Sure, no rush. Whenever you've got a list you know where to find me. I can at least get started with the basics. [ makes a note for some cookware. they don't cook or anything themselves, but they know that much. ]
Oh, yeah. My commute's killer. [ they gesture behind them though, and if fidelio looks he can see the faint outline of a door. ] My lease isn't up for a couple more months though.
So if this program ends up bein' a failure [ which it CLEARLY IS ] and they don't bring any more groups like us in, you're just trapped in a lease in heaven's empty waitin' room?
I wouldn't call it a failure until it's actually over. [ thoughtfully. it isn't an optimistic outlook, it's a realist approach. ] The souls are lost, but not gone. It means there's still a chance of recovery. Not to mention starting to narrow down where the interference is coming from...
Even if they do find them, it's hard to deny this whole thing's been a bloody disaster when we've got people forced into murderin' each other and gettin' spirited off to who-knows-where only to come back with fewer arms and eyes than they left with.
[ never should have needed a damn hospital here in the first place. he takes a long drink. ]
...You lot actually got some leads on that now? The interference thing?
Man, I know. I'm not much happier about this than you are. Neither are the angels, and neither is God. It's one screw-up after another.
[ man. ]
They at least ruled out that it's outside of the heavenly realm. Which takes out a ton of possibilities, at least, so now it's about narrowing down where in heaven the attacks are coming from. And how they're getting into this pocket in the first place.
And I think that's exactly why God wanted to run this trial in the first place. Too many people got a free pass on the idea of being a good person, but would a good person really be fucking things up this bad for other people?
I mean, we already sort of knew that, I think, but those others were puttin' a real heavy emphasis on the good outcomes, and talkin' like we were already in a part of heaven rather than somethin' more in-between. So. Don't make a big difference to me, aside from the sugarcoating bein' annoying.
You... are? This is a part of heaven, man. It's just a holding space before being able to access the entirety. Like a waiting room, sort of. Ideally, it'd be nice if you all succeeded and were able to go back. In practice...
Just don't think it really counts as bein' there when you can't reach any other part of it and you can still get kicked back down. 'S like bein' told you're still on the cliff when you're hangin' off the edge of it.
Is it really considered kicking you back down when the option's yours? [ this is a genuinely curious question. ] I always figured it was either you can go back home, or you can actually stay here, and the only people who'll go somewhere worse are those who really, really fucked up. I doubt the situation here would count to that.
[ seems shitty to condemn people who might not have been in control here.
but... ]
In practice, I don't really know how many of you actually want to do that. Go back, that is. I've heard a mixed bag of reactions.
Don't feel as straightforward as choosing where to go when we aren't even sure how any of this is bein' graded. ...And... you probably need higher standards for that last category.
[ the murder instigation coming from inside the house...
but. ah. he sips his drink. ]
Depends on what they had goin' on at the time, I reckon.
Guess it also depends what you think makes a good person. Or what counts as change. Maybe effort actually means something here. [ ... ] So. What you had going. Good or bad?
[ hm. well, that's something unexpected, a little. ]
A little weird to think you're laid to rest only to get yanked back up to go through this shitshow, huh. [ no, yeah, they can see fidelio's point a little better. ] ... does it help having a little more time with him here?
I mean, I don't mind bein' back, it's just... I dunno.
[ looks off for a few seconds... he has so many complicated feelings about it. ]
When we first got here, I was torn on it pretty much fifty-fifty. Hated that his bein' here meant he was dead instead of living the life he should've had, but glad for every extra minute.
With all the shite that's been happenin' since, though, I just want him out of here safe.
[ they patiently wait for him to gather his thoughts, sipping their drink to not crowd him. ]
... yeah, I think that makes sense. I don't think there's anything wrong with being happy for the company, but you always want what's best for the people you care about. Even if it might not be with you in the end. [ but... ] If you thought you could go back and Basilio wouldn't lose any of his power, would you?
[ there's so much besides what he said, even — on one hand, that basilio's been through so much and grown up so much in that one month without him that he feels sort of lost sometimes now; on the other, that he's afraid of his own presence undoing some of that progress and holding him back again just like he used to. ]
Yeah. Already promised him I would if it was possible.
[ which he also has complicated mixed feelings about, but. ]
[ it's still a complicated scenario, they think. ]
I still don't think it's entirely possible. But I do think as long as you're both here, it can't hurt to figure out some kind of plan and idea of what life might look like when you're both together again. Knowing what you know now.
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Sure, no rush. Whenever you've got a list you know where to find me. I can at least get started with the basics. [ makes a note for some cookware. they don't cook or anything themselves, but they know that much. ]
Oh, yeah. My commute's killer. [ they gesture behind them though, and if fidelio looks he can see the faint outline of a door. ] My lease isn't up for a couple more months though.
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Are we calling it a failure because of what's going on, or was that always a thought?
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[ he also figured the whole redemption offer might be a scam from the start, but that wasn't the question, so. ]
But it's what's been happenin' to all us since then that makes it seem pretty obvious that it is one.
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But I get it. Feels like a longshot right now.
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[ never should have needed a damn hospital here in the first place. he takes a long drink. ]
...You lot actually got some leads on that now? The interference thing?
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[ man. ]
They at least ruled out that it's outside of the heavenly realm. Which takes out a ton of possibilities, at least, so now it's about narrowing down where in heaven the attacks are coming from. And how they're getting into this pocket in the first place.
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[ ... they take a drink. ]
Never mind. Not my business.
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...Finish what you were gonna say, though.
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[ seems shitty to condemn people who might not have been in control here.
but... ]
In practice, I don't really know how many of you actually want to do that. Go back, that is. I've heard a mixed bag of reactions.
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[ the murder instigation coming from inside the house...
but. ah. he sips his drink. ]
Depends on what they had goin' on at the time, I reckon.
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Guess it also depends what you think makes a good person. Or what counts as change. Maybe effort actually means something here. [ ... ] So. What you had going. Good or bad?
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A little weird to think you're laid to rest only to get yanked back up to go through this shitshow, huh. [ no, yeah, they can see fidelio's point a little better. ] ... does it help having a little more time with him here?
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[ looks off for a few seconds... he has so many complicated feelings about it. ]
When we first got here, I was torn on it pretty much fifty-fifty. Hated that his bein' here meant he was dead instead of living the life he should've had, but glad for every extra minute.
With all the shite that's been happenin' since, though, I just want him out of here safe.
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... yeah, I think that makes sense. I don't think there's anything wrong with being happy for the company, but you always want what's best for the people you care about. Even if it might not be with you in the end. [ but... ] If you thought you could go back and Basilio wouldn't lose any of his power, would you?
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Yeah. Already promised him I would if it was possible.
[ which he also has complicated mixed feelings about, but. ]
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I still don't think it's entirely possible. But I do think as long as you're both here, it can't hurt to figure out some kind of plan and idea of what life might look like when you're both together again. Knowing what you know now.
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