Is that how it works... [ Never thought about it deeply. He doesn't know if he wants to admit he does have a lot of nightmares. It makes him feel small and his ego is also fragile. ] Thank you for making the selection.
I could tell you a bit about how I think dreams work and your third eye and everything from the things I've learned from my mom, but most people seem to think it's fake. Or it goes over their head. But yes, I think so.
[ there's a nod though and she sips some tea before continuing. ]
Not always, no. But sometimes if I think they're trying to tell me something, I will. If it picks up again, I feel like the message is important.
I don't mind listening. It's not like I can prove it's fake.
[ so like... maybe real? It's also why he doesn't tell people god isn't real despite being non-religious. It's all chill as long as it doesn't harm anyone. ]
I do recall you're a good listener. [ ... ] A friend of mine dreams a little differently than other people, too. He can create things and pull them right out of his dreams.
That's because some people would rather hear themselves talk. [ she'll just say it man. she knows people are stupid. but she nods. ]
Believe me, we didn't entirely know how to believe him when he told us either. But it's true. He could pull different things from dreams, but at the same time sometimes his nightmares would follow him right back out, too.
It is! [ she hates it! ] He's gained more control now, but before... sometimes they were monsters that would try to kill all of us. Sometimes it was questionable if he would make it back out while he was fighting them in his head.
... he and Gansey both spent most of their nights awake. It was too difficult to relax.
Luckily for all of us, those seem to be problems that only affect Dreamers, until they pull things out of their dreams. [ unfortunately, she is in fact thinking and her thought bubble is showing a large, fiery dream dragon fighting against another large dream monster overhead of a fairgrounds. ]
He did recently dream up a car for us though. That's one of the nicer things. And now that the demon's been killed... it's easier.
[ Horror locked. Watches her thought with some wonder. That is scary, but like... Damn. Fantastical? ]
I imagine cars are expensive. That is a nice boon, though I wonder worth risking your life sometimes. [ He knows what they are thanks to people. ] I would damn hope things are easier without a demon?
[ like, yes. it was horrifying but fantastical all at once, and she stands by that about most of ronan's insane bullshit. ]
They are. Not that any of them have to worry about that. [ :T ] But this one was a gift for me. No engine, so it's a lot more environmentally friendly. But the demon was incidental. It shouldn't have been awoken in the first place, but... it's all a very long story.
It is, it is. He's gotten a better grasp on it, and now he and his boyfriend are spending the summer together while the rest of us are going to explore the country. No more danger for a little bit, at least.
... it's not exactly weird to be going back, but it does feel strange to think about how much time has passed.
That's really it. It's the amount of things that have happened that makes two months feel more like two years. But time can be confusing anyway. I don't mind having to adjust.
What about you though? Have you given more thought to the end for yourself?
[ a thoughtful pause as she breaks off a piece of a pastry to chew on. ]
I think that makes sense. God has searched for people before. They likely have other ideas to try so long as they know exactly what they're looking for. [ but oh, that's... good. ]
In a place like this, you do have more time than usual. But there are other means that you might be able to utilize and help. On the other hand, having a bit of time to figure out what to say might not be the worst either.
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Is that how it works... [ Never thought about it deeply. He doesn't know if he wants to admit he does have a lot of nightmares. It makes him feel small and his ego is also fragile. ] Thank you for making the selection.
You often try to continue your dreams?
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[ there's a nod though and she sips some tea before continuing. ]
Not always, no. But sometimes if I think they're trying to tell me something, I will. If it picks up again, I feel like the message is important.
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[ so like... maybe real? It's also why he doesn't tell people god isn't real despite being non-religious. It's all chill as long as it doesn't harm anyone. ]
Not always, but sometimes. And you get a message.
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[ BECAUSE PEOPLE ARE STUPID doesn't say that. Anyway, he listens, obviously intrigued? ]
... That's a stuff you'd read in books.
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Believe me, we didn't entirely know how to believe him when he told us either. But it's true. He could pull different things from dreams, but at the same time sometimes his nightmares would follow him right back out, too.
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[ BE MORE SELF-CONSCIOUS. Jacopo at least yaps purposely, most of the time. ]
That's... Goddamn horrifying?
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... he and Gansey both spent most of their nights awake. It was too difficult to relax.
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[ NEW HORRORS UNLOCKED? ]
That's awful for you all to deal with.
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He did recently dream up a car for us though. That's one of the nicer things. And now that the demon's been killed... it's easier.
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[ Horror locked. Watches her thought with some wonder. That is scary, but like... Damn. Fantastical? ]
I imagine cars are expensive. That is a nice boon, though I wonder worth risking your life sometimes. [ He knows what they are thanks to people. ] I would damn hope things are easier without a demon?
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They are. Not that any of them have to worry about that. [ :T ] But this one was a gift for me. No engine, so it's a lot more environmentally friendly. But the demon was incidental. It shouldn't have been awoken in the first place, but... it's all a very long story.
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As long as it's handled, that's what is important.
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... it's not exactly weird to be going back, but it does feel strange to think about how much time has passed.
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[ It's a strange feeling when the first day felt like yesterday yet also so long ago. ]
It'll take time for you to adjust, though I can't imagine it'll take you long to bounce into rhythm. No more danger, for a little bit.
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What about you though? Have you given more thought to the end for yourself?
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[ But that's because... He is used to working like a dog. ]
... I did inquire god a bit about options, but I am still set on finding Morgana to apologize to her.
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Do you know where you may be able to start looking for her?
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[ Though he's not holding his breath, BUT he is sure about making it happen. ]
After that, we'll see... Maybe she'd obliterate me or something, but if she doesn't I was thinking of starting over.
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I think that makes sense. God has searched for people before. They likely have other ideas to try so long as they know exactly what they're looking for. [ but oh, that's... good. ]
Starting over from scratch?
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I didn't have a doubt that I would find her, but it would be about time. Maybe this could speed things up.
[ But it seems he's also fine if god doesn't help him. ]
... From scratch. I asked about being reincarnated.
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[ reincarnation's a new one though. ]
They said it was possible?
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[ All the time in the world after you die... There's nothing and no one waiting for him, so. ]
Yeah. It's a possibility.
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Then... that sounds like a nice option for you. I do wonder what reincarnation would look like for you. What sort of person you'd be.
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Hopefully, I won't be an asshole again, but... [ Gestures vaguely with a hand. ] Maybe better to hope to be less of one.
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