Faith has always given me strength. Knowing that an unconditional love and forgiveness exists in the world makes every day lighter and easier, and being a member of the Sisterhood has allowed me to help so many people, despite my own shortcomings.
[He is debating how to take this; the absolute bonkers difficulty in being a secular man now imbued with something that could, honestly, be labeled as a kind of divinity...... Many people thought he was a god.]
[He watches them for a long, searching moment (even if he can't see shit of them).]
Have you ever been terminally ill? Have you ever lost someone important to you? Have you ever tried and failed?
[He does not ask these rudely, as if he is saying they haven't and he has, but more genuinely. Have they experienced these soul-crushing things and still continued to have faith in something so intangible?]
Failure is something everyone experiences. There are a lot of things I'm not very good at, and I'm prone to clumsiness and mistakes...
But I'm fortunate enough to have my health and my community. That's exactly why it's so important that I spend my time sharing the ways that I've been blessed and helping others less fortunate.
He wonders if, looking over the edge of an aqueduct, they've ever had ideations of flinging themself off. Because why would God stay silent when you needed Them the most during the darkest times? It's easy to be angry at God when you're struggling to forgive yourself for mistakes made in weakness.
[ "you seem really nice, are you suicidal by any chance?" ]
Thank you.
We can't exactly say the same for you, but... That's less to do with you and more to do with the nature of your arrival. I can tell that you have a good heart.
[ he's so caring about helping people! with his emotions! his caring emotions!! ]
I don't know much about the magic in other worlds. There is no magic, where I'm from. [ thoughtful. ] Do you trust the arcane? It changed your friend, but it guided you in a way that you believe in.
Yes, exactly. There are always different intentions behind what people do. Some good, some bad. The arcane isn't that way. There is neither good nor bad within it.
[Maybe sometimes it's incomplete, though, but unfortunately, he does not know this (in the present). His inspiration...]
[ that denial is so suspiciously specific that they believe him a lot less suddenly. ]
Wasn't it also responsible for a change in your friend? [ the change that resulted in his death? also they've swapped partner for friend. don't worry about that. ]
Is it not? It's something from beyond our reality that can change us.
[ shuffling papers just to be doing something with their hands. ]
For the worse, in the case that we've seen. But even with their Mystic turned into Terror, after some... brief conflict... they still weren't completely lost. I hear they're doing well these days?
They haven't needed any help from the Sisterhood, in this case... Though our doors are always open to them. But I believe they have still had quite a bit of help getting settled.
Help can come from different places. It doesn't all have to be one group, or one person.
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Faith has always given me strength. Knowing that an unconditional love and forgiveness exists in the world makes every day lighter and easier, and being a member of the Sisterhood has allowed me to help so many people, despite my own shortcomings.
God has always given my life meaning.
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You have never found yourself angry at God?
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No. Not really. There have been times I've had to reflect on doubts and questions. But I wouldn't say that I've ever been angry at the Lord.
But I don't like to get angry at anyone if I can avoid it.
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Have you ever been terminally ill? Have you ever lost someone important to you? Have you ever tried and failed?
[He does not ask these rudely, as if he is saying they haven't and he has, but more genuinely. Have they experienced these soul-crushing things and still continued to have faith in something so intangible?]
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Failure is something everyone experiences. There are a lot of things I'm not very good at, and I'm prone to clumsiness and mistakes...
But I'm fortunate enough to have my health and my community. That's exactly why it's so important that I spend my time sharing the ways that I've been blessed and helping others less fortunate.
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He wonders if, looking over the edge of an aqueduct, they've ever had ideations of flinging themself off. Because why would God stay silent when you needed Them the most during the darkest times? It's easy to be angry at God when you're struggling to forgive yourself for mistakes made in weakness.
But he does not ask since they seem kind.]
I can see why you're here.
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Thank you.
We can't exactly say the same for you, but... That's less to do with you and more to do with the nature of your arrival. I can tell that you have a good heart.
[ he's so caring about helping people! with his emotions! his caring emotions!! ]
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Somehow, the arcane got in the way perhaps.
[There are no emotions here!!! He's getting rid of them!!]
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I don't know much about the magic in other worlds. There is no magic, where I'm from. [ thoughtful. ] Do you trust the arcane? It changed your friend, but it guided you in a way that you believe in.
Do you think that it was right to bring you here?
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It was likely doing what it could. [To save him? To save itself? He doesn't say. (It won't let him say it.)] ...I trust it.
It does not have the same sort of intentions as people do.
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anyway they point to themselves because they're like... well, i'm people? ]
The intentions of people vary from person to person.
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Yes, exactly. There are always different intentions behind what people do. Some good, some bad. The arcane isn't that way. There is neither good nor bad within it.
[Maybe sometimes it's incomplete, though, but unfortunately, he does not know this (in the present). His inspiration...]
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[Rhetorically.]
It is malleable. Our talents are only mirrors reflecting those very intentions I mentioned before.
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[ the reverse is less true. hard to accidentally help someone intending to hurt them. ]
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[:')]
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Wasn't it also responsible for a change in your friend? [ the change that resulted in his death? also they've swapped partner for friend. don't worry about that. ]
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Something begins to grow a little addled in his eyes. Maybe not him.]
It had touched him somehow, but I cannot say what he experienced. He didn't tell me.
[Why didn't Jayce tell him...?]
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[ communication can solve so many problems. ]
Where I'm from, most people having something called their Mystic. Exposure to certain... complex outside elements... can turn this into Terror.
It changes you. [ for the worse. predictably. judging by the name. ] I wonder if the arcane is something like that. Something that stains your nature.
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The offense creeps into the furrowing of his brows.]
No, I don't think it's like that.
[They had to know he would say this.]
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[ shuffling papers just to be doing something with their hands. ]
For the worse, in the case that we've seen. But even with their Mystic turned into Terror, after some... brief conflict... they still weren't completely lost. I hear they're doing well these days?
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Is there no way to stop it, or to heal them completely?
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... I think that we still carry the things that we heal from.
They are who they are now. But they are at peace, and we are at peace, and they can rebuild a new life with what is left.
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Even so, those are the ones who I try to help the most. If they come to me. They're the ones the collective is for.
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They haven't needed any help from the Sisterhood, in this case... Though our doors are always open to them. But I believe they have still had quite a bit of help getting settled.
Help can come from different places. It doesn't all have to be one group, or one person.
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