Audience - Shadowheart

[holyspirits]

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[sacredpath]

[yeah. that touches a bit of a nerve. she nods.]

I've been afraid that... if I tried to examine what I've forgotten too much, I wouldn't be able to bear what I've learned. But I want to try. I think...

I think I haven't wanted to acknowledge that I know I was taken from parents who may have wanted me, because I'm worried they're dead and it doesn't matter now.

[configurer]

I think that's normal. At some point, it's true that ignorance is bliss. That's why people like not knowing things that would cause them pain. And in your case, it's not like you forgot on purpose, so not wanting to acknowledge something so unfair... that's human.

But--you deserve to know what was was done to you, what was taken from you. Especially if it could have been a happier life. I'm not going to pretend it won't hurt as well, though.

[sacredpath]

I think it probably will. But I'm less afraid to face that pain, at the very least.

[configurer]

Good. Because I think it's a pain worth enduring. You'd spend the rest of your life wondering instead, and--that's worse.

[sacredpath]

The truth is, I think I could stop wondering and move past it, as long as I knew I had Lady Shar.

[it would be a lot easier to just give up on finding some other part of herself that she wants to think is buried there.]

[configurer]

But you didn't have her. Not really.

[sacredpath]

...Well, no. But I had the promise that if I followed her instructions, I would have her.

And there was a world where it was true. Where I did as I was told, and she rewarded me the way she promised, made me her champion, took away all of the pain.