he's felt better. he feels a lot like maybe someone broke his rib and punctured his lung but he can't really remember. it just feels like that, which is a weird thought to have really.
he feels a bit like he should've tried harder. tried to be good at something, but at the same time he feels like he might've struggled with himself, if he'd obeyed. it's a complicated feeling. wanting to do good and do right for someone you want the approval of, but feeling that sit at war with something else in you that you can't quite place. ]
[he still feels pain when he moves, and that rib doesn't feel healed, he can't breathe quite right. but more than anything, the thing that feels unhealed is that wound on his chest.
he is led back to the same room as before. the same man is still in there. the situation is a little more permanent now; he has an altar, a round, flat, stone disc, that he's been chained to with chains made with magic. the person chained is in bad shape, like he's been beaten, tortured, by people other than you. (or was it? you wouldn't remember either way). otherwise, same situation, same tools. same person in a hood and mask.
...not that basilio knows, because he doesn't remember that. he also does not know this person. there is not a flicker of recognition.]
[ he can't say he really likes being here at all, although he does stare at the altar for a moment. it feels a bit like he wants to shiver at the sight of it and the body on it, but he doesn't really know why.
he can't think much about the person though. they look like no one he knows, after all. ]
Coulda just kicked him out. Shamed him out somethin’.
[ would’ve been less messy, for one. but somehow he doesn’t seem to think that matters to the woman in the robe. he wanders over to the altar, and stares down the figure for a moment, like he’s supposed to recognise who this is. there’s just a big wave of nothing. so… it can’t matter then right?
he looks down at the tools and— a knife’s probably the neatest for this, yeah? he’s not looking to hack off an arm or a leg, but a cut or two should do it. but once he’s picked up the knife he doesn’t move. like he knows this is something he should do — has to do, even, but it sits heavy on his shoulders, makes his already laboured breathing come out heavily and deeper like it’s strained. ]
that makes it a thousand times worse actually. he cannot wrap his head around someone sounding that heartbroken he doesn’t remember him — and then not yelling? screaming for mercy? anything he’d expect from a heretic or someone trying to get out of torture. basically just telling him to get on with it and hurt them?
he can’t understand it, but it’s enough to make him lower the knife. ]
[it does feel that way, doesn't it? that somehow this complete stranger loves you in a way that none of these other people you're around are even capable of.
but as that thought occurs to you, the wound in the center of your chest flares. the main is excruciating. it feels like the pain of that knife being driven into you all over again. and as the pain of it seizes you, the person on the disc is screaming, too.
you look up and see that one of the other hooded people is burning him, using a flame to burn one of his ears off.]
like instinct, he just fucking barrels into this other figure. it's gonna hurt like absolute shite through and through, but he's moving to ram his shoulder into the figure before he can even question it. the pain's unlike anything he's felt, and it feels like he's half bitten through his lip trying to stop himself from screaming. but it doesn't stop him. ]
[maybe it does change for him, as one of the other robed figures cuts fidelio's throat. actually, that name does occur to you, for only a second, without context. del.]
[after many hours, a man appears outside his cell. he'll slide him a bowl of porridge. half eaten, and bland (probably the opposite fear you'd typically have) but it's something to eat.]
There's no way to know. It all might have been a test? He might have been a stranger, but they planted something? I'm beginning to get concerned with how often they reset your memories.
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he's felt better. he feels a lot like maybe someone broke his rib and punctured his lung but he can't really remember. it just feels like that, which is a weird thought to have really.
he feels a bit like he should've tried harder. tried to be good at something, but at the same time he feels like he might've struggled with himself, if he'd obeyed. it's a complicated feeling. wanting to do good and do right for someone you want the approval of, but feeling that sit at war with something else in you that you can't quite place. ]
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he is led back to the same room as before. the same man is still in there. the situation is a little more permanent now; he has an altar, a round, flat, stone disc, that he's been chained to with chains made with magic. the person chained is in bad shape, like he's been beaten, tortured, by people other than you. (or was it? you wouldn't remember either way). otherwise, same situation, same tools. same person in a hood and mask.
...not that basilio knows, because he doesn't remember that. he also does not know this person. there is not a flicker of recognition.]
You'll do better this time, I know it.
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he can't think much about the person though. they look like no one he knows, after all. ]
You still didn't tell me what he did.
[ it feels important to know. ]
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[the person on the altar is still unconscious, it seems. what will he do?]
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he shakes his head. ]
Coulda just kicked him out. Shamed him out somethin’.
[ would’ve been less messy, for one. but somehow he doesn’t seem to think that matters to the woman in the robe. he wanders over to the altar, and stares down the figure for a moment, like he’s supposed to recognise who this is. there’s just a big wave of nothing. so… it can’t matter then right?
he looks down at the tools and— a knife’s probably the neatest for this, yeah? he’s not looking to hack off an arm or a leg, but a cut or two should do it. but once he’s picked up the knife he doesn’t move. like he knows this is something he should do — has to do, even, but it sits heavy on his shoulders, makes his already laboured breathing come out heavily and deeper like it’s strained. ]
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Bas?
[but that's not your name. your name is Gloomfang.]
Bas, please say you know me.
[the woman is standing behind him.]
Go ahead, Gloomfang.
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he shakes his head. it’s half like he’s trying to clear it and half an answer. ]
I don’t. Am I s’posed to…?
[ he’s still just holding this knife. ]
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[he sounds exhausted, and a little heartbroken, but it sounds like he's saying the same thing as the woman is.]
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that makes it a thousand times worse actually. he cannot wrap his head around someone sounding that heartbroken he doesn’t remember him — and then not yelling? screaming for mercy? anything he’d expect from a heretic or someone trying to get out of torture. basically just telling him to get on with it and hurt them?
he can’t understand it, but it’s enough to make him lower the knife. ]
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but as that thought occurs to you, the wound in the center of your chest flares. the main is excruciating. it feels like the pain of that knife being driven into you all over again. and as the pain of it seizes you, the person on the disc is screaming, too.
you look up and see that one of the other hooded people is burning him, using a flame to burn one of his ears off.]
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well.
like instinct, he just fucking barrels into this other figure. it's gonna hurt like absolute shite through and through, but he's moving to ram his shoulder into the figure before he can even question it. the pain's unlike anything he's felt, and it feels like he's half bitten through his lip trying to stop himself from screaming. but it doesn't stop him. ]
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This was another failure.
[the person on the table is struggling and cursing, threatening the people holding them both hostage. but you can't do anything else.]
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Del!
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he's been better, really. ]
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How are you feeling, Gloomfang?
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... What happened to the guy on the altar?
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[he's frowning. he looks worried, though?]
What guy? I don't really know what they had you doing.
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[ ... ] Remembered his name for a bit there, like I knew him.
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There's no way to know. It all might have been a test? He might have been a stranger, but they planted something? I'm beginning to get concerned with how often they reset your memories.
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... Reset memories?
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which is concerning in and of itself. ]
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