holyspirits | Audience

It is! [ she hates it! ] He's gained more control now, but before... sometimes they were monsters that would try to kill all of us. Sometimes it was questionable if he would make it back out while he was fighting them in his head.

... he and Gansey both spent most of their nights awake. It was too difficult to relax.

... I've never considered dying in your dream and then actually dying in real life.

[ NEW HORRORS UNLOCKED? ]

That's awful for you all to deal with.

Luckily for all of us, those seem to be problems that only affect Dreamers, until they pull things out of their dreams. [ unfortunately, she is in fact thinking and her thought bubble is showing a large, fiery dream dragon fighting against another large dream monster overhead of a fairgrounds. ]

He did recently dream up a car for us though. That's one of the nicer things. And now that the demon's been killed... it's easier.

Very lucky.

[ Horror locked. Watches her thought with some wonder. That is scary, but like... Damn. Fantastical? ]

I imagine cars are expensive. That is a nice boon, though I wonder worth risking your life sometimes. [ He knows what they are thanks to people. ] I would damn hope things are easier without a demon?

[ like, yes. it was horrifying but fantastical all at once, and she stands by that about most of ronan's insane bullshit. ]

They are. Not that any of them have to worry about that. [ :T ] But this one was a gift for me. No engine, so it's a lot more environmentally friendly. But the demon was incidental. It shouldn't have been awoken in the first place, but... it's all a very long story.

[ He nods... Environmentally friendly... Things to consider, except not, because that won't be important to him for a long long time. ]

As long as it's handled, that's what is important.

It is, it is. He's gotten a better grasp on it, and now he and his boyfriend are spending the summer together while the rest of us are going to explore the country. No more danger for a little bit, at least.

... it's not exactly weird to be going back, but it does feel strange to think about how much time has passed.

Two months may not seem like a lot, but it is... Or at least it feels like a lot with all that has happened.

[ It's a strange feeling when the first day felt like yesterday yet also so long ago. ]

It'll take time for you to adjust, though I can't imagine it'll take you long to bounce into rhythm. No more danger, for a little bit.

That's really it. It's the amount of things that have happened that makes two months feel more like two years. But time can be confusing anyway. I don't mind having to adjust.

What about you though? Have you given more thought to the end for yourself?

A lot has happened, yet in a way a lot didn't really happen.

[ But that's because... He is used to working like a dog. ]

... I did inquire god a bit about options, but I am still set on finding Morgana to apologize to her.

Yes, I recall in our very first conversation you made it very clear that this was the opposite of what you were used to. [ funny, actually. but oh. ]

Do you know where you may be able to start looking for her?

Not really. She's also dead, so somewhere in the afterlife? God said they may be able to help me.

[ Though he's not holding his breath, BUT he is sure about making it happen. ]

After that, we'll see... Maybe she'd obliterate me or something, but if she doesn't I was thinking of starting over.

[ a thoughtful pause as she breaks off a piece of a pastry to chew on. ]

I think that makes sense. God has searched for people before. They likely have other ideas to try so long as they know exactly what they're looking for. [ but oh, that's... good. ]

Starting over from scratch?

[ He also... has some... bread.... thank you.... the cage continues to provide ]

I didn't have a doubt that I would find her, but it would be about time. Maybe this could speed things up.

[ But it seems he's also fine if god doesn't help him. ]

... From scratch. I asked about being reincarnated.

In a place like this, you do have more time than usual. But there are other means that you might be able to utilize and help. On the other hand, having a bit of time to figure out what to say might not be the worst either.

[ reincarnation's a new one though. ]

They said it was possible?

I don't mind having the time, either. I'm not in a rush.

[ All the time in the world after you die... There's nothing and no one waiting for him, so. ]

Yeah. It's a possibility.

[ this is a good point that she seems to think of, so she nods along. ]

Then... that sounds like a nice option for you. I do wonder what reincarnation would look like for you. What sort of person you'd be.

[ i wish we had all the time in the world to enjoy life ]

Hopefully, I won't be an asshole again, but... [ Gestures vaguely with a hand. ] Maybe better to hope to be less of one.

I think being an asshole is learned behavior versus behavior born with you. So I do believe you can manage to be less of one if you really try. Maybe not even one at all.