[ a handhold... it takes them another moment to react, like they have to process this and figure out what to do with it. but then they will hold his hand in return. ]
Of course. We mean it when we say we want redemption for everyone. We knew there might be people who wouldn't earn it in the end, but I still didn't think anything like this would happen...
[ they squeeze his hand lightly, almost curiously. ]
I'm sure you're helping. You seem good at supporting people. I don't know how to do that, and it's supposed to be part of my job.
[ and saying this is just inviting more being cared for rather than providing care, but. well! like they just said. they're bad at this. their shoulders droop. ]
[ ramiel you are soooooo cute. yves will just hold onto their hand and lightly lean against them - aiming to be a comforting, grounding weight ]
... it can be hard. I learned how to do it, too. I feel comforted when I'm with you, but if you want to learn how with other people... we can always figure it out together.
Sometimes... falling apart just means that the contents of your heart were so important to you that they need to spill a little. It means loving so much that you're scared to lose.
[ they will lean back against him after a short pause. ]
Thank you. [ for saying he's comforted. that's nice of him. ] How you comfort someone probably depends on the person, right? You said you're comforted just being here. But I don't think it will be that easy for others. To many, my presence may be more of a burden than a comfort.
[ ... ]
That's what love always is. Being scared to let go.
But you don't always get to choose. And... I didn't think that's how it would work in Heaven.
Hmm... Maybe. I think sometimes people just need a hug or a kind word, or someone to sit with when things get harder. There will always be people that are harder to please... but you can learn with them, too.
[ continues their lil gentle lean against ramiel ]
... me neither, though. I didn't know what Heaven would be, but I always thought of it as the place where you get to see the people you love again.
It's a little scary to think... you can lose them.
[ they need to think about that first part, because they're not sure. with some people it just feels like never being able to breach that hurdle.
easier to talk about the rest, though. ]
You can lose people from anywhere, I suppose. There are people who can't get into Heaven. There are people who leave Heaven. And... [ apparently there are people who get killed in heaven. ]
I guess... I just always assumed that my friends would probably make it to Heaven, and for those who wouldn't, I was prepared for that and said what I needed to them. [ because he killed that guy ]
Even here... my decision relies mostly on Adolphe and Monsieur Lucas. So the idea of either of their souls being lost... I don't know what I'd do.
Our first priority is to find out why this happened. We will ensure this doesn't happen to anyone else.
Focusing on the souls that have already gone elsewhere... will likely be a secondary priority. But I would like to find them. If not just to be able to answer your questions better.
It was much louder, overall. There were far, far more people all moving faster and doing more. There was more space, though, for everyone to fill, and they often did fill it. Though I suppose I did spend a decent amount of time apart from the public.
The... infinite nature of it isn't dissimilar from Heaven itself.
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Mm... I don't know either. [ a little obviously ]
But I know you're trying.
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Of course. We mean it when we say we want redemption for everyone. We knew there might be people who wouldn't earn it in the end, but I still didn't think anything like this would happen...
[ they squeeze his hand lightly, almost curiously. ]
... Are you alright?
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[ he thinks about his answer for a moment... ]
... yes? [ though he's admittedly uncertain ] I'm not falling apart. I can still get up and keep trying.
But maybe... I'm a little tired.
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You should rest, then. [ takes this literally because they are stupid. ] Today's proceedings are over, so you've got the time to relax.
... Hopefully you can all take care of each other in the aftermath. Make sure no one falls apart.
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... that is what I'm trying to do, at least. I hope it's working.
[ he's not really sure? ]
Even though... I do think sometimes people need to fall apart, just to have a chance to feel everything in their heart.
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[ and saying this is just inviting more being cared for rather than providing care, but. well! like they just said. they're bad at this. their shoulders droop. ]
I don't want anyone to have to fall apart.
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... it can be hard. I learned how to do it, too. I feel comforted when I'm with you, but if you want to learn how with other people... we can always figure it out together.
Sometimes... falling apart just means that the contents of your heart were so important to you that they need to spill a little. It means loving so much that you're scared to lose.
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Thank you. [ for saying he's comforted. that's nice of him. ] How you comfort someone probably depends on the person, right? You said you're comforted just being here. But I don't think it will be that easy for others. To many, my presence may be more of a burden than a comfort.
[ ... ]
That's what love always is. Being scared to let go.
But you don't always get to choose. And... I didn't think that's how it would work in Heaven.
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[ continues their lil gentle lean against ramiel ]
... me neither, though. I didn't know what Heaven would be, but I always thought of it as the place where you get to see the people you love again.
It's a little scary to think... you can lose them.
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easier to talk about the rest, though. ]
You can lose people from anywhere, I suppose. There are people who can't get into Heaven. There are people who leave Heaven. And... [ apparently there are people who get killed in heaven. ]
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Even here... my decision relies mostly on Adolphe and Monsieur Lucas. So the idea of either of their souls being lost... I don't know what I'd do.
Also try to get lost?
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[ very firmly. then a sort of repetition, softer: ]
You won't have to be lost. None of you. We'll guide you through the rest of your time here, and you can stay in Heaven. Together.
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How has that been going? Looking for Charlie. Will you look for Jing Yuan too, after he's gone?
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Focusing on the souls that have already gone elsewhere... will likely be a secondary priority. But I would like to find them. If not just to be able to answer your questions better.
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I do believe you. I know you're all going to try your very best. And it can be really hard to juggle multiple different tasks at once.
If there's anything I can do to help, please let me know.
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[ maybe that's on them. they lift his hand up with theirs a little bit. ] This helps. I think. Just talking. [ handholding is not talking. ]
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[ what that mean
but handholding is definitely talking. yves just offers up a small smile when they say that, and he squeezes their hand again reassuringly ]
Then I can come by and we can talk anytime.
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[ but they can't right now so. squeezing his hand back but in a POUTY way before lowering it again. ]
Okay. [ ... ] Only when you want to.
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[ they and all the angels work so hard...
and easily: ]
I'll always want to talk to you.
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[ they take compliments better when they aren't upset about the thing. stupid murders getting in the way of nice comments. ]
... But thank you. It's been really nice. I didn't used to talk to so many people.
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Sometimes it takes more than one person's efforts, but that doesn't mean you're not good enough.
[ gently, because he doesn't like that talk... you don't get to talk about his friend that way.... ]
Was it quieter where you were before?
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It was much louder, overall. There were far, far more people all moving faster and doing more. There was more space, though, for everyone to fill, and they often did fill it. Though I suppose I did spend a decent amount of time apart from the public.
The... infinite nature of it isn't dissimilar from Heaven itself.
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but he'll listen diligently otherwise ]
Infinite... That's amazing for me to think about, since all I know is my own finite island. Did you work... in teams? By yourself?
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