Audience - Jacopo

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[hotfixer]

I was the first CI.

The world I came to live in didn't exist. No one else like me existed yet. But I also couldn't exist in the physical world the same way normal people could. So I couldn't really be nostalgic for it the right way. There was no way to even imagine interfacing with the past, because it was impossible.

[obdure]

[ Hm... ]

I don't think that's strange, personally. Nostalgia is a feeling and people feel nostalgic when they listen to music or when they see art, even if they're pieces they've never heard or seen.

I suppose... They're remembering something similar, or simply the emotion is similar. [ He doesn't know. ] Either way, you came with it. It wouldn't be there if you weren't meant to know what it feels like.

[hotfixer]

I'm glad that the world caught up with me. Now I can feel nostalgia for the past instead of the future. Properly.

I always felt it. [ he's right about that. ] But now I feel it for the right things. For time spent with family in the past, or days that are gone.

[obdure]

... It's good that you've found peace.

[ That the discord was remedied, even though he doesn't quite see it that way. Life is about how you perceive things, after all. ]

[hotfixer]

It comes in waves.

[obdure]

Better than no waves at all, right?

[hotfixer]

Yes. I like them.

[obdure]

... I hope I can find my own some day.

[ Truthfully. Life is just full of turmoil. ]

[hotfixer]

You can. With time.

[obdure]

... Do you know what happens to souls over the course of time?

[ Only because he's curious since he thinks himself diseased that it'll take him forever. ]

[hotfixer]

In Heaven?

Nothing... happens to them in particular. They just live out their afterlives.

[obdure]

... They don't forget themselves? Or their memories, as time tends to do?

[hotfixer]

I suppose some people might forget some things, as any person does.

But as far as existence goes, you carry on the same as you would alive. There's just less... External conflict in a place like Heaven.

[obdure]

I see... I still don't think I'd be a good fit, regardless.

[hotfixer]

Why is that?

Where would you be a good fit?