Hehe, that's why I have faith you'll fix our connection soon.
[ she wouldn't judge him if he said better. his opinions are his, and she likes learning about what people think, however controversial the thoughts may be. ]
I wouldn't put anyone in my position. [ not because she doesn't think anyone couldn't do what she's done or will do but because she wouldn't want anyone to have bear any of the weights given to her. ] I don't know if there's much that would make me think about stopping, but even if that happened, I know I would finish it. There's no way I could let the Flame-Chasers have such a sad ending. It has to be something worthy of them. There's no way I could let the memories of all my friends go to waste like that.
No, I get it. [ probably a little more than he wants to admit. ] Guess it's a good thing then that this isn't the last stop for you. Once your soul heals, and once I get the transportation gate fixed again, we're heading back to that side and then it's between you and God. But I think they would probably agree something like that is a change for the better of your world.
That's the whole point of judgment day. As long as you're back over on that side, you have time to meet with them. And that's why I'm working to beat the deadline.
Keep your phone on you and watch for messages mostly. It's easier to send a text that try to teleport everywhere finding all of you. And now that we can read their Chipper we can put more pieces together. Or... that's the plan.
[ a pause. ]
Charlie, Jing Yuan and Zhongli could probably use some help wrangling the more annoying ones though.
It'd be a little funny if we still couldn't see their Chipper posts when that's where they try to keep us in the loop, but that's a sign of our connection getting stronger, right? I'm going to have to convince Adolphe to keep his phone with him more.
[ she doesn't know anyone else who doesn't have their phone on them most of the time. ]
I don't mind people acting out as long as it doesn't harm too many people, but I'll step in if someone's about to die. [ a beat. ] Die again.
Right. I've been working on navigating their system and finding backdoors for months, and I finally found the right channel. I didn't think it'd go on that specific day, but... it's fine. It worked. If anybody on this side can get Adolphe to listen I don't doubt it'll be you.
I get that dying again is likely traumatic, but we can't lose focus on getting back. You're still under trial by God, but I'm not here to convince people anymore. If they want to live in the moment and act out and not go back, okay. I just have to make sure they get out of here. [ he says this, but he will still try anyway because he's useless this way. ] I appreciate the help. You're probably better at it.
Thanks for all your hard work, Kiraman. Seeing the results of your work gives all of us hope. I'll do my best so we can at least all stay connected on this side.
[ smash cut to claude getting killed and ignoring her for the rest of the game. ]
Don't sell yourself so short. Viktor said I was like you, in a way, when we first met, so doesn't that mean what you're trying is working? You really are a good guardian angel. Brimstone isn't as bad as he could be, and he's starting to acknowledge what he's trying to hide. [ sort of. a little. it's better than nothing. ]
It's about all I can ask for. [ that draws out a blip of curiosity though. ] ... really? Viktor's kind of an interesting case.
[ he. wants to ask what the hell viktor said, but he will leave it alone. ]
Lailah and Mary probably had other reasons for accepting this job, but I knew when I said yes that I probably had some experience that would help heal people. It's not the exact same, but close enough. [ so maybe that's why he does an okay job. ] ... you think there's still some hope for him?
It's because I said we could help him while also helping ourselves. I don't know why he thought it was a difficult concept.
[ she will supply the answer without being asked. ]
Yeah? What kind of reasons did you have for accepting this job? Besides how you like to help people. [ she nods. ] If I have to be really honest, eight weeks might be cutting it close to him, but... I think there's a glimmer there. I think he was taking steps forward before Firefly got him, and that just set him back to where he was before.
Because he's an idiot. [ says another idiot. ] We've had a whole conversation about this multiple times. Part of him probably thinks he's beyond help, even if that's not true.
[ never mind elysia's great, thanks for filling in the gaps. ]
For one thing, a couple of months really does mean next to nothing now. And I... figured if something did go wrong, I'd be able to fix it. Knowing how to find problems, fix them, and negotiations are kind of all things I'd done before, and they're good skills for crisis situations. [ he listens to her assessment of brimstone before he hums to himself. ]
A glimmer is something. It'll be up to God, but if he can get back to the place he was before the setback it might help him.
You're all stubborn in your own way. [ this is how she calls people idiots. ] He wouldn't be here if he were beyond help.
You really jump into trying to solve problems, huh? It's not a bad thing, but do you ever think you don't have to solve every problem that comes your way?
[ she can guess the answer to that question, but she still has to ask it. ]
I think Charlie is working her magic on him, and I had a small talk with him, but I don't know how much I got through to him.
[ he raises an eyebrow. don't call him stubborn? (he is so stubborn.) ]
You were all sort of collected randomly, but you did have to get to heaven somehow. Maybe you have a point. [ anyway he also gives her a blank stare because no? if there's a problem, he will fix it. he was, quite literally, born for solving problems other people can't, and sometimes finding that out in your young adult life really fucks up your psyche to the point you just decide there's no other purpose but to fix everything and spite the people who said you couldn't.
but he does not say that. he is ignoring it and moving on. ]
I have time. [ okay, maybe there is a little answer to that. ] If you walked away unscathed I'd say that you probably got through to him a little bit. My experience has been if he doesn't want to hear it or doesn't agree he freaks out.
[ she's teasing and can't read bracket text, but buddy.... caspian, please help yourself. i'm begging.
she nods. ]
You do have time. He did freak out, but he didn't try to attack me. That's a step up, I think. He might not ever be able to let go of his anger, but... at least he can redirect it a little.
[ he has half a mind to say it's women's intuition but again, he thinks better of it. ]
Thank you for pointing it out then. [ ...that is a step up, he thinks, but the question now is if it's enough. ] Redirecting's better. I can't imagine God would be fine turning him loose on the world again if he can't keep his temper in check and would go around blasting people because he can. But management is still something.
And even then there are some cases only he can help himself. I don't want you and Charlie spending more time on that when you could use the time for yourselves and your paths, too.
[ but he shrugs. ]
I actually don't know myself. I think that's probably going to be up to God on a case by case basis.
Enough of you are self-sabotaging as it is, we don't need more. It's a good question to ask though. You at least are asking instead of assuming how the rest of this is gonna go. I can appreciate that.
I happen to love myself as much as I love others. [ so he doesn't have to worry about that, at least. her instances of self-sacrifice are actually after long bouts of agonizing and trying to think of ways to not self-sacrifice hilariously enough. ] Even in heaven, I don't think anything should be taken for granted for how anything will go.
[ oh that's a new relief. do you know how many people in this graveyard are lacking self-confidence. it's depressing. ]
Good. Think you can teach the rest of them how to do the same? [ god. ] ... you're not wrong though. Heaven's supposed to be paradise, but we have a job for a reason, and it's because things can still happen. Thinking it's easy from here on out isn't going to help.
[ her full time heaven volunteer job: trying to inject people with self-love. ]
Yeah, I didn't think it was going to be simple before everything started happening, but there's nothing easy now although there are moments every now and then that we create to be nicer.
Maybe the answer is to keep creating nicer moments? It might calm people down to remember what the purpose is and pull them out of the misery of dying twice.
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[ she wouldn't judge him if he said better. his opinions are his, and she likes learning about what people think, however controversial the thoughts may be. ]
I wouldn't put anyone in my position. [ not because she doesn't think anyone couldn't do what she's done or will do but because she wouldn't want anyone to have bear any of the weights given to her. ] I don't know if there's much that would make me think about stopping, but even if that happened, I know I would finish it. There's no way I could let the Flame-Chasers have such a sad ending. It has to be something worthy of them. There's no way I could let the memories of all my friends go to waste like that.
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Will we all be granted some kind of audience with them at the end?
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[ a pause. ]
Charlie, Jing Yuan and Zhongli could probably use some help wrangling the more annoying ones though.
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[ she doesn't know anyone else who doesn't have their phone on them most of the time. ]
I don't mind people acting out as long as it doesn't harm too many people, but I'll step in if someone's about to die. [ a beat. ] Die again.
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I get that dying again is likely traumatic, but we can't lose focus on getting back. You're still under trial by God, but I'm not here to convince people anymore. If they want to live in the moment and act out and not go back, okay. I just have to make sure they get out of here. [ he says this, but he will still try anyway because he's useless this way. ] I appreciate the help. You're probably better at it.
[ he is not exactly a people person. ]
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[ smash cut to claude getting killed and ignoring her for the rest of the game. ]
Don't sell yourself so short. Viktor said I was like you, in a way, when we first met, so doesn't that mean what you're trying is working? You really are a good guardian angel. Brimstone isn't as bad as he could be, and he's starting to acknowledge what he's trying to hide. [ sort of. a little. it's better than nothing. ]
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It's about all I can ask for. [ that draws out a blip of curiosity though. ] ... really? Viktor's kind of an interesting case.
[ he. wants to ask what the hell viktor said, but he will leave it alone. ]
Lailah and Mary probably had other reasons for accepting this job, but I knew when I said yes that I probably had some experience that would help heal people. It's not the exact same, but close enough. [ so maybe that's why he does an okay job. ] ... you think there's still some hope for him?
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[ she will supply the answer without being asked. ]
Yeah? What kind of reasons did you have for accepting this job? Besides how you like to help people. [ she nods. ] If I have to be really honest, eight weeks might be cutting it close to him, but... I think there's a glimmer there. I think he was taking steps forward before Firefly got him, and that just set him back to where he was before.
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[ never mind elysia's great, thanks for filling in the gaps. ]
For one thing, a couple of months really does mean next to nothing now. And I... figured if something did go wrong, I'd be able to fix it. Knowing how to find problems, fix them, and negotiations are kind of all things I'd done before, and they're good skills for crisis situations. [ he listens to her assessment of brimstone before he hums to himself. ]
A glimmer is something. It'll be up to God, but if he can get back to the place he was before the setback it might help him.
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You really jump into trying to solve problems, huh? It's not a bad thing, but do you ever think you don't have to solve every problem that comes your way?
[ she can guess the answer to that question, but she still has to ask it. ]
I think Charlie is working her magic on him, and I had a small talk with him, but I don't know how much I got through to him.
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You were all sort of collected randomly, but you did have to get to heaven somehow. Maybe you have a point. [ anyway he also gives her a blank stare because no? if there's a problem, he will fix it. he was, quite literally, born for solving problems other people can't, and sometimes finding that out in your young adult life really fucks up your psyche to the point you just decide there's no other purpose but to fix everything and spite the people who said you couldn't.
but he does not say that. he is ignoring it and moving on. ]
I have time. [ okay, maybe there is a little answer to that. ] If you walked away unscathed I'd say that you probably got through to him a little bit. My experience has been if he doesn't want to hear it or doesn't agree he freaks out.
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[ she's teasing and can't read bracket text, but buddy.... caspian, please help yourself. i'm begging.
she nods. ]
You do have time. He did freak out, but he didn't try to attack me. That's a step up, I think. He might not ever be able to let go of his anger, but... at least he can redirect it a little.
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Thank you for pointing it out then. [ ...that is a step up, he thinks, but the question now is if it's enough. ] Redirecting's better. I can't imagine God would be fine turning him loose on the world again if he can't keep his temper in check and would go around blasting people because he can. But management is still something.
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[ ... ]
If he doesn't pass judgment, where will he be sent? I don't know if I remember hearing any concrete answer about that.
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[ but he shrugs. ]
I actually don't know myself. I think that's probably going to be up to God on a case by case basis.
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I'm not going to sabotage myself for anyone. If it's going to be so case by base, I suppose there's no point in worry about it now.
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[ for instance... murder. ]
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Good. Think you can teach the rest of them how to do the same? [ god. ] ... you're not wrong though. Heaven's supposed to be paradise, but we have a job for a reason, and it's because things can still happen. Thinking it's easy from here on out isn't going to help.
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[ her full time heaven volunteer job: trying to inject people with self-love. ]
Yeah, I didn't think it was going to be simple before everything started happening, but there's nothing easy now although there are moments every now and then that we create to be nicer.
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Maybe the answer is to keep creating nicer moments? It might calm people down to remember what the purpose is and pull them out of the misery of dying twice.