Forget the religious aspect for a second. [ says an angel ] You're sure there's absolutely no way to get to them? How do they get their messages out? Is there a person in charge of talking with the Hierophant to communicate what they've heard from the Radiant or whatever?
It would be very difficult for me to do so, for a variety of reasons... I have always been under constant watch - and the few friend I have made in Convallaria Town are now, as well.
[ there's a beat. ] Ah...but, my dear friend, you aren't. For what it is worth - I appreciate it, Gamaliel. Truly.
[ it's sweet, for her to try to run through this situation for solutions, for what is a desperately hopeless place to be - he smiles, and it's not stressed or anything by it, but genuinely touched. ] I've not really had anyone to ever try to fight for me before, until very recently. So... I am thankful. I just wish it was easier to solve.
Nothing worth fighting for is ever easy. [ this isn't said in an optimistic way, more kind of a resigned tone ] But you can't just accept going back and being locked away again. What's the point of life if you are?
[ he could like. stay in heaven. that is an option. ]
[ what's the point of life, indeed? what a great question. ]
... This life of mine is pointless already. [ his death, in the grand scheme of things, was just pointless, too. ] But... perhaps I can finish my book, at least. If nothing else, I will be watched closely - I will not be able to make it as comprehensive as I would have ever liked, but... maybe there are some truths I can reveal. And maybe that is the only difference I could ever really make.
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I have learned that the more that I run from my fate, the faster it catches up to me.
Forget fate. Your choices are your own. [ there's something a little spiteful in how she says that. ] I know how it feels to think your life is pointless, but it's not. You can't just write yourself off like that.
[ but what if you've never had any choices? he doesn't say that, but it's the truth. he's never been allowed to make them. heaven is the most freedom he's ever known. coward. you can't even fight for yourself.]
... thank you, Gamaliel. [ quietly. ] And...I'm sorry, that that's a feeling that has crossed your heart - it is an awful way to be.
[ to feel pointless. ]
I... have not yet lost all hope. [ but boy is he getting close to it! haha yay bad end. ] So, I will do the best that I can to make the right choice. Whatever that choice may be.
It's fine. [ very quick and dismissive ] I was a teenager, which is honestly the stupidest age to be.
[ she looks 15. ]
I'm going to be blunt, Taair. I don't think locking yourself away is the right choice. I know there's more to it than that, but it sounds like that kind of sacrifice would just delay the inevitable anyway.
Reasons. [ repeating it ] It's hard to explain. I guess the short of it is that this is the age the idiot I'm in love with knew me best as. And he never got to grow up past that age.
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[ as far as I can tell anyway sweating in lore ]
That would be the equivalent of speaking with the Radiant themselves, which... is.... I guess in this specific situation, not that strange...
[ considering they are literally in heaven right now ]
...but even so, that would require getting to them, and that would be impossible, as well.
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[ forces you to suffer your own lore ]
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...well, yes. That person would be Lady Caris.
[ and therein lies the problem. ]
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Okay. [ Okay. ] So... Could you find out how she's contacting them and then do it yourself? If she's even contacting them for real.
[ she pauses and shakes her head ]
Sorry, I know I'm being pushy.
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It would be very difficult for me to do so, for a variety of reasons... I have always been under constant watch - and the few friend I have made in Convallaria Town are now, as well.
[ there's a beat. ] Ah...but, my dear friend, you aren't. For what it is worth - I appreciate it, Gamaliel. Truly.
[ it's sweet, for her to try to run through this situation for solutions, for what is a desperately hopeless place to be - he smiles, and it's not stressed or anything by it, but genuinely touched. ] I've not really had anyone to ever try to fight for me before, until very recently. So... I am thankful. I just wish it was easier to solve.
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[ he could like. stay in heaven. that is an option. ]
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... This life of mine is pointless already. [ his death, in the grand scheme of things, was just pointless, too. ] But... perhaps I can finish my book, at least. If nothing else, I will be watched closely - I will not be able to make it as comprehensive as I would have ever liked, but... maybe there are some truths I can reveal. And maybe that is the only difference I could ever really make.
[ ... ]
I have learned that the more that I run from my fate, the faster it catches up to me.
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... thank you, Gamaliel. [ quietly. ] And...I'm sorry, that that's a feeling that has crossed your heart - it is an awful way to be.
[ to feel pointless. ]
I... have not yet lost all hope. [ but boy is he getting close to it! haha yay bad end. ] So, I will do the best that I can to make the right choice. Whatever that choice may be.
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[ she looks 15. ]
I'm going to be blunt, Taair. I don't think locking yourself away is the right choice. I know there's more to it than that, but it sounds like that kind of sacrifice would just delay the inevitable anyway.
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...When you were actually a teenager?
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....reasons?
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...I'm sorry for your loss.
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