There aren't a lot of easy choices in the world. I learned that a long time ago-- you're gonna have to do a lot of shit you don't want to do, especially to get anything important done, so you'd better make your peace with that fast and get to work.
... I guess that isn't a wrong way of doing things. Especially when there isn't time. I do wish it wasn't exactly the only answer in that case.
[ but instead of expressing further thoughts on that, somethingelseappears. ignore my random highlights, but also ref of the kids (gansey with glasses, adam in red, and ronan) + henry. also orphan girl is a reference to a young child who also happens to have goat legs. dwbi.]
...fuck. That's not a bad way to put it. Like something just... stops you from thinking.
[it's pretty damn similar to how she felt, realizing theresa was dead. staring at the blood and footprints in the speaker's office. everything just-- it stopped. all the rage and fury and disbelief drained from her, she forgot how to make her body work, forgot everything except two words: she's gone.]
... [ well. yeah. ] Even knowing it was coming, and even knowing he asked, and what it was for, it didn't change how any of us felt. He was still dead. And he shouldn't have had to be.
Always. [ it sucks! ] ... I knew he was going to die that year even before I met him. I was hoping it wouldn't be because of me after all. But... we brought him back. It worked.
It did--? Was it the kind of thing where it's like... now you have to stay away from him 'cause it'll just happen again, or did you get to sort of go back to normal there?
Mostly normal. We were in the middle of planning a road trip crosscountry with one of our friends. In a dream car created by another one of our friends. [ dumb. ]
At the time it felt like the only thing we gave up was Cabeswater. But now... it appears there was more to that than we believed. And the boys don't realize it, most likely, if I didn't before coming here.
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... you've had to deal with a lot of choices that weren't necessarily easy to manage, haven't you. Not even all your own.
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[ but instead of expressing further thoughts on that, something else appears. ignore my random highlights, but also ref of the kids (gansey with glasses, adam in red, and ronan) + henry. also orphan girl is a reference to a young child who also happens to have goat legs. dwbi.]
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[it's pretty damn similar to how she felt, realizing theresa was dead. staring at the blood and footprints in the speaker's office. everything just-- it stopped. all the rage and fury and disbelief drained from her, she forgot how to make her body work, forgot everything except two words: she's gone.]
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[the ones who don't deserve that.]
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At the time it felt like the only thing we gave up was Cabeswater. But now... it appears there was more to that than we believed. And the boys don't realize it, most likely, if I didn't before coming here.
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...what else was there to giving that up?
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