It's bad enough to share it, but to have them live some version of it warped specifically to torment them, piece through the parts that are real and that aren't...
That's the part that bothers me a lot. [ and she's big mad about it. ] Jiaoqiu told me he saw someone important to him... she hurt him pretty badly, and I don't like knowing it was because of some fabrication of my own memories. I don't want him to have a poor association with her, even if it doesn't last long. Their own memories shouldn't be tainted by these new experiences.
[ because real or not, they did have to go through them. ]
In mine, they were being made to hurt and torture people who they didn't recognize, but who were actually important people to them. And I have no idea if that's something that actually happened to me, or some fabricated nightmare.
[so that's fucking fun.]
But I'm sure Jiaoqiu knows better than most how to piece through what he's feeling and what's actually true. He'll be alright.
[ this actually sounds worse so she's still just frowning at her. ]
I don't suppose hearing about it from any of them provided any sort of clarity at all, did it? That would be too lucky. [ even the smallest hint of anything. ] I'm sorry. That must be difficult for you, especially, when it's so unclear what was the fault of the influence and what was your own suppressed memories.
... I know you're right. Of course you are. But I'm still worried about some of you being more hurt than you're willing to admit. Maybe that's just me and something I need to work on trusting you all more.
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It's bad enough to share it, but to have them live some version of it warped specifically to torment them, piece through the parts that are real and that aren't...
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[ because real or not, they did have to go through them. ]
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[so that's fucking fun.]
But I'm sure Jiaoqiu knows better than most how to piece through what he's feeling and what's actually true. He'll be alright.
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I don't suppose hearing about it from any of them provided any sort of clarity at all, did it? That would be too lucky. [ even the smallest hint of anything. ] I'm sorry. That must be difficult for you, especially, when it's so unclear what was the fault of the influence and what was your own suppressed memories.
... I know you're right. Of course you are. But I'm still worried about some of you being more hurt than you're willing to admit. Maybe that's just me and something I need to work on trusting you all more.