Audience - Yves

[holyspirits]

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[noirges]

[ going to sit with them ]

Hi. You okay?

[holyspirits]

I'm alright. Not good, but.

Better than others.

[noirges]

[ reaches to take their hand again... ]

... well, I guess that makes the two of us then.

[holyspirits]

... You are one of the people I mean, when I say others.

All of your plans revolved around what happens to your friends. About what they do and where they go.

[noirges]

[ . . . well.

yves just kicks his feetsies a little bit as he sits on the van ]

... I believe in you three. In finding him again.

So whenever you figure it out, that's where I'll go. If God can fix my scar, they can grant me that, can't they?

[holyspirits]

[ they think that yves is way too nice. but... are still reassured by that faith. whether it's real or not, their body still relaxes somewhat. ]

We will find him. And the others, too.

And when we do—maybe we can bring them all back. I don't know. We'll see, but... Please believe that God will do their best for you.

[noirges]

[ yea

that's the fucking insane love talking ]

Then I'll hold onto that. [ sincerely, without any hint of hesitation ] If God wants to do their best for me, then... I don't need Heaven and I don't need to go back to life.

I'd just like to be with my best friend again.

[holyspirits]

[ well.




they just turn to hug yves very gently. ]

[noirges]

[ he'll just return the hug, a little tightly

and with a little bit of awe, and a lot of joy: ]

You hugged me first this time...

[holyspirits]

I don't know what else to do.

[noirges]

[ he just smiles ]

If I told you that's okay... would you believe me?

[holyspirits]

I believe that you think so.

But I don't think so.

[noirges]

[ he makes a soft noise of acknowledgement ]

It must be frustrating. I know this is the last thing that you wanted to happen.

[holyspirits]

It is. We are doing this because we wanted the best for everyone here.

[ a bit helplessly, because clearly that's not going as planned! ]

I don't understand why this is happening.

[noirges]

[ frowns... ]

Is it something you've asked God already?

[holyspirits]

God has been helping us to look into it.

[ the results of which. well. they've been open about. ]

[noirges]

[ nods... ]

... okay. [ a little squeeze of their hands ] Then it may take time, and that's frustrating, but... I do still believe in all of you.

[holyspirits]

Thank you.

[ sincerely. but hey. also: ]

Even so, even if you believe that we can recover anyone lost, you shouldn't volunteer in the place of other people.

[noirges]

... I'm not going to do it again.

[ because not receiving even a single vote did hammer in a point to him that it wasn't helpful, and yves doesn't like causing distress for no reason ]

But... I did mean it at the time.

[holyspirits]

... I suppose I'm wondering how you feel about it.

Offering it. Meaning it. Those don't necessarily reflect what you're thinking.

[noirges]

Hmm... I feel guilty for upsetting people, even though I stand by my reasoning. It's like I said when Jiao did it last week... I'd have done the same thing. I guess I proved that.

[ and nobody liked it, yves ]

I know there's a bunch of logical reasons why I shouldn't have. I'm not blind to those. But... I did want to offer, even so. Even if it was just to Anders.

[holyspirits]

Did you want to? Or did you feel obligated to by love?

[noirges]

[ ? ]

I don't want to die.

But I think my situation makes it so that I'm more apathetic than others... so I did want to offer, if it'd make them feel even a little bit better.

[holyspirits]

"A little bit" is not worth the risk of going somewhere we haven't been able to find.

It isn't even a certainty that your soul would end up in the same place as the other lost souls. We don't know if they're together.

[noirges]

Oh, I know. I wasn't doing it to be with Adolphe. I was ready for the risk of not being found.

[ maybe sound like you care more, yves ]