I see. So you've been considering it, but need more security first.
That makes sense to me. The situation is complex, and even if it weren't, there's the matter of where everyone is going to end up when it's over. Heaven, or somewhere else, or home, or someone else's home.
I don't see why you wouldn't be permitted. You've been nice. And when you're mean, it's usually funny.
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I can't speak for God's final judgment or their gifts, but either staying in Heaven together or bringing someone home with you seems like the most likely way of being able to see them again.
That's unfortunate. I'm going to miss everyone too.
I think that it's not bad to tell people how you feel though. Even if it doesn't change anything or make something happen. I would want them to know, if it were me.
That way, if they ever feel sad and like they're not loved, they've got something to think back to that says otherwise.
I want everyone to know they mattered to me. I hope they do know. I just don't want to come to rely on something, either.
I have been alone most of my life. Perhaps all of it. And I can live with being alone after all of this is done. I don't want to start thinking otherwise.
[she does have her friends in her world, but even that... they became friends out of circumstances, and all have their own separate goals to pursue. and anders may come with her, but he seems to have told everyone but her that he intends to.]
Do you have to rely on someone to love them? To tell them? I told the person I love. It didn't change anything, but I was still happier to have said it.
[ but, having said that... ]
Though... I think that there are lots of ways to show you care about people. I suppose they might not even need to hear it to already know.
Well, he didn't exactly turn me down. I wasn't asking for an answer, because I already knew it. I've sifted through his subconscious enough to know how deeply he loves my sister.
I'm just happy that someone loves Gammie so much. Even if it's sad that they spent so much time apart, I think that the love being there is still... hopeful, somehow.
[ she has just fully removed herself from the equation despite announcing that she loves him. it's fine. ]
[she's like. oh. another one. puts you in the yves and elysia box.]
That is beautiful, but I would think that would drive me a bit mad, too. Not that I have a sister, but... don't you want things for yourself, regardless of whether it's lovely when someone else has them?
Think of it like overpopulation. There isn't enough storage space within the cloud for how many people live there.
And people like me are a lower priority to keep around. So. We've constructed a ship for a few hundred of us. We'll send it into space, and... with luck, we'll eventually reach a star with energy enough to sustain us.
The others in the cloud are Uploaded Intelligences. They used to be people in the physical realm. But I'm a Created Intelligence, and never was a real person. So it's different.
[ a slight pause. ]
Sorry. I still haven't figured out a good way to explain this without getting into the technological side of it.
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That makes sense to me. The situation is complex, and even if it weren't, there's the matter of where everyone is going to end up when it's over. Heaven, or somewhere else, or home, or someone else's home.
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[she sort of has to as there is a parasite in her brain.]
Though I hope the promise that we may be able to see one another again encapsulates bringing someone else along with us.
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[ okay, ]
I can't speak for God's final judgment or their gifts, but either staying in Heaven together or bringing someone home with you seems like the most likely way of being able to see them again.
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...Right. And that isn't an option. We both have things we cannot just leave behind. So I wasn't going to bother saying anything.
[but now she has to. yay...]
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That's unfortunate. I'm going to miss everyone too.
I think that it's not bad to tell people how you feel though. Even if it doesn't change anything or make something happen. I would want them to know, if it were me.
That way, if they ever feel sad and like they're not loved, they've got something to think back to that says otherwise.
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I want everyone to know they mattered to me. I hope they do know. I just don't want to come to rely on something, either.
I have been alone most of my life. Perhaps all of it. And I can live with being alone after all of this is done. I don't want to start thinking otherwise.
[she does have her friends in her world, but even that... they became friends out of circumstances, and all have their own separate goals to pursue. and anders may come with her, but he seems to have told everyone but her that he intends to.]
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[ but, having said that... ]
Though... I think that there are lots of ways to show you care about people. I suppose they might not even need to hear it to already know.
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[ not that ramiel really should? have any say in this? ]
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The person you had feelings for... not someone here, is it?
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Well, he didn't exactly turn me down. I wasn't asking for an answer, because I already knew it. I've sifted through his subconscious enough to know how deeply he loves my sister.
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The ability to do that does make romance complicated. But I see what you mean, about going for it even when you know it won't work out.
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[ she has just fully removed herself from the equation despite announcing that she loves him. it's fine. ]
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That is beautiful, but I would think that would drive me a bit mad, too. Not that I have a sister, but... don't you want things for yourself, regardless of whether it's lovely when someone else has them?
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Even imagining that my feelings were returned, I'm still likely to depart anyway. So.
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And people like me are a lower priority to keep around. So. We've constructed a ship for a few hundred of us. We'll send it into space, and... with luck, we'll eventually reach a star with energy enough to sustain us.
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[ a slight pause. ]
Sorry. I still haven't figured out a good way to explain this without getting into the technological side of it.
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