If I'm going anywhere, it's going to be Terra, so-- decent odds I might not see people again? And it's not like I love the guy or something. That'd be wayyy too much.
[but she's thinking about it enough that there's a fragment of something that manifests from her thoughts, imaginary but present. a frustrated past w telling another woman: i remember-- all this shit that doesn't even matter! but i can't... i can't remember the last conversation i had with her.
she's just decided not to leave things unsaid. even if that meant admitting she cared about a person.]
[ they don't reply, because they're taking this thought into account, along with what she says. ]
I get it. With everything that's happened here, I think a lot of people are finding there are things they wished they could have said. And without knowing what's coming after, it makes sense to get it out now.
I haven't actually asked him about it. I let Anders tell me whatever he wants to tell me. But even so, breakups are messy. Sometimes you don't even stay broken up.
I'd say maybe when you go back you can have an opportunity, but if you get the chance to go back you're probably gonna be busy with other stuff anyway. Right?
Sometimes you have a duty to a place you just can't quit. Or even outside of that, you've put so much work into it you don't want to leave. Where do you think you'd even want to go if you could?
I'm gonna tell you what I've told a few other people. Even if you're not taking the option, what's the harm in thinking about it in a place like this where nothing can stop you from considering things? Not that I have room to tell people what they should be thinking about.
No, I get it, but it's more like... I really can't think of anywhere I'd wanna go more. Maybe if we were talking a vacation or something? But when it comes to this, I mean it, I'm only coming up with the one answer.
Home. [ ...yeah. that would track enough. ] You're more decisive than most right now. I think some people are going to start struggling deciding what's next for them.
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[ does not blame her, but simply curious. ]
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[she says after a second.]
If I'm going anywhere, it's going to be Terra, so-- decent odds I might not see people again? And it's not like I love the guy or something. That'd be wayyy too much.
[but she's thinking about it enough that there's a fragment of something that manifests from her thoughts, imaginary but present. a frustrated past w telling another woman: i remember-- all this shit that doesn't even matter! but i can't... i can't remember the last conversation i had with her.
she's just decided not to leave things unsaid. even if that meant admitting she cared about a person.]
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I get it. With everything that's happened here, I think a lot of people are finding there are things they wished they could have said. And without knowing what's coming after, it makes sense to get it out now.
Did you tell him that?
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In my defense, I didn't actually know it was this complicated for him, he definitely gave me the impression before that he broke shit off with Hawke!
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...not like this changes anything, though.
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[ a longer one might've been nice, once, but that would mean meeting better people. ]
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[by circumstance, or otherwise.]
That's more or less why I've just never bothered.
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People keep trying to talk me out of heading home if I get the chance, but they don't really get it, you know?
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