Audience - Anders

[holyspirits]

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[hotfixer]

Oh, that's okay. I didn't want sympathy. It's just that you tell me what's going on with your situation, so I wanted to do the same.

[ she shakes her head! ]

I think that difficult things can still go surprisingly well. That's all.

[spiritbalm]

[ well she listens to all of his problems, so it only seems fair he offer sympathy for hers. ]

Maybe we both need to meet more people.

[hotfixer]

[ yeah but that's their job! and also they care him! ]

I don't think I can do that. But if you're going to a brand new world, you can! That must be exciting.

[spiritbalm]

Admittedly, I'm still not certain of the likelihood of that actually happening.

[ like it feels fake in a too good to be real sort of way. ]

I imagine it will be different. And unsettling. But good. For all the running away I did, I hardly ever travelled.

[hotfixer]

You're nervous?

[spiritbalm]

A bit?

[ hm. ]

Before Justice, I was anxious a great deal of the time.

[hotfixer]

That is because you are from a very anxiety-inducing world.

[spiritbalm]

[ yes. well. ]

Moreso than a normal amount considering the circumstances, I mean.

[hotfixer]

Well—change can be scary. But if you don't risk it, you might never find what makes you happier than you had been before.

A lot of people get very nervous before uploading. But in the end, they're glad that they did.

[spiritbalm]

I suppose that's true.

[ its not as if he's been afraid of change before. he'd spent a lifetime trying to change in any way possible. running from the circle. running from the wardens. running to kirkwall. and now, running from there. ]

Uploading? That is what you did?

[ he has a general idea just based on memory context clues. ]

[hotfixer]

[ then is he just afraid of being happier? she does not know his meta text enough to ask this. ]

Oh. No. I was created with the combined data of two people who did upload, though. I was born in the cloud, so... I never existed in the physical world to begin with.

[spiritbalm]

[ this is why she was listed under justice's most eligible. ]

That's right. I've ... always thought of you as more like a Spirit, admittedly. Like Justice.

[ so, no real body of her own. ]

[hotfixer]

I suppose I'm something like that. I was created to fix the inherent flaw that would otherwise kill those who uploaded.

But I don't know if I'm quite as special as something like the spirit of justice itself. I was the first CI. But I'm no longer necessary.

[spiritbalm]

Spirits are the Maker's first children. The Chant claims He deemed them an unfulfilled creation, because they lacked a soul.

[ a first child, created to fix the Fade, and then deemed no longer necessary. ]

Perhaps you are not Justice, but you have the right to be whoever you would like to be. Especially when you are here, and free.

[hotfixer]

I think many would say that fits me. Created Intelligences are seen as less human than Uploaded Intelligences, after all.

[ no longer necessary is very apt. ]

Thank you for saying so. I've enjoyed myself a lot, having a body and meeting so many fun people.