Come on. If I was doing something important, would I have offered? [ scritches under the chin now... ] It was a rough day. And things got really... really intense at the end. Worse than usual.
[ Pet, pet; at least her hand has something to do while she thinks, then speaks. ]
... I don't know how he is with others, but he keeps to himself a lot, and I noticed over the week he wasn't feeling well, but... then this weekend happened.
[ continues cuddling this cat as they listen patiently. ]
He came by the bar yesterday. I let him go at it with a punching bag I had out back and he broke the thing, but it was better than him going out and doing something I know he'd regret later because he can't control what grief's doing to him. [ pensively. the cat's tail winds around their wrist, and their fingers brush over it idly. ]
It's hard to want to be there for someone you care about, but you don't know if it's better or worse to do that. In some cases, it's hard for a person to see reason at all because they're too trapped in their own sadness. They'll lash out, because it's the only way they can try to process their feelings. [ a pause. ] I don't want him to do that to you. None of this is your fault, and it wouldn't be your fault giving him some space. You have to take care of yourself, too.
[ yeah see, that's not where they wanted her to be. ]
... I don't think there's anything wrong with taking a step back. Wanting to help is fine. I want to help as much as I can, too. But you can't put yourself in a situation you don't feel safe. You get that, right?
Uruha's back Monday, right? Maybe... try talking to him. Not like Marcoh's not going to need support even after he comes back. It's not the kind of thing a person gets over so easily.
It might still be more than you think, Koharu. It at least shows you tried. And I think when somebody's drowning in their own misery, even if they don't appreciate it now, they'll be able to look back and appreciate it later.
But... I'm glad, too. You guys shouldn't have had to sit through those trials to begin with. It's kinda insane that all of this happened at all.
[ another slow nod, as she hugs the tabby a little closer to herself, a hand rubbing between its ears. ]
I don't understand why, but... I had figured it was something we were never going to get an answer to. [ well also, it wouldn't be a murdergame otherwise, but details ] But I still can't think that was normal.
Oh. I wish they'd sign their letters, but based on how it sounds I think that was from Charlie. But it's true. The God currently working on this project is new. The Old God retired months ago and left the New God to run this project with the Angels. It's why I stuck around even though I signed on with the old one.
And right now, we're starting to think that the Entity that slipped in has been around since that transition, and probably because it's directly trying to oppose God. So what better way than to trash the first big, new thing the New God was in charge of? Heaven has some protocols, but nothing for something like murders. We had to improvise for something that shouldn't have happened is this thing wasn't messing around for a reaction.
That sounds about right for what the letter said. Mary didn't tell me much, but she did say it heard about the project and had some... "opinions to share".
Yeah. That's about what we're getting, too, but I haven't spoken to her much myself. But we started thinking about where this thing came from and what kind of being would actually care about screwing up God's project.
It's also just kind of weird because nobody really cares when the New God took the Old God's place. So for something else to not only find out outside of heaven and also act on it is... not great.
With the way it sounded, it didn't seem like they cared about getting the same chance. [ a pause. ] But honestly, could be someone who thinks they're supposed to have beef with God.
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... sometimes it's nice to just come back to a place that feels simple. Especially when everything else feels so complicated.
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Yes... it is. I hope I didn't pull you away from anything important, but... I did need one thing to feel right, for once.
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I— I'm really worried about Marcoh, but I don't think there's anything I could do.
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... wanna tell me a little about it? [ like what she's thinking about marcoh's situation, or why she feels that way. ]
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[ Pet, pet; at least her hand has something to do while she thinks, then speaks. ]
... I don't know how he is with others, but he keeps to himself a lot, and I noticed over the week he wasn't feeling well, but... then this weekend happened.
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W- well. I think maybe I should leave him alone.
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He came by the bar yesterday. I let him go at it with a punching bag I had out back and he broke the thing, but it was better than him going out and doing something I know he'd regret later because he can't control what grief's doing to him. [ pensively. the cat's tail winds around their wrist, and their fingers brush over it idly. ]
It's hard to want to be there for someone you care about, but you don't know if it's better or worse to do that. In some cases, it's hard for a person to see reason at all because they're too trapped in their own sadness. They'll lash out, because it's the only way they can try to process their feelings. [ a pause. ] I don't want him to do that to you. None of this is your fault, and it wouldn't be your fault giving him some space. You have to take care of yourself, too.
Easier said than done though, right?
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A little. But.
[ She stops, uncertain, and then hesitantly: ]
As... much as I want to help... I guess I'm afraid to now, because of that.
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... I don't think there's anything wrong with taking a step back. Wanting to help is fine. I want to help as much as I can, too. But you can't put yourself in a situation you don't feel safe. You get that, right?
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I guess leaving it alone is all I can do, then.
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Uruha's back Monday, right? Maybe... try talking to him. Not like Marcoh's not going to need support even after he comes back. It's not the kind of thing a person gets over so easily.
[ which is gonna make tomorrow brutal. ]
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I'll try... I'll try to do what I can—even if it isn't much. Either way... I'm just glad I never have to sit through another trial again.
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It might still be more than you think, Koharu. It at least shows you tried. And I think when somebody's drowning in their own misery, even if they don't appreciate it now, they'll be able to look back and appreciate it later.
But... I'm glad, too. You guys shouldn't have had to sit through those trials to begin with. It's kinda insane that all of this happened at all.
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I don't understand why, but... I had figured it was something we were never going to get an answer to. [ well also, it wouldn't be a murdergame otherwise, but details ] But I still can't think that was normal.
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... has anyone told you about what happened to God?
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Um... I've heard a little—there was a note the other side sent, right?
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And right now, we're starting to think that the Entity that slipped in has been around since that transition, and probably because it's directly trying to oppose God. So what better way than to trash the first big, new thing the New God was in charge of? Heaven has some protocols, but nothing for something like murders. We had to improvise for something that shouldn't have happened is this thing wasn't messing around for a reaction.
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That sounds about right for what the letter said. Mary didn't tell me much, but she did say it heard about the project and had some... "opinions to share".
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It's also just kind of weird because nobody really cares when the New God took the Old God's place. So for something else to not only find out outside of heaven and also act on it is... not great.
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Unless, well... I don't know. Is someone resentful they don't get the same chance we do? Or have some kind of beef with the new God?
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