What's done can be undone. It is a precaution for when we leave the safety of our cloister and go out into the world. If I left again, I would surrender those secrets once again.
[the mission though is a bit confusing.]
An artefact of great power, fought over by devils and mind flayers. Shar wants it for herself. I do not know why.
Or it's a way to make sure you guys don't remember enough to object...
[ but they'll stay agitated because: ]
She's tasked you to get a powerful artefact wanted by devils, you don't know why, and you don't even remember anything about yourself otherwise. [ dry. ] This just sounds like she's using you, Shadowheart.
...Yes, I agree, that is very much the problem. But I was supposed to get something. I mean, I do get something. I have magic, I have abilities and knowledge, and when I completed my training, I'd get even more.
I wanted that honor more than anything, and then at a certain point, without even realizing it, I stopped wanting it as much as I once did.
Power in exchange for your sense of self doesn't seem right. That and your blind servitude. I get why you'd get dissatisfied with the exchange sooner or later.
[ they pause ]
Do you know what else you'd want instead? Or maybe what you want more than just that honor.
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[the mission though is a bit confusing.]
An artefact of great power, fought over by devils and mind flayers. Shar wants it for herself. I do not know why.
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[ but they'll stay agitated because: ]
She's tasked you to get a powerful artefact wanted by devils, you don't know why, and you don't even remember anything about yourself otherwise. [ dry. ] This just sounds like she's using you, Shadowheart.
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Well, yes. Of course she is. Every deity is using their followers. That's sort of the nature of pledging service to someone.
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...Yes, I agree, that is very much the problem. But I was supposed to get something. I mean, I do get something. I have magic, I have abilities and knowledge, and when I completed my training, I'd get even more.
I wanted that honor more than anything, and then at a certain point, without even realizing it, I stopped wanting it as much as I once did.
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[ they pause ]
Do you know what else you'd want instead? Or maybe what you want more than just that honor.
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[trying to free you guys from my week 0 audiences so we can stop there.]