That's close, but not exactly. The group on the other side have passed away in their lives. Think of this as their screening process for permanent residence in Heaven. It's just that... they could have a second chance, if they would prefer.
But that is a gift, offered by the grace of God. It doesn't mean that they're alive right now.
[He wants to ask what of the people who did not get that chance, but...... change has to start somewhere? Plenty of people from the Undercity are dead, and they did not have the chance to run into his own bizarre grace.]
And you... are alright with... God?
[This one. The... God. Anyway, it's very hard for him to talk about this because he absolutely did not believe in God before. Now? Damn.]
[ they do think it's unfortunate, but to make the change retroactive would be... perhaps impossible, even for god. the best time you can do something good is yesterday. the second-best time is now, after all! ]
Faith has always given me strength. Knowing that an unconditional love and forgiveness exists in the world makes every day lighter and easier, and being a member of the Sisterhood has allowed me to help so many people, despite my own shortcomings.
[He is debating how to take this; the absolute bonkers difficulty in being a secular man now imbued with something that could, honestly, be labeled as a kind of divinity...... Many people thought he was a god.]
[He watches them for a long, searching moment (even if he can't see shit of them).]
Have you ever been terminally ill? Have you ever lost someone important to you? Have you ever tried and failed?
[He does not ask these rudely, as if he is saying they haven't and he has, but more genuinely. Have they experienced these soul-crushing things and still continued to have faith in something so intangible?]
Failure is something everyone experiences. There are a lot of things I'm not very good at, and I'm prone to clumsiness and mistakes...
But I'm fortunate enough to have my health and my community. That's exactly why it's so important that I spend my time sharing the ways that I've been blessed and helping others less fortunate.
He wonders if, looking over the edge of an aqueduct, they've ever had ideations of flinging themself off. Because why would God stay silent when you needed Them the most during the darkest times? It's easy to be angry at God when you're struggling to forgive yourself for mistakes made in weakness.
[ "you seem really nice, are you suicidal by any chance?" ]
Thank you.
We can't exactly say the same for you, but... That's less to do with you and more to do with the nature of your arrival. I can tell that you have a good heart.
[ he's so caring about helping people! with his emotions! his caring emotions!! ]
I don't know much about the magic in other worlds. There is no magic, where I'm from. [ thoughtful. ] Do you trust the arcane? It changed your friend, but it guided you in a way that you believe in.
Yes, exactly. There are always different intentions behind what people do. Some good, some bad. The arcane isn't that way. There is neither good nor bad within it.
[Maybe sometimes it's incomplete, though, but unfortunately, he does not know this (in the present). His inspiration...]
[ that denial is so suspiciously specific that they believe him a lot less suddenly. ]
Wasn't it also responsible for a change in your friend? [ the change that resulted in his death? also they've swapped partner for friend. don't worry about that. ]
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That's close, but not exactly. The group on the other side have passed away in their lives. Think of this as their screening process for permanent residence in Heaven. It's just that... they could have a second chance, if they would prefer.
But that is a gift, offered by the grace of God. It doesn't mean that they're alive right now.
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I understand that. [People die when they are killed. That's fine.] But they have an opportunity.
That's what's important.
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[ free will! ]
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He does not say this since he is not irrevocably changed yet.]
Should everyone not always have another chance? [Hypothetical debate here.] I thought God would be fair.
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A positive change has to start somewhere!
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And you... are alright with... God?
[This one. The... God. Anyway, it's very hard for him to talk about this because he absolutely did not believe in God before. Now? Damn.]
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More than alright. ♪
I've served under God since before I met them.
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I see.
[Assigned nun who can do long-ranged combat.]
Why?
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Faith has always given me strength. Knowing that an unconditional love and forgiveness exists in the world makes every day lighter and easier, and being a member of the Sisterhood has allowed me to help so many people, despite my own shortcomings.
God has always given my life meaning.
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You have never found yourself angry at God?
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No. Not really. There have been times I've had to reflect on doubts and questions. But I wouldn't say that I've ever been angry at the Lord.
But I don't like to get angry at anyone if I can avoid it.
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Have you ever been terminally ill? Have you ever lost someone important to you? Have you ever tried and failed?
[He does not ask these rudely, as if he is saying they haven't and he has, but more genuinely. Have they experienced these soul-crushing things and still continued to have faith in something so intangible?]
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Failure is something everyone experiences. There are a lot of things I'm not very good at, and I'm prone to clumsiness and mistakes...
But I'm fortunate enough to have my health and my community. That's exactly why it's so important that I spend my time sharing the ways that I've been blessed and helping others less fortunate.
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He wonders if, looking over the edge of an aqueduct, they've ever had ideations of flinging themself off. Because why would God stay silent when you needed Them the most during the darkest times? It's easy to be angry at God when you're struggling to forgive yourself for mistakes made in weakness.
But he does not ask since they seem kind.]
I can see why you're here.
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Thank you.
We can't exactly say the same for you, but... That's less to do with you and more to do with the nature of your arrival. I can tell that you have a good heart.
[ he's so caring about helping people! with his emotions! his caring emotions!! ]
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Somehow, the arcane got in the way perhaps.
[There are no emotions here!!! He's getting rid of them!!]
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I don't know much about the magic in other worlds. There is no magic, where I'm from. [ thoughtful. ] Do you trust the arcane? It changed your friend, but it guided you in a way that you believe in.
Do you think that it was right to bring you here?
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It was likely doing what it could. [To save him? To save itself? He doesn't say. (It won't let him say it.)] ...I trust it.
It does not have the same sort of intentions as people do.
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anyway they point to themselves because they're like... well, i'm people? ]
The intentions of people vary from person to person.
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Yes, exactly. There are always different intentions behind what people do. Some good, some bad. The arcane isn't that way. There is neither good nor bad within it.
[Maybe sometimes it's incomplete, though, but unfortunately, he does not know this (in the present). His inspiration...]
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[Rhetorically.]
It is malleable. Our talents are only mirrors reflecting those very intentions I mentioned before.
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[ the reverse is less true. hard to accidentally help someone intending to hurt them. ]
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[:')]
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Wasn't it also responsible for a change in your friend? [ the change that resulted in his death? also they've swapped partner for friend. don't worry about that. ]
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