Some of it, I think, must be lost for good, and maybe that's for the best. But not all of it. I ate a noblestalk mushroom once - it had curative properties, for amnesia, and Gale made me try. I suddenly could recall pieces of something. Someone I knew back when I was with the order - we'd sneak off to our own little private hiding spot, pick the flowers that grew there, hide treasures. A friend, I think.
I didn't remember him at all. But I still always knew that Night Orchids were my favorite flower, even if I didn't remember why.
I think... there are certain things that may be lost, but the subconscious never really forgets. Some things are forgotten, but you remember how they make you feel, or little bits and pieces. Like deja vu. Not that it doesn't make it less frustrating that it's gone to begin with, but at the same time it feels a little less hopeless knowing perhaps it's just... buried.
[ and she would continue that, but this is a good segue to support her point. she's going to immediately go back to talking about shadowheart, but meanwhile, this begins to appear on a separate mirror as they round the corner (and art for visuals.)
and she stops to stare, the look on her face both thoughtful and unsure. ]
[ you would be correct because she is just staring at noah in the mirror. by now though she's a little less confused. ]
... a beautiful, cold thing. [ they had talked about this once, and zuriel had the thought in her mind then but the memory, the existence of this boy was gone. ] He was a ghost. And a friend, I'm sure. And even if I don't remember much about him at all right now, it was enough to know how certain things made me feel, and to feel those things here suddenly alerted me to the fact I had forgotten at all. And still don't fully remember even now.
[ she makes a bit of a face because she recognizes that teasing, but secretly she's also a little happy about it because it says to her that shadowheart likes her enough to do that. slightly.
but, you know. memory problems. ]
I think it was something we did before. We chose to make a decision, and we got the results, but I don't think we really knew something like that would happen the way it did. [ ... ] We were all close. We didn't want to lose anyone.
I do, too. I think he was just as much a part of us as we were of him. [ but she does at least mention this to try and make it a little less awkward. ]
I think he was a ghost for much longer than we knew him. [no, somehow, that's worse to just kind of go "yeah we had a ghost friend who just kinda hung out for a while and now none of us remember he was there at all." ]
... I don't even know where I would start looking for someone I hardly remember. It's... sort of like what you were saying. Some things may be lost for good.
[ we are looping this around back to shadowheart. ]
You may have an easier time finding some connections to your lost memories. You said your friend found something with curative properties. Would you try again to see what else you might be able to recall?
Well - it's a large city, and many of us are either from there or have connections there. So the hope was, in the Gate, we could find solutions for our current troubles.
But also, it seems that the foe we've been dealing with has its base of power there. We must stop whatever they're doing at Moonrise Towers, but the answers we're looking for will likely be founf there.
Any path to Baldur's Gate travels through Ketheric Thorne at Moonrise Towers. He was immortal, but the key to his immortality was the Nightsong. She was an aasimar, the daughter of Selûne, and his necromancer had held her prisoner for a century.
Just before I died, she was freed. I suspect she's going to get her revenge on Ketheric, but even if she fails, my friends will succeed.
I only worry a little... we did have a failsafe solution for destroying Moonrise Towers. [the gale blows himself up button...]
Right. The Nightsong being what Lady Shar wanted you to destroy. [ she is putting the pieces together. ] You sound confident about their chances at least. [ which is more than most people can say right now. ]
When you get back, that will only increase your chances, won't it?
[she's not arrogant so much as she is the party healer she's probably a person you want to bring if you're sieging a fortress.]
I'm confident about their chances because one of my companions may detonate a magical bomb, killing himself and maybe everyone else, but at least also likely killing these assholes. If I'm there, the likelihood that happens decreases.
[so they can still save the world without her, but it would just possibly involve her friends blowing up.]
Yes, well, why do you think I'd prefer to go back and help? I genuinely do think we can accomplish it without such extreme measures, but not everyone is sensible.
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[she's not from a video game like those virches.]
Some of it, I think, must be lost for good, and maybe that's for the best. But not all of it. I ate a noblestalk mushroom once - it had curative properties, for amnesia, and Gale made me try. I suddenly could recall pieces of something. Someone I knew back when I was with the order - we'd sneak off to our own little private hiding spot, pick the flowers that grew there, hide treasures. A friend, I think.
I didn't remember him at all. But I still always knew that Night Orchids were my favorite flower, even if I didn't remember why.
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I think... there are certain things that may be lost, but the subconscious never really forgets. Some things are forgotten, but you remember how they make you feel, or little bits and pieces. Like deja vu. Not that it doesn't make it less frustrating that it's gone to begin with, but at the same time it feels a little less hopeless knowing perhaps it's just... buried.
[ and she would continue that, but this is a good segue to support her point. she's going to immediately go back to talking about shadowheart, but meanwhile, this begins to appear on a separate mirror as they round the corner (and art for visuals.)
and she stops to stare, the look on her face both thoughtful and unsure. ]
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He's dead?
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... a beautiful, cold thing. [ they had talked about this once, and zuriel had the thought in her mind then but the memory, the existence of this boy was gone. ] He was a ghost. And a friend, I'm sure. And even if I don't remember much about him at all right now, it was enough to know how certain things made me feel, and to feel those things here suddenly alerted me to the fact I had forgotten at all. And still don't fully remember even now.
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[maybe. slightly teasing. but only slightly.]
Do you have any sense why you can't remember? Is it something about this place, or something that happened before?
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but, you know. memory problems. ]
I think it was something we did before. We chose to make a decision, and we got the results, but I don't think we really knew something like that would happen the way it did. [ ... ] We were all close. We didn't want to lose anyone.
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...I'm sorry. I wish you could remember him.
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I think he was a ghost for much longer than we knew him. [no, somehow, that's worse to just kind of go "yeah we had a ghost friend who just kinda hung out for a while and now none of us remember he was there at all." ]
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[if he's dead? and this is the afterlife?]
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... I don't even know where I would start looking for someone I hardly remember. It's... sort of like what you were saying. Some things may be lost for good.
[ we are looping this around back to shadowheart. ]
You may have an easier time finding some connections to your lost memories. You said your friend found something with curative properties. Would you try again to see what else you might be able to recall?
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[there is at least only one available in the game.]
But I could try. Or I could learn more about exactly how they erased it.
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And what's at Baldur's Gate?
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But also, it seems that the foe we've been dealing with has its base of power there. We must stop whatever they're doing at Moonrise Towers, but the answers we're looking for will likely be founf there.
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And by dismantling that base it should help with the rest of the answers? [ ...oh no. ] How far were you from reaching it before... ?
[ you know. before you died. ]
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[a smile at that.]
Any path to Baldur's Gate travels through Ketheric Thorne at Moonrise Towers. He was immortal, but the key to his immortality was the Nightsong. She was an aasimar, the daughter of Selûne, and his necromancer had held her prisoner for a century.
Just before I died, she was freed. I suspect she's going to get her revenge on Ketheric, but even if she fails, my friends will succeed.
I only worry a little... we did have a failsafe solution for destroying Moonrise Towers. [the gale blows himself up button...]
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When you get back, that will only increase your chances, won't it?
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[she's not arrogant so much as she is the party healer she's probably a person you want to bring if you're sieging a fortress.]
I'm confident about their chances because one of my companions may detonate a magical bomb, killing himself and maybe everyone else, but at least also likely killing these assholes. If I'm there, the likelihood that happens decreases.
[so they can still save the world without her, but it would just possibly involve her friends blowing up.]
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Oh, okay! So everything will be fine even if it means you'll all be in pieces? [ why!!!! ] That can't be the only failsafe, can it...
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You made it that far together. I think a second chance would take care of everything, especially if you already know what to expect.