Audience - Yves

[holyspirits]

Comments

[noirges]

Mysterious...

[ but otherwise he'll also just let it go

but he laughs softly to himself like this is a good joke ]

Nope. I'd like to. But I know that's a selfish thing to want.

[holyspirits]

I don't think it's selfish to want a connection. [ they think about it ] But I've been pretty selfish about the people I want close to me, so maybe I shouldn't talk.

[noirges]

But you're such a lovable person, Gamaliel.

[ sincere, like it's just a fact ]

I think it makes sense to want to be close to you.

[holyspirits]

Ha.

[ just. a short ha. ]

No, I've been pretty terrible at times. That's not what got me separated from people, though.

[noirges]

[ . . . ? ]

I'm serious.

Does being terrible at times mean that you're not lovable all of the time?

[holyspirits]

[ they wave a hand vaguely, dismissively ]

No one's lovable all of the time. You can love someone and still want to strangle them.

[noirges]

[ a little laugh ]

Of course. I think that's how Hugo must feel about me sometimes but...

In the same way, you can think someone's being horrible but still love them with all your heart, right?

[holyspirits]

Hugo?

[ context? anyway, they wave that off; ]

I didn't say I wasn't lovable at all. I've met plenty of actually unlovable people.

[noirges]

My partner.

[ unfortunately not gay

but yves looks thoughtful.... unlovable people... hm.... ]

... well, I don't think you have to love everyone if you don't want to. Most people don't.

[holyspirits]

[ nodding in a way that says they are assuming gay ]

Are you trying to say you do?

[ love everyone. dubious ]

[noirges]

[ GOD I WISH!!!! well it's partly gay but yves doesn't know ]

I try to. I haven't met everyone in the world, so I can't say for sure. But... I'd like to.

[holyspirits]

[ :eyes: ]

That's optimistic. [ they do not say it like it's a bad thing, but they definitely say it in a way that says they cannot relate ] Thinking the best of people means you fit in with the thought behind this pretty well, though.

[noirges]

Oh, of your redemption offer?

[holyspirits]

Yeah. Believing the best in people sort of goes hand-in-hand with that. [ they kick at the sand ] And I do believe in second chances. But some people I'll never forgive, either, so maybe it's a good thing I'm not the one running this place.

[noirges]

[ a lil kick... yves will just gently bump against them in a playful way ]

If you can't forgive someone, it just shows how deeply you care about something or someone else.

But... I guess so. I'd like to attempt redemption, if that's what my friends are doing.

[holyspirits]

[ bump'd... they hum at the first part, but seem more interested in the second ]

Only if that's what they're doing?

[noirges]

My friends will be able to succeed at their redemption. [ very certain of this, for some reason ]

But if they don't for some weird reason, I'd like to make sure I don't leave them behind or alone.

[holyspirits]

So no matter the outcome, you just want to be with them. Is that it?

[noirges]

[ a moment of hesitation ]

... yes. Mostly.

There is... a case that I think I would consider something else, even if I'm not sure I would choose it.

[ but it'd make him hesitate. like now. ]

[holyspirits]

Is it the reincarnation case, or something else?

[ they could be nice and tell him he doesn't have to share. but ]

[noirges]

It would be anything that would let me get rid of my scar.

[ and it's a brief motion, like he still doesn't like calling attention to it, but his fingers will vaguely trace out the shape over his mask... ]

[holyspirits]

Your--scar?

[ they are clearly peering at the mask ]

Have you tried plastic surgery? [ they are not trying to be mean. they are genuinely asking. it just sounds a little mean ]

[noirges]

[ it's okay yves doesn't process if you're mean to him so he doesn't even think it's rude

though staring at the mask makes him... nervous ]

I'm not sure what that is... but there was a way to remove it back home - I just didn't have enough money for the process, and then it became too hard to access for other reasons.

[holyspirits]

[ they stop trying to peer behind the mask quickly enough, at least ]

Okay. Cosmetic changes are--well, they're not a big deal to me anymore, but I can see why it might be for you. [ they do not entirely sound like they get it despite that ] That's all you want? To remove your scar?

[noirges]

[ sorry he leans in as he focuses on this: ] Is that possible?

[ the way he asked zuriel and he trusts their answer but also he needs to be sure he really wants this so bad ]