holyspirits | Audience

I'm still unclear on what specifically is in a Sarkaz' blood.

It's hard to explain, if you aren't already one of us. But the myriad souls, all our ancestors, all the Sarkaz who came before us... the world's always kind of treated us like shit, and they remember all of it. They want us to remember all of it.

They say we're a part of the myriad before our lives even begin, so there's just no escaping all the dusty history they're pissed about! I don't know why they have to make it our problem.

What does carrying that history look like? Many people have ancestors who come from war and conflict. What makes the Sarkaz unable to escape that past, if not just that the conflict is ongoing?

I told you, it's in our blood. We feel it.

I suppose it's just something I can't imagine. Many people feel the weight of their ancestry emotionally, but I don't understand what it means to physically feel it.

It's like...

[she's quiet, thinking of how to explain.]

It isn't words. But I saw a vision of them, once, where I could hear them, and it was all... we will never be saved. No one can escape suffering, for we once suffered. No one can escape hatred, for we once hated. The senseless deaths and shattered hopes-- where is paradise or peace?

[...]

Whenever anyone does you wrong, whenever anybody looks at you sideways just 'cause you're Sarkaz, you can feel it. It's just always in you. When you fight, they want you to do it. You just... know that what you're supposed to do is fight back, and kill, and lash out.

[ this just sounds like experiencing racism but also you had a dream about it once ]

Do you think that it's better to do what your ancestors and blood tell you to do? Or to make your own choices?