...So we really won't be able to see each other again, after this?
[ he can't help the rumble of disappointment going through him at that. it's the one thing he'd wanted, even if his hopes for it were already dreadfully low. he's never been much of an optimist. ]
We still don't even know what the criteria for earning it is. [ frowns at him. ] And you're not that much older than me. What about you?
... I'm sorry. I wanted to try and find a way, but I don't think with my abilities being how they are and with the state of the cosmos it's something I can do. Not without causing universal collapse by tapping into over thirty worlds to allow constant traffic in and out from other worlds. But maybe... with as many places as there are, maybe it's something someone can figure out how to do as a starting point in their world and open that way. In other domains where it's easier to justify.
[ he knows it sucks. he knows how badly it sucks to leave people you actually want to be with. ]
The criteria was always just about being a good person and trying to think about the things in your life that would and could improve if you went back. What sort of things you would do, being more honest with yourselves, improving on bad habits to try and be better... there's no specific rubric on it because it's gonna look different for everybody. [ and this is what it's been the whole time. it's just about showing improvements. ]
What about me? [ he's god? what does that matter. ]
No, no, I think... that's kind of what I was expecting, anyway. Going between worlds is supposed to be impossible.
[ of course it is. he'd thought so from the start, because even something as simple as hearing about all these other worlds sounded like too much. just something from a story, one to let the imaginations of kids run wild. not reality.
it does change perspective on a few things, though. there are only a couple days left... they'll have to make the most of it while they can. ]
Sure, but that still makes it a lot harder to work for when it's something that vague.
[ he's gotta understand that, right?
also. raises an eyebrow. ] You also died pretty young? Clearly?
I know. I'm still trying to find alternatives or even just enhancing your phones but with everything else happening... [ it's been hard. still making attempts, but there's only so much that can be done. ] I'm sorry. I know that's not an answer anybody wants to hear.
[ but he does, so... ]
What's vague about self-reflection, you think? Or about trying to be a better person? [ it's not a challenge so much as a genuine question. ] I think people are more aware of their flaws than they think they are, and only in taking them out of their environments and giving them time and space and new perspectives can they start thinking of what might have gone wrong, how they want to reshape themselves, and taking chances they wouldn't have before. That was more the point than anything. How can a person do better if they're just looping in the same pattern over and over?
[ hm... there's a strange flicker of an emotion at his own words, but he bats it away in favor of laurence's other question. ]
I did. But it's not like it wasn't my own fault, or that it makes much of a difference. I'm actually surprised I ended up here when I figured I'd just stop existing after that.
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[ he can't help the rumble of disappointment going through him at that. it's the one thing he'd wanted, even if his hopes for it were already dreadfully low. he's never been much of an optimist. ]
We still don't even know what the criteria for earning it is. [ frowns at him. ] And you're not that much older than me. What about you?
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... I'm sorry. I wanted to try and find a way, but I don't think with my abilities being how they are and with the state of the cosmos it's something I can do. Not without causing universal collapse by tapping into over thirty worlds to allow constant traffic in and out from other worlds. But maybe... with as many places as there are, maybe it's something someone can figure out how to do as a starting point in their world and open that way. In other domains where it's easier to justify.
[ he knows it sucks. he knows how badly it sucks to leave people you actually want to be with. ]
The criteria was always just about being a good person and trying to think about the things in your life that would and could improve if you went back. What sort of things you would do, being more honest with yourselves, improving on bad habits to try and be better... there's no specific rubric on it because it's gonna look different for everybody. [ and this is what it's been the whole time. it's just about showing improvements. ]
What about me? [ he's god? what does that matter. ]
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[ of course it is. he'd thought so from the start, because even something as simple as hearing about all these other worlds sounded like too much. just something from a story, one to let the imaginations of kids run wild. not reality.
it does change perspective on a few things, though. there are only a couple days left... they'll have to make the most of it while they can. ]
Sure, but that still makes it a lot harder to work for when it's something that vague.
[ he's gotta understand that, right?
also. raises an eyebrow. ] You also died pretty young? Clearly?
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[ but he does, so... ]
What's vague about self-reflection, you think? Or about trying to be a better person? [ it's not a challenge so much as a genuine question. ] I think people are more aware of their flaws than they think they are, and only in taking them out of their environments and giving them time and space and new perspectives can they start thinking of what might have gone wrong, how they want to reshape themselves, and taking chances they wouldn't have before. That was more the point than anything. How can a person do better if they're just looping in the same pattern over and over?
[ hm... there's a strange flicker of an emotion at his own words, but he bats it away in favor of laurence's other question. ]
I did. But it's not like it wasn't my own fault, or that it makes much of a difference. I'm actually surprised I ended up here when I figured I'd just stop existing after that.