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holyspirits ([personal profile] holyspirits) wrote2025-03-09 08:53 pm
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W4 CYOA - Lucas, Maomao, Neverah, Uruha

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[personal profile] darkholder 2025-03-13 08:31 am (UTC)(link)
[funnily (?) enough it doesn't actually matter which of these sure believes in because the reminder of the fact that red has every right to feel that way makes her feel like she's just been stabbed in the heart again. yay......

she starts crying but tries to hide it, burying her face in her hands and just kind of lets herself bleed. this might as well happen. maybe the earth or the flesh monster will take her.]
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[personal profile] apoisoncary 2025-03-13 04:13 pm (UTC)(link)
[ sweet lucas coming to check in on them but she can't really acknowledge it right now. she wants to because that is her lucas, but... they all have their own demons and dreams to face it would seem.

she is also still feeling spiteful.

Is that what you caring for someone gets us?

it isn't just the missing finger that aches, but her left pinky will as well. she knows that voice from hearing her sing a haunting lullaby to the life she longed for.
she knows that voice from whenever she would lash out and take her anger out on maomao.
that withered rose who took a gamble on love by having maomao and lost horribly. the woman who cut off her own and her child's pinkies to mail them as a curse on that man.

maomao is the product of the poison love can produce and why she should never let herself fall in love. she thinks about the conversation with claude about how nice it would be not to feel things or to be able to turn it on and off.

then there's her old man and mentor. the one who picked up this unwanted stray cat born at the brothels and gave her a home. the one who introduced her to the world of medicine and how you can make medicine from poison. she really misses him and really wants to go there to see him.

however, he never compliments her like this. he has never said he was proud. the only one he has ever compliment was that man, and it pisses her off. ]


Is this the temptation?
faithkept: (no more breathing jealousy)

[personal profile] faithkept 2025-03-13 04:46 pm (UTC)(link)
[IT'S FINE HE IS SO IMMEDIATELY DISTRACTED BY THIS DUAL FLESH MONSTER VISION THEY'VE ALL BEEN BESTOWED WITH..... HATEFUL. HOPEFULLY EVERYONE ELSE AND HIS CHILD AND THE YVESLEGS ARE FINE BECAUSE HE'S CHECKED OUTTIE.

What Lucas wants to see is the dream. This is everything he's ever prayed for, even if he and his sister are fucking furries. She stands on her own without a wheelchair, she looks healthy, she's so radiant in a wellness that Lucas has never seen in her before and it's so beautiful that it makes him start to cry, too, so at least sweet Neverah isn't alone. He so, so desperately wants to run to her and scoop her up into his stupid little furry arms and hold her and tell her how well she's done to persist this long, and it's such an overwhelming feeling that it overrides the little flicker of selfish want that wishes for his own body to be healed so that he can continue to live alongside her in health.

But unfortunately, he cannot just ignore the other half of his double vision, which is much more familiar to him, calling out to his overprotective nature. Nadia's collapsing and coughing up blood. He stumbles forward toward her reflexively, and as the tongue lashes out to scoop her up and raise her high above his head to devour her whole, he lets loose a high and horrified scream and immediately reaches upward as if he could chase after her.]


Nadia!! Nadia—!
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[personal profile] kumeyuri 2025-03-13 05:02 pm (UTC)(link)
[it would be so easy to fall in love with the dream. a world where rokuhira is alive, everyone is alive. one where uruha didn't lose his will to live years ago, held together only by a painful sense of duty.

but it's because of that that the dream is too jarring. because uruha is more of a weapon at this point, forged by expectations and grief and wielded by those who see him as an asset, or by those he placed his loyalty in—but above all by the legacy of the dead. without them, he is nothing.

it's not even so much a matter of temptation, as so much as it is something trying to stab through a wall of depression and blunting itself against the shell. he hates the nightmare, despairs over watching them all die before his eyes even more than receiving word of their death or seeing their corpses put on display, but it is what's familiar (them, you know, being furries aside). still not quite right, because even at his lowest, uruha has never let go of what needs to be done—live for the sake of his purpose, if nothing else—but it feels closer to reality than anything else.

he presses the rabbit closer against him, this one life he has tried to protect even though as far as he knows this is just a random normal bunny that lucas loves and thinks talks and has named after uruha's mentor for some reason.]


... What is this supposed to be?

[GUESS HE'S TALKING TO MAOMAO (if anyone at all, he's talking to himself out loud, really) BECAUSE NEVERAH AND LUCAS ARE GOING THROUGH IT.]
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[personal profile] darkholder 2025-03-13 05:58 pm (UTC)(link)
[it's a strange thing, being asked what she believes - what she wants is an easier question. she wants to go home, she wants to see her family and her friends. she wants to be able to even look at herself without seeing echoes of what she'd become in the end, the darkness that moves through her very veins. she wants to be human again in every sense of the word; not a figurehead of the country, not a vessel for magic, not a goddess. just a normal woman, living a normal life again. it feels like very much and very little to ask, at once.

but belief is something different than desire. she's been powerless enough times to know that. idly, she rubs her tears away, pushing away the shock of a world where she's ruined things between them irrevocably. she tries to stop and listen for once, not just to react blindly, to ignore the ache for a moment. she remembers the immediate moments before she came here, being held in someone's arms. her sister telling her that she loved her as she faded from consciousness, from life itself.

all we ever wanted to do was save each other.

she can at least logically know what the truth is, even if it's difficult to parse emotionally. her voice still sounds raw as she speaks, but:]


She loves me. I don't know about the rest.
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[personal profile] apoisoncary 2025-03-13 06:15 pm (UTC)(link)
[ this is actually very hard for maomao.

I just think that love is wonderful
So I hope you get to experience it one day


according to the women in the brothels, love is a curse, while for men it's a blessing. it's very rare that a woman can actually find love and they can be discarded after being used.

however, when it comes to wanting to solve and uncover everything? she wants to. that deep curiosity and need to get to the bottom of things... the desire to learn all that she can about what happened to zhongli as well as everything left unsolved back in her world. that is much more easier for her to answer ]


I need to find the answers. I have to see where this will lead me...
faithkept: (into something sweet)

[personal profile] faithkept 2025-03-13 06:37 pm (UTC)(link)
[THAT'S HIS CHILD. His gaze briefly snaps back toward the rabbit because he's the only keeper of this arcane knowledge, but then back to the monster that has STOLEN HIS CHILD'S VOICE.

Anyway.

Despite the fact that the fear was the thing grabbing Lucas' attention first and foremost when faced with both visions of possible realities at the same time, his heart is still that of a highly devout person. When asked what is reality and what he believes in, he just thinks about everything he's done up to this point, every step he's taken, every promise that's been made to him and that he's made in return.

My god is a loving one, he's said more than once to people here, and he believes it. He believes it because he has to. He has to hold onto that golden future with all of his horrible strength, or what good is it?]


God will save that child! She'll walk freely under the blue sky someday — I know that she will!

[GOD HELP. HELP GOD.]
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[personal profile] kumeyuri 2025-03-13 06:59 pm (UTC)(link)
[this voice? hello??

anyhow, like for a few others, it's a difficult thing for uruha to answer—in part because there are a few questions here that, for him, are separate matters. also because he is recovering from a cold and injured all over with 10x the sense of pain so thinking is fucking hard actually?]


No matter what, I'll find a way to win.

[he believes he can succeed. if nothing else, he can protect japan, protect chihiro as rokuhira's legacy. as for everything else, though—]

... Even if there might not be anything left for me after.

[while he's not so melodramatic that he can't rationally acknowledge himself as a person, he's long since stopped feeling like one. even here, when people do things like give him compliments, a part of him wonders: who are these for? everything about uruha yoji besides his swordsmanship, besides his status as kumeyuri's wielder—that's all fallen to the wayside and become irrelevant. he can't even resent it.

at this point, he has accepted that he can't stop himself from caring about people, might even let himself actively do so (because he needs people in his life, he does not know how to live without attaching himself to others), but he can't shake the feeling that he will always lose them in some fashion. the fear that in the end, he won't be able to hold onto what he loves and they'll slip through his fingers.

after all, he is first and foremost focused on the mission, on purpose and victory. if everything else in his life has to be sacrificed for that, then so be it. the cold ruthlessness of who and what he is. he's part of his own problem, and he's had to accept that.]