Audience- Yoji Uruha

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[kumeyuri]

Just curious. I'm glad he has someone to discuss this stuff with, though.

[but he'll go back to the original topic.]

It's not really just about it being awkward or hard, though. I'm not like Marcoh, who means well but isn't good with words. [a little shrug.] I'm aware that I'm more ruthless than most, and that I'm better at focusing on the practical. But that's not what everyone wants to hear when they're going through it.

[batterypack]

But I don't think everyone wants people holding back either because they'll just feel guilty in the end that they weren't able to really talk you through whatever you're thinking. Even if you feel fine, people tend to value honesty.

Besides, I think sometimes the practical is what a person needs anyway. Even just listening to someone without being able to comfort them necessarily can help because sometimes people just need to talk.

[kumeyuri]

Mm. Well, it's not like I never say anything, either. It's just more difficult if someone expects you to sit down and start talking about this stuff at length.

[he's better at giving it in bits and pieces, rather than in a ramble.]

[batterypack]

Because you feel pressured to say everything all at once and you're not sure how it'll sound to them? Or because you don't know how to explain it at all?

[kumeyuri]

[he looks like he's thinking about it.]

A bit of both?

[batterypack]

What if it isn't exactly expected and they're just offering you the chance to say what you may be thinking? I don't think everyone knows exactly what to say at all times.

[kumeyuri]

It's a nice thought, but even if that's someone's intention, that doesn't mean they can necessarily stick to it.

[people aren't always going to stay silent if you say something they disagree with, etc. even if they initially meant to just listen.

again, he shrugs.]

I speak my thoughts when I'm willing, and I don't when I'm not. It's as simple as that. [...] I know what you're thinking, and I promise this isn't a case where I'm just... bottling everything up, refusing to confide in anyone ever. I've known people like that, and I don't want to inflict that on others.

[but it is the kind of thing where he very much has to take it at his own pace, rather than someone else's.]

[batterypack]

[ well that's something of a relief, even if she's still thinking this over and trying to puzzle things out. ]

That's something, at least. I feel as though bottling it up would really make it worse. [ but... ] How do you decide when you do and don't feel like saying anything?

[ some people are not the best judges of themselves. ]

[kumeyuri]

... I don't think feelings are the kind of thing where you can easily lay out a pre-planned schematic—that under this situation, you'll feel and do this, and under another situation, you'll feel and do that.

It's just a matter of when it happens, if I feel like it's something that'll help me or the other person.

[batterypack]

Some are. For instance, I don't tell everyone my thoughts if we aren't close. And then others it's about judging their mood to see how they might hear what I have to say. I mean like that.

[kumeyuri]

I guess. But that's not really the kind of thing I actively decide beforehand.

[he is more of an intuition kind of person.]

[batterypack]

[ fair enough. ]

All I'm saying is that you have to try a little when it comes to that balance. Giving too much isn't the answer. But holding back too much isn't either.

[kumeyuri]

And how much do you give?

[not accusing, but a genuine question, although he supposes she did just partially explain.]

[batterypack]

Not enough to drain me, but enough to help.

[ this is also true by nature of being a walking battery. ]

[kumeyuri]

... Guess that's about as good of a balance as it gets.

[batterypack]

... you'll find your own, Uruha. It might just take time.

[ and we can call this because it is w4. ]