Audience - Shadowheart

[holyspirits]

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[hotfixer]

Good point.

[ she has a moment of 'let's play in the ball pits instead?' and then decides. she just doesn't want to make shadowheart strain herself either way. ]

What other childhood activities are there? [ why are you asking the one with amnesia. ] Perhaps less strenuous ones.

[sacredpath]

We could hit each other with sticks? That's how we played when we were children in that place I was in last week. Pretending we're characters in a book and hitting each other with sticks.

[hotfixer]

Hmm... But that's a memory you already have. Also I decided I don't really like painful things, even if they're not as bad in physical form.

[ wait, also, ]

I like your hair.

[sacredpath]

It doesn't hurt that much to be hit with a stick, Anders was merely whining.

[but that's fair. she smiles.]

You're sweet. [...] Ah, I've thought of something, if you'd allow it. I do have one other memory. I had a friend when I was small, and sometimes we would find a place to spend the night alone and gossip and do things like that.

[sleepover things... even though they were both living in a complete sharran nightmare, they were able to get away to just be little kids together sometimes.]

Maybe we could sit and talk about things that are not important at all, and if you liked, I could braid your hair? I think that would be the sort of thing we would have done.

[hotfixer]

I have never had anyone touch my hair before! It sounds nice!

[ she doesn't know what to talk about but is way too excited about this. ]

[sacredpath]

Really? Your hair is so lovely. I'm not the most versatile, but I can do braids, things like that.

[cute!!! then we will do this.]

[hotfixer]

Thank you. I usually don't have a physical form, or friends, so I suppose it just never came up.

[ but YAY they can have hair braiding and gossip. ramiel has no gossip. ]

[sacredpath]

[she is a good hair braider she can really get that high ponytail braid going... impressive. she will select a gossip topic.]

It's very obvious that Jiaoqiu and Basilio are either dating or intend to, but Jiaoqiu acts like it's a secret.

[hotfixer]

Some people like an element of secrecy about these things.

But I don't know why.

[ yay!! when its her turn she will want to try to braid shadowheart's hair. 'it's already braided' she wants to try. and will do it worse. ]

Do you like anyone, Shadowheart? Romantically.

[sacredpath]

[she may absolutely braid it.]

...I've never done the whole romance thing before. It isn't something we believe in.

[she's pretty experienced with sex, because there is absolutely no taboo around that with shar, but they are meant to forego relationships.]

I've thought about it, certainly, but it doesn't exactly seem like a wise decision in a place like this.

[hotfixer]

I see. So you've been considering it, but need more security first.

That makes sense to me. The situation is complex, and even if it weren't, there's the matter of where everyone is going to end up when it's over. Heaven, or somewhere else, or home, or someone else's home.

[sacredpath]

Right. Why get invested in something if there's no future for it? If I'm permitted to leave, I'm going home.

[she sort of has to as there is a parasite in her brain.]

Though I hope the promise that we may be able to see one another again encapsulates bringing someone else along with us.

[hotfixer]

I don't see why you wouldn't be permitted. You've been nice. And when you're mean, it's usually funny.

[ okay, ]

I can't speak for God's final judgment or their gifts, but either staying in Heaven together or bringing someone home with you seems like the most likely way of being able to see them again.

[sacredpath]

Nice, hmm? [it's sort of a funny criteria. she truly probably tortured and killed so many people in her memwiped past.]

...Right. And that isn't an option. We both have things we cannot just leave behind. So I wasn't going to bother saying anything.

[but now she has to. yay...]

[hotfixer]

[ it's fine... change is possible...!!!! ]

That's unfortunate. I'm going to miss everyone too.

I think that it's not bad to tell people how you feel though. Even if it doesn't change anything or make something happen. I would want them to know, if it were me.

That way, if they ever feel sad and like they're not loved, they've got something to think back to that says otherwise.

[sacredpath]

[sighing a bit.]

I want everyone to know they mattered to me. I hope they do know. I just don't want to come to rely on something, either.

I have been alone most of my life. Perhaps all of it. And I can live with being alone after all of this is done. I don't want to start thinking otherwise.

[she does have her friends in her world, but even that... they became friends out of circumstances, and all have their own separate goals to pursue. and anders may come with her, but he seems to have told everyone but her that he intends to.]

[hotfixer]

Do you have to rely on someone to love them? To tell them? I told the person I love. It didn't change anything, but I was still happier to have said it.

[ but, having said that... ]

Though... I think that there are lots of ways to show you care about people. I suppose they might not even need to hear it to already know.

[sacredpath]

I think maybe I'm just not like that. I have to hold some things back, or I do become too attached.

[hotfixer]

Well... It's okay for you to approach it however you want to. If that's what's best for you, then that's what I want you to do.

[ not that ramiel really should? have any say in this? ]

[sacredpath]

[it's fine that's what gossip is for.]

The person you had feelings for... not someone here, is it?

[hotfixer]

Not here, exactly. He's on the other side.

[sacredpath]

One of the angels over there?

[hotfixer]

Yes.

[sacredpath]

Honestly, I find it hard to trust the judgment of someone who would turn you down.

[hotfixer]

[ hehe... ]

Well, he didn't exactly turn me down. I wasn't asking for an answer, because I already knew it. I've sifted through his subconscious enough to know how deeply he loves my sister.