[A hard lesson to learn, to be sure. But a good one to know. Tuck it in your pocket and keep it close always, remember that the next time you're feeling low.
The shape of the figure strikes her as odd at first, until she realizes that's a bunch of balloons in his hand. The billowing pants make sense then, as do the twin tufts of orange hair poking out the sides of his head.
He waves at her, and the dimming light catches on his silver eyes. Reflective, like new coins.]
Howyadoin, Shadowheart?
[The word cuts into her with fear of a different sort. As if she's been peeled back and exposed, but as what she cannot say.]
How ya like it here, Shady Lady? You enjoying summer vacation? Me too, baby, me too.
Come and play again sometime. Yves says hi! We all float down here. And you will too.
[He pipes off with a high pitched giggle and releases the balloons. They drift into the air, a flock of red and blue and yellow bubbles. Ones that pop with bangs like a backfiring car, a rattling machine gun fire as they self destruct mid-air.
The clown is gone.
Further up the block, her aunt's stately Ford Consul turns a corner. Book club has ended early.]
[it does feel like that. there's some other truth she doesn't want to know about, some life she should be having other than this.
there are parts of it that she knows are awful and parts of it that may not be. maybe they're even better than this, here, now.
but whatever this thing is, it doesn't want to show her those parts. it only wants to tear her open, show her all of the ugly things, make them spill out, taunt them with the things that she wants to hold onto just to make her feel ashamed of how small they are.
they're just words, and meaningless ones at that, but she's shaken by it, she knows she won't be able to get it out of her mind.
but there is no part of her that believes her aunt will understand this. she'll just run back to the door of the house and say nothing about what happened to her. she expects to be asked about the injuries, about the shape she's in, but when the questions don't come, when her aunt is only upset that she stayed out past curfew, that she didn't get home earlier, that she didn't figure out a way to let herself in, it's a relief, honestly.
she won't find any sympathy here. she's going to have to rely on herself.]
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The shape of the figure strikes her as odd at first, until she realizes that's a bunch of balloons in his hand. The billowing pants make sense then, as do the twin tufts of orange hair poking out the sides of his head.
He waves at her, and the dimming light catches on his silver eyes. Reflective, like new coins.]
Howyadoin, Shadowheart?
[The word cuts into her with fear of a different sort. As if she's been peeled back and exposed, but as what she cannot say.]
How ya like it here, Shady Lady? You enjoying summer vacation? Me too, baby, me too.
Come and play again sometime. Yves says hi! We all float down here. And you will too.
[He pipes off with a high pitched giggle and releases the balloons. They drift into the air, a flock of red and blue and yellow bubbles. Ones that pop with bangs like a backfiring car, a rattling machine gun fire as they self destruct mid-air.
The clown is gone.
Further up the block, her aunt's stately Ford Consul turns a corner. Book club has ended early.]
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there are parts of it that she knows are awful and parts of it that may not be. maybe they're even better than this, here, now.
but whatever this thing is, it doesn't want to show her those parts. it only wants to tear her open, show her all of the ugly things, make them spill out, taunt them with the things that she wants to hold onto just to make her feel ashamed of how small they are.
they're just words, and meaningless ones at that, but she's shaken by it, she knows she won't be able to get it out of her mind.
but there is no part of her that believes her aunt will understand this. she'll just run back to the door of the house and say nothing about what happened to her. she expects to be asked about the injuries, about the shape she's in, but when the questions don't come, when her aunt is only upset that she stayed out past curfew, that she didn't get home earlier, that she didn't figure out a way to let herself in, it's a relief, honestly.
she won't find any sympathy here. she's going to have to rely on herself.]