Of course you were. Death isn't easy when it's someone you care about. [ allows the lean. leans in closer. it's fine, they can be supportive. ]
You do seem rather easy to grab if you're not paying attention. [ he is still tall, and yet. ] A funny kind of recruitment, though, when they could have asked like regular people. [ they say this but they think it's a little silly. ] Did you join them right away?
It depended on the work request. Since Coene is the commoner's district, some folks didn't have enough—and that's okay. It was more about helping people than it was about making money, for me. But sometimes we got bigger payments when people had the ability, and that worked out.
[ highly fluctuating work income... but yves just laughs a little bit at the second question ]
Great question! I still don't know the answer. He just started talking back to me one day, and it was really exciting!
Oh. [ as long as this fuck isn't working for free, that's fine. they can't exactly discount working to help people, but yves please also get something out of it to support yourself. ] Some of my jobs paid better than others, too. But I never quit any of them either.
[ there's a questioning, surprised little sound. ]
[ it's ok hugo made sure he got paid reasonably after a while ]
What types of jobs did you have?
And... well, no, not really. I was just so excited that first day he said something, I didn't bother to ask. After that, we fell into step pretty seamlessly.
A lot of different ones for different people. Sometimes it was walking dogs. Sometimes it was replanting flowers for the old ladies around the neighborhood. Sometimes it was teaching kids how to write. Sometimes it was making decorative wreaths for some associations around town. And I had a waitress job.
[ so. a lot. but this is kind of funny and kind of sweet, they think. ]
The circumstances of being here aren't great, I get that. But it must feel a little nice to have him here with you then.
but yves smiles: ] Sounds a lot like what we'd do. You get it, then. There's a lot of variety to it.
But... yeah! [ JUST. EAGERLY. ] It's difficult, but it's still the best. Monsieur Lucas, too, since he passed a few years ago. I didn't think much about heaven before coming here, but if I could name it—it'd just be a place where I could be with my friends again.
[ sorry, i laughed at the first sentence and then forgot to come back. ]
Yeah. I get it. The place I'm from was pretty small, too. [ so if you're a commoner, you pick up what work you can. ]
I never thought much about heaven before God offered me the job either. It's hard to think in those terms when it's so disconnected from the world you're in, right? I always thought maybe you go somewhere after you die, but not necessarily the idea of a real heaven or hell.
But that's kind of sweet. [ funny. simple. ] More like being reunited than anything else. Have you guys talked about going back together?
[ they are curious given the fact adolphe and lucas have apparently been dead for some time. ]
Is that how it happened? God offered you the chance to become an angel to watch over souls...?
[ idly curious
but at the question in return, yves nods.... ]
Sort of... Adolphe remembers something different from Monsieur Lucas and me. But I think it'd be hard for Monsieur Lucas, since he'd still have to deal with a lot of suffering after.
But at least when I was talking to Adolphe... He wants me to make a decision that's good for me, without waiting on him. But... I got him to agree that if in the end, if we get to decide, and I still choose to be wherever he goes—he'll accept it.
When God decided to run this trial, I don't think they realized that it would require as much work as it would. And since there's the whole entire heaven to run and they can't be here to watch everything for those eight weeks, they reached out to us to ask for help. They see and hear everything, but they wanted someone available to you at all times. While God's judgment is final, I think we do help as a different perspective to certain situations.
[ they consider what yves says before nodding along. ]
Time problems. [ they've said this before, and they seem to realize this might be the case for a few people, which is weird. ] Is... what you both remember bad? I think it's fair that Adolphe wants you to make your own decision, but at the same time you're friends.
[ and why wouldn't you want to be with your friends if you could make things work? ]
Ah.... I see. That's... an interesting way of going about things, but I guess God is just different from what I expected too. Do you like them?
[ axolotl god....
but yves just gets to the second question and... smiles sadly ]
... yes. I don't like to admit it, but it was really hard. The past four years have been difficult, especially after Adolphe died. Then Ceres, then Monsieur Lucas, then Mathis disappeared, and then I had to kill Scien.
Being able to die alongside him made sense for a lot of reasons but... one of them was my own selfishness.
[ to choose an end that gave other people hope, but also let him cut short what could've been a lifetime of loneliness ]
God's methods are maybe a little unconventional, but that's what I like about them. That, and they do want you all to succeed. I think that means more than anything.
[ but they're quiet as they listen to his explanation. i don't remember if they're holding hands still, but it's fine, they're initiating a second handhold for a second. ]
That's a very short time to lose a very large amount of people you care for. [ not to mention murdering a person and losing a part of yourself. ] I think people forget it's possible for other people to die of a broken heart. But it's a sad way to go. I wouldn't want that for anyone.
... I think so, too. Wanting the best for people... Then I think it's a little easier for me to believe that's truly God.
[ rather than someone cold and unloving (cough scien cough)
but... he doesn't quite fully agree, because he thought he'd only live to 23 for most of those years. even still, he understands the sentiment behind it more than anything. and that resonates. a broken heart, is it? ]
... yeah. I'm okay now. [ he says it again, and he really seems to believe it ] Even seeing Adolphe and Monsieur Lucas... If I had a broken heart before, it's been mended a bit now.
It's why they decided on the project. They strongly believe in it, even if other parts of heaven might be less sure.
[ would scien care for an axolotl...
it's fine he doesn't agree. they're getting used to him not agreeing when it comes to these topics anyway. ]
I'm glad to hear that much. And spending more and more time with them is repairing it bit by bit, right? The circumstances are more dire now, what with being dead and here, but at least it's together. That's more than before.
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You do seem rather easy to grab if you're not paying attention. [ he is still tall, and yet. ] A funny kind of recruitment, though, when they could have asked like regular people. [ they say this but they think it's a little silly. ] Did you join them right away?
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Mm-hmm. It was nice—they were going to pay me, so I didn't worry as much about having enough to eat with just Courrune.
Adolphe didn't actually talk to me for the first few months... but that's alright. He gave me a chance eventually, and I'm really glad he did.
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... tell me more about Adolphe. How did you get him to give you that chance?
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[ highly fluctuating work income... but yves just laughs a little bit at the second question ]
Great question! I still don't know the answer. He just started talking back to me one day, and it was really exciting!
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[ there's a questioning, surprised little sound. ]
You never thought to ask him?
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What types of jobs did you have?
And... well, no, not really. I was just so excited that first day he said something, I didn't bother to ask. After that, we fell into step pretty seamlessly.
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[ so. a lot. but this is kind of funny and kind of sweet, they think. ]
The circumstances of being here aren't great, I get that. But it must feel a little nice to have him here with you then.
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but yves smiles: ] Sounds a lot like what we'd do. You get it, then. There's a lot of variety to it.
But... yeah! [ JUST. EAGERLY. ] It's difficult, but it's still the best. Monsieur Lucas, too, since he passed a few years ago. I didn't think much about heaven before coming here, but if I could name it—it'd just be a place where I could be with my friends again.
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Yeah. I get it. The place I'm from was pretty small, too. [ so if you're a commoner, you pick up what work you can. ]
I never thought much about heaven before God offered me the job either. It's hard to think in those terms when it's so disconnected from the world you're in, right? I always thought maybe you go somewhere after you die, but not necessarily the idea of a real heaven or hell.
But that's kind of sweet. [ funny. simple. ] More like being reunited than anything else. Have you guys talked about going back together?
[ they are curious given the fact adolphe and lucas have apparently been dead for some time. ]
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[ idly curious
but at the question in return, yves nods.... ]
Sort of... Adolphe remembers something different from Monsieur Lucas and me. But I think it'd be hard for Monsieur Lucas, since he'd still have to deal with a lot of suffering after.
But at least when I was talking to Adolphe... He wants me to make a decision that's good for me, without waiting on him. But... I got him to agree that if in the end, if we get to decide, and I still choose to be wherever he goes—he'll accept it.
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[ they consider what yves says before nodding along. ]
Time problems. [ they've said this before, and they seem to realize this might be the case for a few people, which is weird. ] Is... what you both remember bad? I think it's fair that Adolphe wants you to make your own decision, but at the same time you're friends.
[ and why wouldn't you want to be with your friends if you could make things work? ]
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[ axolotl god....
but yves just gets to the second question and... smiles sadly ]
... yes. I don't like to admit it, but it was really hard. The past four years have been difficult, especially after Adolphe died. Then Ceres, then Monsieur Lucas, then Mathis disappeared, and then I had to kill Scien.
Being able to die alongside him made sense for a lot of reasons but... one of them was my own selfishness.
[ to choose an end that gave other people hope, but also let him cut short what could've been a lifetime of loneliness ]
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[ but they're quiet as they listen to his explanation. i don't remember if they're holding hands still, but it's fine, they're initiating a second handhold for a second. ]
That's a very short time to lose a very large amount of people you care for. [ not to mention murdering a person and losing a part of yourself. ] I think people forget it's possible for other people to die of a broken heart. But it's a sad way to go. I wouldn't want that for anyone.
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[ rather than someone cold and unloving (cough scien cough)
but... he doesn't quite fully agree, because he thought he'd only live to 23 for most of those years. even still, he understands the sentiment behind it more than anything. and that resonates. a broken heart, is it? ]
... yeah. I'm okay now. [ he says it again, and he really seems to believe it ] Even seeing Adolphe and Monsieur Lucas... If I had a broken heart before, it's been mended a bit now.
[ sure hope they don't fucking DIE ]
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[ would scien care for an axolotl...
it's fine he doesn't agree. they're getting used to him not agreeing when it comes to these topics anyway. ]
I'm glad to hear that much. And spending more and more time with them is repairing it bit by bit, right? The circumstances are more dire now, what with being dead and here, but at least it's together. That's more than before.