Audience - Koharu

[holyspirits]

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[holyspirits]

I was like fourteen, okay, I can't be blamed for my bad ideas.

[cupidsammo]

But I'm fifteen.

[holyspirits]

And you are so much more mature than you were at fourteen.

[ they say this decisively ]

[cupidsammo]

W- well, it's more like... Even I know that won't work at my age...

[ ... ]

On the other hand, it's not like I can blame you for trying.

[holyspirits]

Okay, there were circumstances for why getting them to talk was important--

[ pausing and recentering themself ]

The point was it was a dumb idea but they didn't hate each other and they hadn't technically broken up yet.

[cupidsammo]

—Sorry, I guess I shouldn't assume.. [ wheeze okay ] I think it matters that you tried to do something you thought would help.

[holyspirits]

No, you should, it was a dumb idea and I was told as much, but it was kind of the only idea I had at the time.

[ dry and self-aware now ]

I don't even remember if I wanted them together so much as I wanted them to not be so... [ they hum ] Sad, I think.

[cupidsammo]

[ a beat, then a nod ]

I haven't... gone through that myself, but it doesn't seem like it's easy when something goes wrong in your family. But I do understand wanting to help when you see someone in trouble, especially when it's those you love.

[holyspirits]

It wasn't all selfless. I wanted things to be able to go back to the way they were, but that was never going to happen.

[cupidsammo]

... Yeah. I think everyone feels that way at some point, though.

[holyspirits]

Have you?

[cupidsammo]

I do lately, sometimes.

[holyspirits]

[ well she did die... ]

Anything you want to talk about? Or we can change the subject.

[cupidsammo]

Oh. I don't really need to—I mean, I'm okay. It's just something I think about, that's all.

[holyspirits]

Like you said, most people do. Sometimes it helps to talk about the changes. Sometimes you just need to stand beside someone and let them deal with them.

[cupidsammo]

[ well they're not wrong, but, ]

Mm... But really, I'm all right. You don't need to worry about me.

[holyspirits]

It's sort of my job?

[ they say this lightly like they don't mind, though ]

[cupidsammo]

[ no one (that wasn't aki) has ever pressed her like this before..... what does she do............. ]







It's okay.

[holyspirits]

I can't tell if you want me to drop it or if no one's ever tried to get an answer out of you before that wasn't "I'm fine".

[cupidsammo]

[ help ]

But we've only just met, so it'd be super rude of me to start spilling things like that on you!

[holyspirits]

It's part of the job description to listen to your problems, you know.

[cupidsammo]

That sounds like a lot to take on...