Audience - Jacopo

[holyspirits]

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[obdure]

[ he does not understand, but he is putting in the context that she can easily memshare with other people like her. ]

I also prefer talking over whatever these mirrors do, but I don't want to stay near if the party is outside.

[ He will try to risk leaving even though... Doors. ]

[hotfixer]

There was much more glitter than I was expecting, out there. Also rats.

[ hmm! just decides she's tagging along wherever he's headed though because now they're talking. ]

Where would you rather be?

[obdure]

... Rats?

[ ???? First door on the way out, fortunately does not teleport them into the mirror maze area. ]

[hotfixer]

[ WHERE ARE WE THEN ]

Yes, a whole swarm. I have no idea why.

[obdure]

[ I MISUNDERSTOOD WHERE WE WERE

Jacopo is just going to have them teleport back into the mirror funhouse because I think that's funny. He doesn't answer because he's seething. ]

[hotfixer]

[ HELP

she's trying not to laugh........... ]

[obdure]

[ SHE IS LAUGHING, then the memory plays. ]

[hotfixer]

[ WELL SHE'S NOT LAUGHING NOW.

she's just like damn........... politics bro....... ]

... Those in the lower class have no way of seeing the bigger picture playing out. They don't know the steps you're taking and the goals that you work towards.

[obdure]

[ I hate politics ]

How many times do I have to see these fucking memories.

[hotfixer]

It started this week so it will likely end at the start of next week.

I'm sorry that you're having to relive something unpleasant.

[obdure]

... Have you seen pleasant memories from others?

[ WHY IS HE CURSED WITH BAD ONES because i play him ]

[hotfixer]

I haven't seen that many memories at all. So.

[ but, ]

I suppose the few I've seen haven't been... good, necessarily. But they've helped me to understand the person they belonged to.

[obdure]

[ Ergh... If you want to share one you can!! If not that is okay. ]

It makes me feel a bit better if that's the case... But then these mirrors are a double-edged sword.

[ UNDERSTANDING... AND RELIVING TRAUMA? ]

I don't want to look back at them.

[hotfixer]

[ i will give mem shortly but first ]

Do you think that it's possible to overcome your past without facing it?

[ this is a sincere question and she's not trying to lead him to any specific answer. ]

[obdure]

Does that change the present or the future?

[ In implication that he doesn't think it's that important, but it's coming from a guy who abandoned his past selves for whatever identity he deemed better... And once upon a time his advice was simply to forget all the bad things.

Because likely it's how he dealt with his childhood that he strategically claims to not remember. ]

[hotfixer]

I can't answer that for you.

I suppose they say that you have to understand your mistakes or you'll repeat them again. But not everyone's past is hard to look at because of mistakes. Sometimes it was just bad luck. And once you understand any mistakes you did make, spending more time thinking about them will just make you said without benefit.

[ now she is just thinking out loud. useless. ]

[obdure]

That's right. Some things can't be undone and looking at them won't change that it happened. You can be too late to learn from those mistakes. [ i give you another one as they keep trying to find an exit. ] I'm also dead—the only thing I can hope for... Is that one day I can apologize.

[ Sometimes you have given up on yourself as a person, but at the very least you want to make amends. ]

[hotfixer]

[ sad, not said..........

anyway this memory sure takes a fucking turn. and she has no filter, so she just asks: ]

... Why did you do that to her?

[obdure]

[ I GOT YOU.

and yeah. That is also funny she is techy but no filter. He massages his temples, like he's fighting a migraine, before dragging his hand down his face. ]

Because everything comes with a price and I thought... It was worth it.

[hotfixer]

What was the payoff?

[obdure]

Rapport and favor of the lower class.

[hotfixer]

You no longer feel that it was worth it?

[obdure]

... I don't know. I'm not sure.

[ Because the voices are talking to him in his head. One is unrepentant, a proper lord, who cares about results. The other who is the better version of himself, admonishing him. ]

It doesn't matter. It led me here. Worthless to the very end.

[hotfixer]

[ bro, your voices ]

I suppose it must be hard to judge if the outcome would have been worth it if you weren't even able to reach your goal.

[obdure]

[ he wants to escape the voices but he's here ]

... Shouldn't you be abhorred? Results shouldn't cost the lives of people you cared for.