You really shouldn't bother being skeptical. That just says you don't trust me, and that, actually, is pretty offensive. After everything we've been through you won't take me at my word?
... I think I bared more than I would have liked, in honesty. After I apologize to Morgana, I was considering... If I was allowed, I would like to start over.
[ Without all that Gabriel as seen. All of the hurt, the pain, and the emotional weight he has shouldered that he didn't ask for. Maybe the weight he didn't need to shoulder, but wouldn't allow himself to set down. Strip him of it all so he can try again.
Just a touch of honesty randomly on this week. ]
Then I could bare better things next time when I find myself in another insane predicament. [ A bit lightheartedly. ] You don't need to tell me, though I was truthful when I said quality of company.
... yeah? [ no, go back, they want to explore this. ] I don't think that's the worst option. Sometimes... starting over is exactly what you need. Even if the circumstances leading you to it aren't the best, it's worth a thought.
[ there's a little laugh though. ]
I think you're a more honest man than you give yourself credit for, but one step at a time. I'm glad, you know? That you're really thinking about this. I hope you keep thinking about it. [ and that this isn't just because of loss week. ] ...don't make it weird, but I do enjoy the time I get to spend with you. More than a lot of other people. Thanks for letting me.
That's the first I've heard that. I suppose both accounts... People don't normally care for my company anymore back at home.
[ He is constantly told he puts on airs and he does. He doesn't like speaking about himself honestly despite being straight-forward otherwise. Then being an unpopular lord, rightfully disliked because of his attitude and personality. ]
People would think of it as death.
[ It's death to an ego, isn't it? Even if you reincarnate with the same name, your life is different. Your story will be different... You don't remember anything about your lives before.
He would be clean of it all, but apparently not desires. He would love for all eternity, he would keep seeking to pledge his everlasting devotion and it will follow him in every life. Souls are hardy things, though they can shatter from constant trauma. ]
Even after apologizing to her, if I get the chance, I can't imagine living like this that much longer, so it would be nice to consider in the case I don't get sent to hell... That I can restart instead. Maybe in the next life, I can make someone I care about happy.
And people stopped caring for mine, too. I'd say we're evenly matched. [ they have not exactly been shy about saying people weren't exactly friendly back home, but they don't mind spelling it out. ]
My fresh start sort of went to hell pretty fast. This was another one, so I don't think calling death a fresh start's that wrong either. I think there are things dying does, like giving you more options for things, but it doesn't always change wanting things or looking for answers if you don't have them. But it could be interesting. Seeing what a new life brings to find them again.
I... [ ...hm. no. ] It feels kind of open and shut that way. Apologizing to Morgana, closing that loop, and starting over. I don't think it's bad. [ ... ] Having met who you were before circumstances screwed you over? I think you could do that. Make a person happy, I mean. But that's just me.
You're a bit crass, but I don't see why they stopped. Must show how many steps you've taken since then, or perhaps they were disillusioned.
[ However they want to take it. He won't force them. He listens to them chatter, they sure do like chances, possibilities, and potential—it reminds him of himself one point in time. Jacopo is thinking simple right now because it's hard for him to imagine. Gabriel is on their second and he can barely grasp the idea of a first. He is just wondering if he can feel... Less tired one day, less heavy.
It almost feels wrong, but he's settling with it. ]
It could be. Morgana deserves that loop to close. [ For her pain and suffering to end. While he does think about how it's nice to hear someone believe in him, he has to remind himself it's the person he used to be. ] There's always a chance in the next life I'll walk down the wrong path again, but that's all chance.
[ He could be... Not as cursed and tragic next time. All chance. ]
Well you know how rumors are. Somebody hears something about your old reputation and it spreads around before you can even really do anything about it. Kinda like being doomed from the start but throwing yourself in anyway to see. [ sip. ] ... here has been really different, and I don't know if it's because I haven't mentioned, like, most things about me or if it's really about taking steps. I'd like it to be the latter, but... I also know I haven't been really great about the former.
[ sometimes you're just a little guy and you are fixated on the idea of something new to escape terrible things. ]
Do you have any idea how you might go about trying to find her? [ ... ] That's the chance in anything, you're right. But it also depends who you're around and where you are. I think a lot can be said about circumstance. It's half the reason I believed in this. So let me hope for you.
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But, sure, quality of coffee worth sputtering and sharing second.
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Shame.
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[ Without all that Gabriel as seen. All of the hurt, the pain, and the emotional weight he has shouldered that he didn't ask for. Maybe the weight he didn't need to shoulder, but wouldn't allow himself to set down. Strip him of it all so he can try again.
Just a touch of honesty randomly on this week. ]
Then I could bare better things next time when I find myself in another insane predicament. [ A bit lightheartedly. ] You don't need to tell me, though I was truthful when I said quality of company.
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[ there's a little laugh though. ]
I think you're a more honest man than you give yourself credit for, but one step at a time. I'm glad, you know? That you're really thinking about this. I hope you keep thinking about it. [ and that this isn't just because of loss week. ] ...don't make it weird, but I do enjoy the time I get to spend with you. More than a lot of other people. Thanks for letting me.
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[ He is constantly told he puts on airs and he does. He doesn't like speaking about himself honestly despite being straight-forward otherwise. Then being an unpopular lord, rightfully disliked because of his attitude and personality. ]
People would think of it as death.
[ It's death to an ego, isn't it? Even if you reincarnate with the same name, your life is different. Your story will be different... You don't remember anything about your lives before.
He would be clean of it all, but apparently not desires. He would love for all eternity, he would keep seeking to pledge his everlasting devotion and it will follow him in every life. Souls are hardy things, though they can shatter from constant trauma. ]
Even after apologizing to her, if I get the chance, I can't imagine living like this that much longer, so it would be nice to consider in the case I don't get sent to hell... That I can restart instead. Maybe in the next life, I can make someone I care about happy.
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My fresh start sort of went to hell pretty fast. This was another one, so I don't think calling death a fresh start's that wrong either. I think there are things dying does, like giving you more options for things, but it doesn't always change wanting things or looking for answers if you don't have them. But it could be interesting. Seeing what a new life brings to find them again.
I... [ ...hm. no. ] It feels kind of open and shut that way. Apologizing to Morgana, closing that loop, and starting over. I don't think it's bad. [ ... ] Having met who you were before circumstances screwed you over? I think you could do that. Make a person happy, I mean. But that's just me.
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[ However they want to take it. He won't force them. He listens to them chatter, they sure do like chances, possibilities, and potential—it reminds him of himself one point in time. Jacopo is thinking simple right now because it's hard for him to imagine. Gabriel is on their second and he can barely grasp the idea of a first. He is just wondering if he can feel... Less tired one day, less heavy.
It almost feels wrong, but he's settling with it. ]
It could be. Morgana deserves that loop to close. [ For her pain and suffering to end. While he does think about how it's nice to hear someone believe in him, he has to remind himself it's the person he used to be. ] There's always a chance in the next life I'll walk down the wrong path again, but that's all chance.
[ He could be... Not as cursed and tragic next time. All chance. ]
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[ sometimes you're just a little guy and you are fixated on the idea of something new to escape terrible things. ]
Do you have any idea how you might go about trying to find her? [ ... ] That's the chance in anything, you're right. But it also depends who you're around and where you are. I think a lot can be said about circumstance. It's half the reason I believed in this. So let me hope for you.