I've felt like that a few times. The first was when we moved after my dad died. [ it's said casually ] You get used to it, but I guess you don't need to entirely. If things go well, you'll either choose to go back or you can probably find somewhere around here that looks closer to your home.
Why wouldn't I? [ genuine ] The thing I liked the most about this entire idea was that people could get a second chance at a future they would've missed otherwise.
Ha. [ oh, that's humorless and a little bitter, and they shake their head before pressing their hand over their eyes ] Ha, no, Ramiel and I have--very different opinions on this kind of thing. I think Zuriel leans more towards my side of things, but I'm not out to debate it.
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Ramiel's concept of a regular life is... skewed by their experience. They're always going to think heaven is better than any other option. And I think it's fine to choose that. But I wouldn't. And I'm more aware of the things and people left behind than Ramiel would be. [ clicking their tongue ] That makes it sound worse than I wanted it to. It's your choices, no matter what any of us say about it.
Mm... I don't want to just explain for them. [ tilting their head ] Especially since this is something we never fully agreed with each other on. But there's nothing malicious about it. For them, it makes the most sense to want to go somewhere you could never be hurt or die.
Yeah, I do get where they're coming from... I mean, I guess I'm in a similar spot back home? In theory, I don't have to go back to being human if I don't want to, but...
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I've taken a few short trips out of the city with my parents before, but that's about it. I've never actually left the country.
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It's not bad here, at least—just different. But I do plan on going back home after this.
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[ gam is team GO BACK HOME to nearly everyone sorry ]
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Wait, you want us to?
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[ there's a pause ]
Ramiel's concept of a regular life is... skewed by their experience. They're always going to think heaven is better than any other option. And I think it's fine to choose that. But I wouldn't. And I'm more aware of the things and people left behind than Ramiel would be. [ clicking their tongue ] That makes it sound worse than I wanted it to. It's your choices, no matter what any of us say about it.
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I still don’t get it, but maybe I can. Leave that one alone, then.
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Noted. But that really makes me wonder about them.
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[ in a knowing tone ]
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