That's the part that bothers me a lot. [ and she's big mad about it. ] Jiaoqiu told me he saw someone important to him... she hurt him pretty badly, and I don't like knowing it was because of some fabrication of my own memories. I don't want him to have a poor association with her, even if it doesn't last long. Their own memories shouldn't be tainted by these new experiences.
[ because real or not, they did have to go through them. ]
In mine, they were being made to hurt and torture people who they didn't recognize, but who were actually important people to them. And I have no idea if that's something that actually happened to me, or some fabricated nightmare.
[so that's fucking fun.]
But I'm sure Jiaoqiu knows better than most how to piece through what he's feeling and what's actually true. He'll be alright.
[ this actually sounds worse so she's still just frowning at her. ]
I don't suppose hearing about it from any of them provided any sort of clarity at all, did it? That would be too lucky. [ even the smallest hint of anything. ] I'm sorry. That must be difficult for you, especially, when it's so unclear what was the fault of the influence and what was your own suppressed memories.
... I know you're right. Of course you are. But I'm still worried about some of you being more hurt than you're willing to admit. Maybe that's just me and something I need to work on trusting you all more.
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[ because real or not, they did have to go through them. ]
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[so that's fucking fun.]
But I'm sure Jiaoqiu knows better than most how to piece through what he's feeling and what's actually true. He'll be alright.
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I don't suppose hearing about it from any of them provided any sort of clarity at all, did it? That would be too lucky. [ even the smallest hint of anything. ] I'm sorry. That must be difficult for you, especially, when it's so unclear what was the fault of the influence and what was your own suppressed memories.
... I know you're right. Of course you are. But I'm still worried about some of you being more hurt than you're willing to admit. Maybe that's just me and something I need to work on trusting you all more.