[ she's going to get blood in her nice new hairdo ...
the sharran doesn't reply again, already bleeding out and fading into darkness, into an embrace she so desperately wished for. she has no answers, no questions, and there is no satisfaction in the act. only blood and rage.
she can keep stabbing as long as she likes, until there's nothing left to do, but eventually there's nothing but silence. and darkness.
[it's fine it happens. once you long rest it comes right out.
she turns around, suddenly all too aware of the blood on her hands, on her face and hair, the knife and the wounds on her hand from using it so recklessly. it's not exactly a nice image of her to come upon. that unbreakable drive to survive and not care what she has to do and who is in her way as long as she can keep going for another moment; the deep well of anger at everyone who has ever hurt her and more than anything at herself for letting them -- both desert her abruptly. she just feels disgusting. fragile and desperate like a caged animal, biting at everything but aware of how little it changed anything.
[ richie emerges from a shadowed corner - out of breath, like he's been running and desperately looking for her - and looks instantly relieved to see her despite her blood-streaked appearance.
he kneels down and reaches with his one hand to take the knife from her, gentle. ]
I found you. I was looking all over, shit-- are you okay?
[a memory crossing her mind, another odd conversation. someone different that time, karlach. but... she doesn't have quite the same foggy feeling now.]
I would have taken you with me because I wouldn't ever leave you in this miserable place. But you don't know about them. You cannot know whether they are even alive, because you do not know that I even have cause to wonder about that.
[ his skin starts to burst at the seams, and the sense in the air, in every cell of her skin, is filled with a deep and gnawing envy for the world. She resents everyone who has had such an easy life growing up, anyone who had loving parents to protect them from the world. she is sickeningly jealous of all the ways in which others get to live their lives with freedom and joy, with all of their memories even. Even the bad memories bring something.
she feels her insides writhe with it, that envious feeling, that crawls beneath her skin and settles in like a contagion that will never be loosened. everyone, and everything, and the world, should pay for this. ]
Why do you need everything explained to you?! Are you a child? Are you an idiot? All I want is to see it! I need to see it all-- and you won't let me!
[ and as the creature lunges at her, everything goes white. ]
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the sharran doesn't reply again, already bleeding out and fading into darkness, into an embrace she so desperately wished for. she has no answers, no questions, and there is no satisfaction in the act. only blood and rage.
she can keep stabbing as long as she likes, until there's nothing left to do, but eventually there's nothing but silence. and darkness.
though the dark, a voice calls out: ]
Shadowheart ... ?
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she turns around, suddenly all too aware of the blood on her hands, on her face and hair, the knife and the wounds on her hand from using it so recklessly. it's not exactly a nice image of her to come upon. that unbreakable drive to survive and not care what she has to do and who is in her way as long as she can keep going for another moment; the deep well of anger at everyone who has ever hurt her and more than anything at herself for letting them -- both desert her abruptly. she just feels disgusting. fragile and desperate like a caged animal, biting at everything but aware of how little it changed anything.
who is there, then?]
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he kneels down and reaches with his one hand to take the knife from her, gentle. ]
I found you. I was looking all over, shit-- are you okay?
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Not really. But we should get out of here.
[before something else happens. she definitely can't defend them like this.]
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We should. Or at least - you should. There's only so much time - they're going to notice, that you've been gone this long.
Listen, I know where they are. Your parents. They aren't dead. And I can help you get to them.
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[she sort of blinks back at him, too surprised by him saying this to know how to react.]
My parents?
[how would he know? she hasn't even mentioned this to him.]
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[ he pauses, and frowns. ]
I can help. You just need to take me with you.
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What does this have to do with my parents? Of course I wouldn't leave you, but...
[what exactly is he talking about.]
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If you bring me with you, I can help you find your parents. It's that simple! What's with all the questions?
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I would have taken you with me because I wouldn't ever leave you in this miserable place. But you don't know about them. You cannot know whether they are even alive, because you do not know that I even have cause to wonder about that.
What do you really want from me...?
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I don't want you to leave me! Please, take me with you!
[ but it sounds less like richie, now. it's that funny feeling of starting to wake up from a dream, as light floods in through the window.
last call: yes or no? ]
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No. Not if you won't explain.
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she feels her insides writhe with it, that envious feeling, that crawls beneath her skin and settles in like a contagion that will never be loosened. everyone, and everything, and the world, should pay for this. ]
Why do you need everything explained to you?! Are you a child? Are you an idiot? All I want is to see it! I need to see it all-- and you won't let me!
[ and as the creature lunges at her, everything goes white. ]