Audience - Yves

[holyspirits]

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[noirges]

[ ? ]

Is that not... most of me?

[ doesn't even argue the behavioral patterns ]

[hotfixer]

It's not that much.

[noirges]

If there's everything anything more you want to know about me, you're free to ask.

[hotfixer]

I think that it just takes time. [ or digging around in your subconscious. ] I don't even know what to ask.

[noirges]

I think people start with things like hobbies? Important people in your life?

[ as they walk into the mirrors

give mem holds paw out ]

[hotfixer]

That's difficult with you. You do whatever's asked of you and everyone is important in your life.

[ kind of teasing? but also it's just true.

anyway... here is your memory, from 28:43 to 31:32. ]

[noirges]

[ . . . ah.

it really does bring up context for the conversation they had ages ago, about the person that ramiel loves. to know a someone in their entirety, in their thoughts and in their dreams. his heart aches from it, and then knowing the outcome. understanding it a bit better now. ]

... Ramiel...

[ he looks over to her, concerned. wondering what her own reaction to reliving it is ]

[hotfixer]

[ well. she didn't love seeing that. but she's not devastated or anything, just... kinda sad? just a little sad. all things considered ramiel is kind of at peace with her past, but. ]

Hmm. This week is not as fun as I thought.

[noirges]

[ he squeezes her hand gently at that ]

It's hard when it brings up things that were hard to live through, huh?

... you really did love him. I felt that, too.

[hotfixer]

I do.

And yet, I had to condemn him to a corrupted emulation.

[noirges]

[ . . . ]

Is this... what you meant? About what happened to him. You can't reach him anymore...?

[hotfixer]

Yes. I woke him up and wasn't able to cure him. What I woke him up for accelerated the damage. And he did it anyway.

[noirges]

... it must've been painful for you to have to let go. To make that choice knowing that it's the one he would've wanted, and being aware of what was to come.

[ . . . ]

I think you're really strong for that, Ramiel.

[ yves would have been too insane to make the same move ]

[hotfixer]

[ doesn't really know what to do with that compliment so. nyeh. nyeh... ]

I wanted it to go another way. I had a plan that might have been able to fix things for him.

But I knew that it was only a chance.

[noirges]

What was the other plan...?

[hotfixer]

If his son would upload, we could take his code to overwrite and repair what's been damaged. Because it's his own descendant, it wouldn't result in a conflict of identity.

You could think of it like a blood transfusion. We needed a match.

... But Gammie wouldn't allow her son to upload before he's old enough.

[noirges]

[ . . . ah. ]

If he was uploaded... did that mean he couldn't be in the... reality side? [ he makes a face, like he's not sure what terminology to use ] The non-digital side?

[hotfixer]

... Yes.

[ so. he can probably understand gamaliel's objection. ]

[noirges]

[ . . . yeah. he nods. ]

... I'm sorry. I know you were trying to help. It must've been a difficult choice for everyone.

[hotfixer]

He wanted to upload.

[ unfortunately ramiel understands the problems people have with it but is still like 'so what.' ]

[noirges]

How old was he?

[hotfixer]

Twenty. A year too young to legally make his own choices.

[noirges]

[ i hate that in virche years this is totally adult age in fact you're entering your twilight years ]

... I guess there's a lot about your society that I don't understand.

[hotfixer]

[ be on her side. you know you want to. (no...) ]

That's a very common sentiment.

[noirges]

There's a lot of dynamics that seem... complicated.

[ to say the least, ]

But I know that you meant well. I know that your heart was definitely in the right place so I can at least say... I'm sorry that didn't work out.