks like a shadow just makes someone a completely blacked out silhouette. That is happening with just his eyes showing. ]
Of course it is. [ but they say it in a way to suggest that it isn't necessarily untrue. ] But several of you have said the same thing, so maybe not that insane. Is it... are they miracles you think would actually change you?
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No. Not at all. Not with a lack of trying, but... no.
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[ Genuinely, and he normally never apologizes. ]
Do you think it would have been better to never have known them?
[ Said quietly, like this would be enlightening to someone (to him). ]
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[ there's a long pause like they're trying to compose themselves. ]
He asked me to. He asked me to kill him, because we needed a sacrifice to stop a demon. And it was the only way. So he died in my arms and we purged the monster of its power. [ and... it's fair to explain. ]
And then we asked for a sacrifice in return to bring him back.
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That's quite a story. I'm a little hesitant to say anything positive, in the case that isn't the end or that you weren't able to bring him back.
[ HE FUCKED UP EARLIER. ]
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... our second sacrifice worked. He came back to us. [ so it worked out even if they are slightly traumatized given what happened. and also, something they haven't said to anyone else yet. ] But I get the feeling that something happened to intervene with our sacrifice, and there's something I've forgotten now.
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[ CAN BE SAID CONFIDENTLy NOW. this is actually one of the very few times he didn't get hardcore grilled/bullied for fumbling a conversation... or just had someone killed for ridiculing him. ]
You've forgotten? I know you have a lot on your plate, but this seems rather important.
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...I don't think I realized I'd forgotten until really recently? But it feels like there are things I'm remembering that don't have a place in my memories.
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he is thinking to himself... that he is so inept for this... like what in the fuck. what is NORMAL in this place? for other people? ]
How recently? And what is the nature of what you're remembering instead?
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About two weeks ago? [ when you bitches showed up. ] It feels as if I have memories that should be there, of a person who should be there, but I can't figure out what the memories mean or who the person might be.
[ a pause. ]
I haven't told anyone because it obviously sounds crazy.
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... When we arrived, then you all started your jobs officially. [ Hm. ] You haven't even talked to your fellow guardian angels?
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Yeah. We had time to plan before then, but yes. [ anyway they make a face even if he can't see it. the vibe is there. ] I don't think I need to. It isn't something that would affect either of them.
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[ Tries to narrow things down. ]
I don't think the rest of us have suffered any memory discrepancies...
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[ ...hm... ]
No, I don't think any of you have either. God would have made sure things were as in tact as possible for you.
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[ Though he still looks kind of concerned about it. ]
If these missing memories don't give you ill feelings, then they shouldn't be forgotten. [ In his opinion. ] Or, if they aren't meant to be, then you should at least get to know what they are.
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I wouldn't call them ill feelings. They're feelings I can't identify, of a... thing, or maybe a person. But it isn't a person who's here, and if I don't remember them maybe there's a reason why.
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[ It doesn't not seem like the case here when they're actively thinking about it enough. ]
If you find that there are any changes, progress or setbacks, you're free to tell me. I won't tell anyone. Obviously. [ Just to make sure they know that. ] A solution can still be worked towards. Or at least some understanding.
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Oh? What would you get out of this? [ this isn't accusatory, they are genuinely just curious why jacopo would listen to them while they dig through their memories for a person who might not even exist. ]
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But he offers a wry smile. ]
Think of it as payment for the curse I'll be putting on you with my coming questions.
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I'm sure you won't be any worse than the rest of them. But alright. We'll consider it a trade then. Should I be expecting these questions soon then, or are you still ruminating on them?
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[ You know the art where it looks like a shadow just makes someone a completely blacked out silhouette. That is happening with just his eyes showing. ]
Have you seen it?
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I have, yeah. The tree's been there and the apples were fine, but... I've heard something changed. Have you gone near it recently?
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[ ... ]
For some reason, when I approached it, I had an understanding that an apple can offer a miracle. For a price. That's an insane thought, isn't it?
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[ People are just numbers, eventually. Yet slowly he returns to being normal. ]
But I suppose whatever miracle it is, it wouldn't make her happy.
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... "her"? [ the girl in the picture, maybe? ]
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