We were working on another project. [The echo appears in his voice:] The Hexcore; a mechanical, magical runic matrix. [And then it disappears again.] I had been studying it. It could evolve.
We were in a council meeting, and there was an explosion. I would have died, but Jayce... transmuted me with the Hexcore. I became connected to it and the arcane. It works its miracles through me now.
[i'm so bad at guessing npcs anyway so it doesn't even matter!!!!]
He had changed... after touching the arcane. His mind was suffering. He said Hextech was a curse, but... I was giving so many salvation, if he could only see it. Freedom from their pain.
I suppose he wanted to stop me - out of love, out of hate. The emotions that cloud reason.
[ thinks about the things he has said about emotions. thinks about him saying he's been giving people salvation. MMMMMMMMMMMM. ]
... I... wouldn't equate the two, though? Love and hate.
Freeing people from their emotional pain by eliminating the emotions—isn't that taking away another kind of freedom from them? People need more than reason to live fulfilling lives.
The two are both emotions resulting in consequences. Good, bad.
[Let him cook, damn.]
It was meant to be a freedom from all pain and suffering. Mental, physical. I wanted to build an era of peace, of perfection. The commune was... a prototype. I understand the failings now. Everyone needs to be of one mind.
[His brows furrow. The look in his eyes struggle to reconcile - love, it being love, it being a neutral benefaction. Viktor, full of compassion, given the means by a cosmic power understanding neither good nor evil.
He looks at the files as if they will give him the answer to this question.]
[ lailah can accept a savior complex. they are more concerned with dissecting this weird anti-emotions sentiment. ]
Ensuring your own survival is a logical necessity. But ensuring the safety and survival of others is compassion. [ conclusion: viktor must be a kind person... ]
Helping the people where I was born, the ones in Zaun.
[He can admit to that. He is not calling it love, but not because he wouldn't as himself, as Viktor, but because something needling in his brain is trying to disregard the need for love in favor of simply a neutral compassion.]
[Two of them... Except one is very insane. I guess both could be insane, but still.]
Zaun was called the Undercity because it sat below the ground beneath Piltover. It was polluted badly. Many people struggled with mutations, or diseases, and later, addiction.
That sounds horrible... [ gently. ] Where I come from we have black market districts, and some areas overrun with delinquents... But they don't face quite the same problems. [ mutations, disease, or addiction. or pollution. (that is all of the problems.) ] They're just a bit chaotic. It's a good reminder to count my blessings.
I understand why you would want to help and protect the people suffering under those conditions, though.
And I'm glad that they had someone with so much love in his heart to do it. [ :) ]
Zaun's poor living conditions likely contributed to my own terminal illness, and perhaps even the bad leg I was born with. So I understood their suffering. I wanted to change their futures.
[ sounds like a request someone with emotions would make. ]
I hope that Heaven finds you in better health. [ because like logically it should but also we let everyone show up with whatever injuries they wanted to keep so i guess it doesn't. luck of the draw??? ] And I hope that the future you gave them carries them for a long time, now that you're here.
[ they haven't watched arcane................. they don't know.......... ]
[He isn't sure what else to say to that sort of knowledge. He should be grateful to have lived at all, doing what he could, creating. But it feels unfinished. He glances away, lips thin.]
[ they start to tuck the papers they had been looking at back into their folders, nice and tidy. ]
You've been selfless for some time. It isn't a bad trait—not one that you should give up.
But now that you're here, you may want to think more about what you would like for yourself. Once our transportation is fixed and we're able to get back to the rest of Heaven, we can work on getting you settled into your afterlife properly.
[ they just assume he's super dead for real and also that he qualifies for heaven even though he said the arcane may have sent him here and he is kind of a cult leader. ]
[ HMMMM fear. but lailah doesn't know so they will take any papers offered and make sure they're all in the right place. yay! organizing! ]
No one knows what to expect when they pass on. Even the people who believe in God and Heaven—we all have our own ideas of what it will be. And sometimes we're a little right and sometimes we're a little wrong.
If helping others is what brings you happiness, that will still be something you can do. It might just take a new shape.
Well, he is not helping the people who he really wants to help, and that is both frustrating and depressing. He frowns into the distance - thoughtful, not unhinged and hallucinating.]
I want to help, yes. But I wanted to help the people who are still alive. Who... have a chance, have a life.
That's close, but not exactly. The group on the other side have passed away in their lives. Think of this as their screening process for permanent residence in Heaven. It's just that... they could have a second chance, if they would prefer.
But that is a gift, offered by the grace of God. It doesn't mean that they're alive right now.
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[ don't worry about it... ]
If he was touched by the arcane—what is it that transmuted you? And what did that change?
[ they're more concerned with viktor than jayce. who even is that guy. he's not here. ]
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We were working on another project. [The echo appears in his voice:] The Hexcore; a mechanical, magical runic matrix. [And then it disappears again.] I had been studying it. It could evolve.
We were in a council meeting, and there was an explosion. I would have died, but Jayce... transmuted me with the Hexcore. I became connected to it and the arcane. It works its miracles through me now.
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Then what is the difference? Between how you were both touched by the arcane. It sounds as if he wanted to save you with it, at first.
But it drove you apart?
[ and they will circle back to the miracles part. at some point. ]
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He had changed... after touching the arcane. His mind was suffering. He said Hextech was a curse, but... I was giving so many salvation, if he could only see it. Freedom from their pain.
I suppose he wanted to stop me - out of love, out of hate. The emotions that cloud reason.
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... I... wouldn't equate the two, though? Love and hate.
Freeing people from their emotional pain by eliminating the emotions—isn't that taking away another kind of freedom from them? People need more than reason to live fulfilling lives.
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[Let him cook, damn.]
It was meant to be a freedom from all pain and suffering. Mental, physical. I wanted to build an era of peace, of perfection. The commune was... a prototype. I understand the failings now. Everyone needs to be of one mind.
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Everything results in consequences in some way. Even reason can come with mistakes and misjudgments.
What is it that makes you want to care for others? To make a commune?
Is that not love?
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[His brows furrow. The look in his eyes struggle to reconcile - love, it being love, it being a neutral benefaction. Viktor, full of compassion, given the means by a cosmic power understanding neither good nor evil.
He looks at the files as if they will give him the answer to this question.]
It was... a necessity.
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[ lailah can accept a savior complex. they are more concerned with dissecting this weird anti-emotions sentiment. ]
Ensuring your own survival is a logical necessity. But ensuring the safety and survival of others is compassion. [ conclusion: viktor must be a kind person... ]
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It is an impartial one. My goal was to help everyone, but especially those who needed it.
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Because it it wasn't for your own benefit—that's love. Isn't it?
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[Be glad he didn't say "we."]
Helping the people where I was born, the ones in Zaun.
[He can admit to that. He is not calling it love, but not because he wouldn't as himself, as Viktor, but because something needling in his brain is trying to disregard the need for love in favor of simply a neutral compassion.]
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[ a little nod and - probably a smile. who's to say. ]
Did they need more help than others? Or was it just that you care more about your own, local community?
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Zaun was called the Undercity because it sat below the ground beneath Piltover. It was polluted badly. Many people struggled with mutations, or diseases, and later, addiction.
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That sounds horrible... [ gently. ] Where I come from we have black market districts, and some areas overrun with delinquents... But they don't face quite the same problems. [ mutations, disease, or addiction. or pollution. (that is all of the problems.) ] They're just a bit chaotic. It's a good reminder to count my blessings.
I understand why you would want to help and protect the people suffering under those conditions, though.
And I'm glad that they had someone with so much love in his heart to do it. [ :) ]
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Zaun's poor living conditions likely contributed to my own terminal illness, and perhaps even the bad leg I was born with. So I understood their suffering. I wanted to change their futures.
Give them futures.
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I hope that Heaven finds you in better health. [ because like logically it should but also we let everyone show up with whatever injuries they wanted to keep so i guess it doesn't. luck of the draw??? ] And I hope that the future you gave them carries them for a long time, now that you're here.
[ they haven't watched arcane................. they don't know.......... ]
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[Damn, they need to watch Arcane badly.]
...Thank you.
[He isn't sure what else to say to that sort of knowledge. He should be grateful to have lived at all, doing what he could, creating. But it feels unfinished. He glances away, lips thin.]
I hope so, too.
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You've been selfless for some time. It isn't a bad trait—not one that you should give up.
But now that you're here, you may want to think more about what you would like for yourself. Once our transportation is fixed and we're able to get back to the rest of Heaven, we can work on getting you settled into your afterlife properly.
[ they just assume he's super dead for real and also that he qualifies for heaven even though he said the arcane may have sent him here and he is kind of a cult leader. ]
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He idly looks over the papers being sorted, maybe hands them a few.]
I'm not sure. I never imagined I would have to decided something like that.
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No one knows what to expect when they pass on. Even the people who believe in God and Heaven—we all have our own ideas of what it will be. And sometimes we're a little right and sometimes we're a little wrong.
If helping others is what brings you happiness, that will still be something you can do. It might just take a new shape.
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Well, he is not helping the people who he really wants to help, and that is both frustrating and depressing. He frowns into the distance - thoughtful, not unhinged and hallucinating.]
I want to help, yes. But I wanted to help the people who are still alive. Who... have a chance, have a life.
That is what is happening here, correct?
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That's close, but not exactly. The group on the other side have passed away in their lives. Think of this as their screening process for permanent residence in Heaven. It's just that... they could have a second chance, if they would prefer.
But that is a gift, offered by the grace of God. It doesn't mean that they're alive right now.
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I understand that. [People die when they are killed. That's fine.] But they have an opportunity.
That's what's important.
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[ free will! ]
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