[ i think it's funny if they have coffee, so yes. ]
I don't like being with my own thoughts. So I'd rather they center elsewhere.
[ a dash of honesty. to a cafe! ]
But in a way, yeah. This is honestly still better than things were before, and a lot of the people are actually nicer. Everybody's interesting, even if there's always stuff I won't get.
[ Well, that's fair. He understands it, even though he lets himself simmer in his own thoughts which isn't always great. ]
You unfortunately face them eventually. [ He would know, considering his memory of just losing his mind, but they can let that gently taper off as a topic. ] What stuff don't you get?
[ They can sit at a cafe, order some coffee... Jacopo will even get a biscuit. ]
[ yay coffee. they also order some coffee and have a seat even if there's a grim noise of acceptance. yes. you have to face them eventually. ]
Some of you come from places that are way beyond me, for one. I have trouble keeping it all straight sometimes. And there are those of you who don't always agree with me, and vice versa. Which is fine.
[ He will sip his coffee and he will squint as he savors the taste. It's strange... A bit acidic, yet toasty. A little bitterness. Not bad? Does he like it? Unsure.
Why do I feel like that's not true coming from you? [ sips their coffee. ] It's strong if you're not used to it, and some people cut through the flavor with milk and stuff, but I don't mind it like this either. Black coffee's easiest.
Gamaliel did show me the latte and milk does make it more palatable... But I think I don't mind it without, either. [ Looks at the cup. ] Too bad it's cursed.
You really shouldn't bother being skeptical. That just says you don't trust me, and that, actually, is pretty offensive. After everything we've been through you won't take me at my word?
... I think I bared more than I would have liked, in honesty. After I apologize to Morgana, I was considering... If I was allowed, I would like to start over.
[ Without all that Gabriel as seen. All of the hurt, the pain, and the emotional weight he has shouldered that he didn't ask for. Maybe the weight he didn't need to shoulder, but wouldn't allow himself to set down. Strip him of it all so he can try again.
Just a touch of honesty randomly on this week. ]
Then I could bare better things next time when I find myself in another insane predicament. [ A bit lightheartedly. ] You don't need to tell me, though I was truthful when I said quality of company.
... yeah? [ no, go back, they want to explore this. ] I don't think that's the worst option. Sometimes... starting over is exactly what you need. Even if the circumstances leading you to it aren't the best, it's worth a thought.
[ there's a little laugh though. ]
I think you're a more honest man than you give yourself credit for, but one step at a time. I'm glad, you know? That you're really thinking about this. I hope you keep thinking about it. [ and that this isn't just because of loss week. ] ...don't make it weird, but I do enjoy the time I get to spend with you. More than a lot of other people. Thanks for letting me.
That's the first I've heard that. I suppose both accounts... People don't normally care for my company anymore back at home.
[ He is constantly told he puts on airs and he does. He doesn't like speaking about himself honestly despite being straight-forward otherwise. Then being an unpopular lord, rightfully disliked because of his attitude and personality. ]
People would think of it as death.
[ It's death to an ego, isn't it? Even if you reincarnate with the same name, your life is different. Your story will be different... You don't remember anything about your lives before.
He would be clean of it all, but apparently not desires. He would love for all eternity, he would keep seeking to pledge his everlasting devotion and it will follow him in every life. Souls are hardy things, though they can shatter from constant trauma. ]
Even after apologizing to her, if I get the chance, I can't imagine living like this that much longer, so it would be nice to consider in the case I don't get sent to hell... That I can restart instead. Maybe in the next life, I can make someone I care about happy.
And people stopped caring for mine, too. I'd say we're evenly matched. [ they have not exactly been shy about saying people weren't exactly friendly back home, but they don't mind spelling it out. ]
My fresh start sort of went to hell pretty fast. This was another one, so I don't think calling death a fresh start's that wrong either. I think there are things dying does, like giving you more options for things, but it doesn't always change wanting things or looking for answers if you don't have them. But it could be interesting. Seeing what a new life brings to find them again.
I... [ ...hm. no. ] It feels kind of open and shut that way. Apologizing to Morgana, closing that loop, and starting over. I don't think it's bad. [ ... ] Having met who you were before circumstances screwed you over? I think you could do that. Make a person happy, I mean. But that's just me.
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I don't like being with my own thoughts. So I'd rather they center elsewhere.
[ a dash of honesty. to a cafe! ]
But in a way, yeah. This is honestly still better than things were before, and a lot of the people are actually nicer. Everybody's interesting, even if there's always stuff I won't get.
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You unfortunately face them eventually. [ He would know, considering his memory of just losing his mind, but they can let that gently taper off as a topic. ] What stuff don't you get?
[ They can sit at a cafe, order some coffee... Jacopo will even get a biscuit. ]
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Some of you come from places that are way beyond me, for one. I have trouble keeping it all straight sometimes. And there are those of you who don't always agree with me, and vice versa. Which is fine.
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He's going through a phase as he listens. ]
Ten.
[ .... becomes confused..... ]
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Uh?
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It's not important. [ Likely. ] Coffee has an interesting flavor and aftertaste.
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[ Is that better? ]
Gamaliel did show me the latte and milk does make it more palatable... But I think I don't mind it without, either. [ Looks at the cup. ] Too bad it's cursed.
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Sometimes you just want something bitter. [ a pause. ] What do you mean it's cursed?
[ and then: ]
Eight and a half.
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Why.
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[ Needles. ]
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You first?
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[ Doesn't hesitate because he imagines the sputter means Gabriel's must be embarrassing. ]
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[ fucking liar. ]
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But, sure, quality of coffee worth sputtering and sharing second.
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Shame.
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[ Without all that Gabriel as seen. All of the hurt, the pain, and the emotional weight he has shouldered that he didn't ask for. Maybe the weight he didn't need to shoulder, but wouldn't allow himself to set down. Strip him of it all so he can try again.
Just a touch of honesty randomly on this week. ]
Then I could bare better things next time when I find myself in another insane predicament. [ A bit lightheartedly. ] You don't need to tell me, though I was truthful when I said quality of company.
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[ there's a little laugh though. ]
I think you're a more honest man than you give yourself credit for, but one step at a time. I'm glad, you know? That you're really thinking about this. I hope you keep thinking about it. [ and that this isn't just because of loss week. ] ...don't make it weird, but I do enjoy the time I get to spend with you. More than a lot of other people. Thanks for letting me.
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[ He is constantly told he puts on airs and he does. He doesn't like speaking about himself honestly despite being straight-forward otherwise. Then being an unpopular lord, rightfully disliked because of his attitude and personality. ]
People would think of it as death.
[ It's death to an ego, isn't it? Even if you reincarnate with the same name, your life is different. Your story will be different... You don't remember anything about your lives before.
He would be clean of it all, but apparently not desires. He would love for all eternity, he would keep seeking to pledge his everlasting devotion and it will follow him in every life. Souls are hardy things, though they can shatter from constant trauma. ]
Even after apologizing to her, if I get the chance, I can't imagine living like this that much longer, so it would be nice to consider in the case I don't get sent to hell... That I can restart instead. Maybe in the next life, I can make someone I care about happy.
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My fresh start sort of went to hell pretty fast. This was another one, so I don't think calling death a fresh start's that wrong either. I think there are things dying does, like giving you more options for things, but it doesn't always change wanting things or looking for answers if you don't have them. But it could be interesting. Seeing what a new life brings to find them again.
I... [ ...hm. no. ] It feels kind of open and shut that way. Apologizing to Morgana, closing that loop, and starting over. I don't think it's bad. [ ... ] Having met who you were before circumstances screwed you over? I think you could do that. Make a person happy, I mean. But that's just me.
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