He wonders if, looking over the edge of an aqueduct, they've ever had ideations of flinging themself off. Because why would God stay silent when you needed Them the most during the darkest times? It's easy to be angry at God when you're struggling to forgive yourself for mistakes made in weakness.
[ "you seem really nice, are you suicidal by any chance?" ]
Thank you.
We can't exactly say the same for you, but... That's less to do with you and more to do with the nature of your arrival. I can tell that you have a good heart.
[ he's so caring about helping people! with his emotions! his caring emotions!! ]
I don't know much about the magic in other worlds. There is no magic, where I'm from. [ thoughtful. ] Do you trust the arcane? It changed your friend, but it guided you in a way that you believe in.
Yes, exactly. There are always different intentions behind what people do. Some good, some bad. The arcane isn't that way. There is neither good nor bad within it.
[Maybe sometimes it's incomplete, though, but unfortunately, he does not know this (in the present). His inspiration...]
[ that denial is so suspiciously specific that they believe him a lot less suddenly. ]
Wasn't it also responsible for a change in your friend? [ the change that resulted in his death? also they've swapped partner for friend. don't worry about that. ]
Is it not? It's something from beyond our reality that can change us.
[ shuffling papers just to be doing something with their hands. ]
For the worse, in the case that we've seen. But even with their Mystic turned into Terror, after some... brief conflict... they still weren't completely lost. I hear they're doing well these days?
They haven't needed any help from the Sisterhood, in this case... Though our doors are always open to them. But I believe they have still had quite a bit of help getting settled.
Help can come from different places. It doesn't all have to be one group, or one person.
It's unfortunate. But that's why its so heartening that there are people like you. [ they are so :unsure: about his whole everything, but they do still believe that he has good intentions and cares about people! ]
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He wonders if, looking over the edge of an aqueduct, they've ever had ideations of flinging themself off. Because why would God stay silent when you needed Them the most during the darkest times? It's easy to be angry at God when you're struggling to forgive yourself for mistakes made in weakness.
But he does not ask since they seem kind.]
I can see why you're here.
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Thank you.
We can't exactly say the same for you, but... That's less to do with you and more to do with the nature of your arrival. I can tell that you have a good heart.
[ he's so caring about helping people! with his emotions! his caring emotions!! ]
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Somehow, the arcane got in the way perhaps.
[There are no emotions here!!! He's getting rid of them!!]
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I don't know much about the magic in other worlds. There is no magic, where I'm from. [ thoughtful. ] Do you trust the arcane? It changed your friend, but it guided you in a way that you believe in.
Do you think that it was right to bring you here?
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It was likely doing what it could. [To save him? To save itself? He doesn't say. (It won't let him say it.)] ...I trust it.
It does not have the same sort of intentions as people do.
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anyway they point to themselves because they're like... well, i'm people? ]
The intentions of people vary from person to person.
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Yes, exactly. There are always different intentions behind what people do. Some good, some bad. The arcane isn't that way. There is neither good nor bad within it.
[Maybe sometimes it's incomplete, though, but unfortunately, he does not know this (in the present). His inspiration...]
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[Rhetorically.]
It is malleable. Our talents are only mirrors reflecting those very intentions I mentioned before.
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[ the reverse is less true. hard to accidentally help someone intending to hurt them. ]
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[:')]
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Wasn't it also responsible for a change in your friend? [ the change that resulted in his death? also they've swapped partner for friend. don't worry about that. ]
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Something begins to grow a little addled in his eyes. Maybe not him.]
It had touched him somehow, but I cannot say what he experienced. He didn't tell me.
[Why didn't Jayce tell him...?]
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[ communication can solve so many problems. ]
Where I'm from, most people having something called their Mystic. Exposure to certain... complex outside elements... can turn this into Terror.
It changes you. [ for the worse. predictably. judging by the name. ] I wonder if the arcane is something like that. Something that stains your nature.
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The offense creeps into the furrowing of his brows.]
No, I don't think it's like that.
[They had to know he would say this.]
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[ shuffling papers just to be doing something with their hands. ]
For the worse, in the case that we've seen. But even with their Mystic turned into Terror, after some... brief conflict... they still weren't completely lost. I hear they're doing well these days?
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Is there no way to stop it, or to heal them completely?
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... I think that we still carry the things that we heal from.
They are who they are now. But they are at peace, and we are at peace, and they can rebuild a new life with what is left.
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Even so, those are the ones who I try to help the most. If they come to me. They're the ones the collective is for.
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They haven't needed any help from the Sisterhood, in this case... Though our doors are always open to them. But I believe they have still had quite a bit of help getting settled.
Help can come from different places. It doesn't all have to be one group, or one person.
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It doesn't, and it shouldn't, but it rarely is.
[Is that some bitterness seeping through?! My god, an emotion. Viktor is in there.]
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It's unfortunate. But that's why its so heartening that there are people like you. [ they are so :unsure: about his whole everything, but they do still believe that he has good intentions and cares about people! ]
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His glance at them is dubious, then he's quick to turn away.]
Others are always quick to destroy that sort of work.
[He can't even rouse the irritation he wants. Just a simple "people are people." But his hand does squeeze into a fist.]
The utopia I'll make will be different.
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[ though: ] If you stay in Heaven, you'll already be in a utopia. There could still be work to do to help others, but they won't need nearly as much.
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I don't really have intentions on staying.
[Not that he thinks he can just walk out of here. Mind over matter sort of thinking first.]
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