[ he is really grasping the concept that viktor had the right idea and just poor execution because all of this makes sense. it makes sense to tell people and when you're desperate, of course you'll do anything and say anything to make your pain and suffering stop.
so he's quiet again. ]
All it needed was a stable core. And when that core is destroyed... [ hm. ] So the answer is finding a way to replace you as the center holding it together.
[Which sounds like an asshole move, but he did not know any of them well at the time, much less Caspian. No one wants to admit something like this either really... but with memories on the rise!]
My abilities... were waning. The more I used them, the dimmer my reserves became. I can't say what would have occurred if that had happened.
[ he doesn't look offended that viktor didn't tell him this, because yeah. there are quite a few things he's not telling viktor either, so. understandable. ]
... you would have deteriorated on your own, probably. [ like the original UIs who were created with the flaw. ] When did that start?
With Huck. Restoring his form took a very short toll on my energy. It is perhaps why it took so many tries later to reach and begin to restore Vander. Every person I cured, the strength of the arcane would reduce. No...
My body... simply was too human to remain a stable conduit for the scope of its power. It was my body failing again.
[ sometimes you're same brain and that brain is big and bad. ]
So there must have been something in Huck himself that shortcircuited you. Or, maybe, something that blocks the arcane itself and pushes back against it, creating cracks in its structure.
It goes right back to maybe the answer was creating a different structure that wasn't a human body. Sometimes... there are some things even the strongest human body can't withstand.
The Hexcore needed to be perfected. Jayce had been desperate, and he had looked through all of my notes, but...
[He glances at a hand, curling and uncurling it.]
My body needs to evolve more... It has to become less human to channel the current of the arcane... Perhaps... machinery is the best viable option... We were already halfway there.
he sort of laughs. He can't really laugh, laugh, but it's a sort of airy huff.]
I was an inventor. I created many mechanical things besides Hextech long before being able to wield the arcane. I think I would be able to maintain myself fairly well.
That explains a lot. [ reasonably he could have assumed as much, given the creation of hextech, but it's one thing to build machines and another to work on yourself. ]
... I'm not the machines person. Not that way. That's Maddie. But if you think that's a solution, there are probably ways to help you.
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so he's quiet again. ]
All it needed was a stable core. And when that core is destroyed... [ hm. ] So the answer is finding a way to replace you as the center holding it together.
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I did not mention something to you before.
[Which sounds like an asshole move, but he did not know any of them well at the time, much less Caspian. No one wants to admit something like this either really... but with memories on the rise!]
My abilities... were waning. The more I used them, the dimmer my reserves became. I can't say what would have occurred if that had happened.
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... you would have deteriorated on your own, probably. [ like the original UIs who were created with the flaw. ] When did that start?
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With Huck. Restoring his form took a very short toll on my energy. It is perhaps why it took so many tries later to reach and begin to restore Vander. Every person I cured, the strength of the arcane would reduce. No...
My body... simply was too human to remain a stable conduit for the scope of its power. It was my body failing again.
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So there must have been something in Huck himself that shortcircuited you. Or, maybe, something that blocks the arcane itself and pushes back against it, creating cracks in its structure.
It goes right back to maybe the answer was creating a different structure that wasn't a human body. Sometimes... there are some things even the strongest human body can't withstand.
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[He glances at a hand, curling and uncurling it.]
My body needs to evolve more... It has to become less human to channel the current of the arcane... Perhaps... machinery is the best viable option... We were already halfway there.
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and in some cases, he's not sure if he would even say that it was to begin with. ]
But even machinery needs maintenance over time. What would you do then?
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he sort of laughs. He can't really laugh, laugh, but it's a sort of airy huff.]
I was an inventor. I created many mechanical things besides Hextech long before being able to wield the arcane. I think I would be able to maintain myself fairly well.
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... I'm not the machines person. Not that way. That's Maddie. But if you think that's a solution, there are probably ways to help you.
[ to develop a plan here. ]
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I should like to meet Maddie then.
[They can talk about mechanics, and maybe he won't think so much about world domination.]
I'm not sure if it matters much here anymore.
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She'd be interested in you. Not sure she'd agree with what you're planning, but she'd be interested.
[ if only because maddie likes to study this kind of thing, he thinks. ]
If that doesn't matter, then what do you think does?
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[Warning him away from being unhinged....]
I haven't found the answer to that yet.
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... we have a few weeks. Maybe not the worst idea to think about it and see what sticks out.
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[It could be unhinged........ it could be we change your whole narrative (AGAIN).]
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