[ ramiel is prone to blurting out whatever they're thinking, in most cases, but they do listen to all of this quietly, and then sit with their thoughts for a moment before speaking. ]
Whether it would be a kindness to let them pass or would only extend their pain is something up to each person. Someone outside of the story will never be able to reach a conclusion on what was right for them. Even myself.
But in the moment, even in hardship, even when thinking and saying that they don't anymore... Most people want to live. If they had no will to live, I don't think they would have survived everything else they went through. It is better not to give people false hope if you know what lies ahead, but if you don't—then it is a kindness to keep people going.
I think that the gamble for a better life is worth taking. No one knows the future until they're there, after all.
But it's normal for any community to have some rules, if you wish to be a part of it. And the expectation that you be kind, the trust that you won't harm others, are very simple.
They have more to do with how you treat others than what you believe, or believe about yourself.
And yet, there's a difference between a community having rules everyone has to abide by and an evaluation. We're not being told to get along and not make waves, we're being told to demonstrate some sort of quality and be judged for it or found lacking.
Well, yes. The requirements of my evaluations were harsh.
I guess what I don't know about is deciding not to define myself by what I was taught by the Sharrans, but having to follow someone else's code of conduct. That's all.
It's confusing to be dropped into a set of expectations before you have a chance to form your own opinions about them, or the one enacting them. [ but unfortunately they just kind of finish that thought with a shrug. it is what it is... ]
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Whether it would be a kindness to let them pass or would only extend their pain is something up to each person. Someone outside of the story will never be able to reach a conclusion on what was right for them. Even myself.
But in the moment, even in hardship, even when thinking and saying that they don't anymore... Most people want to live. If they had no will to live, I don't think they would have survived everything else they went through. It is better not to give people false hope if you know what lies ahead, but if you don't—then it is a kindness to keep people going.
I think that the gamble for a better life is worth taking. No one knows the future until they're there, after all.
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[it makes some sense, and it does speak to her a little.]
But that's not what I'm meant to believe.
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We present you with options. What we can offer, and what it takes to get it. You still decide whether you think that's worth it.
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But it's normal for any community to have some rules, if you wish to be a part of it. And the expectation that you be kind, the trust that you won't harm others, are very simple.
They have more to do with how you treat others than what you believe, or believe about yourself.
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Life was full of the same kinds of evaluations. I would even say that their requirements were harsher.
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I guess what I don't know about is deciding not to define myself by what I was taught by the Sharrans, but having to follow someone else's code of conduct. That's all.
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It's confusing to be dropped into a set of expectations before you have a chance to form your own opinions about them, or the one enacting them. [ but unfortunately they just kind of finish that thought with a shrug. it is what it is... ]
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[including that she knows it's not like she can really protest, if she wants a chance to go back, she doesn't have much choice to go along.]
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But I think that you'll figure it out.
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[frees you from week 0]