... Being kind is something, if all else fails to measure up.
[ Though Jacopo doesn't entirely believe that, he knows the importance of just being good to people. It's something he has lost, he thinks, but it does matter.
Everyone and their mom should feel lucky that Jacopo doesn't put so much stock into people's past, instead valuing more how they conduct themselves around him in the present, so he allows them to be vague even though it does make it difficult to know how to respond. ]
The point was that I wasn't thinking about everyone at first.
[ because sometimes even kindness is a struggle, they think. at this point they're probably on the train, fell asleep, and have since actually arrived in italy because they have been walking for so long. anyway, thanks for not digging into the past. ]
And my point is you didn't die thinking about nobody else, did you?
[ THEY ARE IN ITALY... FAMILIAR PLACE, YET NOT... BECAUSE JACOPO IS FROM SICILY and Italy can't grow wheat for shit. ]
I died with regret, I suppose. [ It's hard to know what you actually feel when you're depressed back then and now. ] I didn't want it to be that way, but that was reality.
[ And it is his fault, in the end. ]
Never did get to see home, or what I thought I remembered of it. Just stayed in that city and died there.
While I admire you for seeing it for what it is, it's... a bummer, I guess. That it had to end that way. [ let us walk in familiar yet not familiar italy. ]
It comes back to dying without feeling like you actually did much of anything, right? Even if it's not entirely true, it's hard to see it another way.
It's not like I did anything except become a huge disappointment, watch my life fall apart and die. So... maybe not all situations are the same, but I think I did the opposite of what I wanted to do. I get that much.
[ i think it's funny if they have coffee, so yes. ]
I don't like being with my own thoughts. So I'd rather they center elsewhere.
[ a dash of honesty. to a cafe! ]
But in a way, yeah. This is honestly still better than things were before, and a lot of the people are actually nicer. Everybody's interesting, even if there's always stuff I won't get.
[ Well, that's fair. He understands it, even though he lets himself simmer in his own thoughts which isn't always great. ]
You unfortunately face them eventually. [ He would know, considering his memory of just losing his mind, but they can let that gently taper off as a topic. ] What stuff don't you get?
[ They can sit at a cafe, order some coffee... Jacopo will even get a biscuit. ]
[ yay coffee. they also order some coffee and have a seat even if there's a grim noise of acceptance. yes. you have to face them eventually. ]
Some of you come from places that are way beyond me, for one. I have trouble keeping it all straight sometimes. And there are those of you who don't always agree with me, and vice versa. Which is fine.
[ He will sip his coffee and he will squint as he savors the taste. It's strange... A bit acidic, yet toasty. A little bitterness. Not bad? Does he like it? Unsure.
Why do I feel like that's not true coming from you? [ sips their coffee. ] It's strong if you're not used to it, and some people cut through the flavor with milk and stuff, but I don't mind it like this either. Black coffee's easiest.
Gamaliel did show me the latte and milk does make it more palatable... But I think I don't mind it without, either. [ Looks at the cup. ] Too bad it's cursed.
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[ Though Jacopo doesn't entirely believe that, he knows the importance of just being good to people. It's something he has lost, he thinks, but it does matter.
Everyone and their mom should feel lucky that Jacopo doesn't put so much stock into people's past, instead valuing more how they conduct themselves around him in the present, so he allows them to be vague even though it does make it difficult to know how to respond. ]
The point was that I wasn't thinking about everyone at first.
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[ because sometimes even kindness is a struggle, they think. at this point they're probably on the train, fell asleep, and have since actually arrived in italy because they have been walking for so long. anyway, thanks for not digging into the past. ]
And my point is you didn't die thinking about nobody else, did you?
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I died with regret, I suppose. [ It's hard to know what you actually feel when you're depressed back then and now. ] I didn't want it to be that way, but that was reality.
[ And it is his fault, in the end. ]
Never did get to see home, or what I thought I remembered of it. Just stayed in that city and died there.
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While I admire you for seeing it for what it is, it's... a bummer, I guess. That it had to end that way. [ let us walk in familiar yet not familiar italy. ]
It comes back to dying without feeling like you actually did much of anything, right? Even if it's not entirely true, it's hard to see it another way.
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[ Sometimes you die accomplishing nothing actually important to you. ]
Not all situations are the same.
[ MAKES SURE TO POINT THIS OUT. This doesn't have to apply to you. ]
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You're incorrigible.
[ never mind ]
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[ THEN WHY COMMENT ON IT he just felt it in his soul. ]
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Yeah. I've... been working on that. Since coming here, I mean. Maybe before that? [ shrug. ] It's a little easier when the focus is on all of you.
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[ Rest and relax. Stop thinking so much. Are they going to have... coffee. ]
Has it been fulfilling so far?
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I don't like being with my own thoughts. So I'd rather they center elsewhere.
[ a dash of honesty. to a cafe! ]
But in a way, yeah. This is honestly still better than things were before, and a lot of the people are actually nicer. Everybody's interesting, even if there's always stuff I won't get.
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You unfortunately face them eventually. [ He would know, considering his memory of just losing his mind, but they can let that gently taper off as a topic. ] What stuff don't you get?
[ They can sit at a cafe, order some coffee... Jacopo will even get a biscuit. ]
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Some of you come from places that are way beyond me, for one. I have trouble keeping it all straight sometimes. And there are those of you who don't always agree with me, and vice versa. Which is fine.
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He's going through a phase as he listens. ]
Ten.
[ .... becomes confused..... ]
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Uh?
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It's not important. [ Likely. ] Coffee has an interesting flavor and aftertaste.
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[ Is that better? ]
Gamaliel did show me the latte and milk does make it more palatable... But I think I don't mind it without, either. [ Looks at the cup. ] Too bad it's cursed.
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Sometimes you just want something bitter. [ a pause. ] What do you mean it's cursed?
[ and then: ]
Eight and a half.
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Why.
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[ Needles. ]
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You first?
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[ Doesn't hesitate because he imagines the sputter means Gabriel's must be embarrassing. ]
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