[ this does make her worry slightly less. happy to know he has some good memories still at this age, but a little sad that he's still a very depressed man in the future as well. things happened that changed him, and the longer that jacopo talks the more zuriel actually relates to this version of him a little more.
she's been compared to a worker ant before, called sensible by everyone she knows, has worked hard to get to where she's at but the progress was always slow. the results were minimal in some cases. but then there were other results things worked a little better. ]
Progress is always progress, minimal though it may be. It left an impact on someone even if it wasn't a big move. [ but she can understand the disappointment of being here without big changes. ] But nothing says you can't find your way back. You could go and keep working and get to where you want to really go.
[ but she nods to that. ]
I agreed to be here with you all when God asked me because I thought I could help, especially knowing some of you might not fully see what you could be capable of. I want you to see that for yourself.
[ oh, blue... it is sad to relate when you also have to see what he becomes later. it is not very heartening. just a man trying to remember how to be one and struggling very badly despite having achieved what he originally wanted.
He nods when she says that. People appreciate him and he does feel valued, but... Sometimes you want more? ]
I'd like to return because there's more I can do. [ But his smile wanes, unsure as he remembers how he acted last week. ] But maybe... I don't.
[ He doesn't want to linger on that or long. ]
That's a big move and you are helping. Even saving one person is a big deal, in my opinion.
[ this makes sense to her, and she's quiet for a bit as she decides to press further. ]
What if I want that one person to be you, in this case? [ because it's obvious there are some conflicts with jacopo's feelings here, but she still believes that part of him wants to return, somehow. ]
"Saving you" sounds like I think you're incapable, and I don't think that's it. But I think there are conversations to have that you haven't had with other people, or yourself, yet.
Even though you just told me exactly what you were doing back there for your people? An idea you worked through by yourself and got people together to help? You've just told me what sort of potential he actually has. It's just... buried a bit, I think.
... I'm not going to own the idea of a peacekeeping group. We did discuss it together.
[ But he gets it. He's quiet, wondering if there's still potential when that is the future(?) If that is a path of no return... It's scary, actually. ]
I'll take your word for it. You probably have a better read than I do.
Discussing a plan together doesn't always mean those discussing it will agree.
[ but she gets it. it can be scary, not knowing what lies ahead. it's also scary knowing but not knowing how, so. bad vibes all around. but... ]
It's always easier for another person to read you than to try and read yourself. I know it's a lot to ask you to trust me. And you don't even have to. But that won't stop us from continuing to think the way we do.
Again, we weren't lost. [ but the way she says it implies she knows this sure felt like being lost, and there's a slight smile. ] But I'm happy to be lost with you whenever our paths cross. Shall we?
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she's been compared to a worker ant before, called sensible by everyone she knows, has worked hard to get to where she's at but the progress was always slow. the results were minimal in some cases. but then there were other results things worked a little better. ]
Progress is always progress, minimal though it may be. It left an impact on someone even if it wasn't a big move. [ but she can understand the disappointment of being here without big changes. ] But nothing says you can't find your way back. You could go and keep working and get to where you want to really go.
[ but she nods to that. ]
I agreed to be here with you all when God asked me because I thought I could help, especially knowing some of you might not fully see what you could be capable of. I want you to see that for yourself.
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He nods when she says that. People appreciate him and he does feel valued, but... Sometimes you want more? ]
I'd like to return because there's more I can do. [ But his smile wanes, unsure as he remembers how he acted last week. ] But maybe... I don't.
[ He doesn't want to linger on that or long. ]
That's a big move and you are helping. Even saving one person is a big deal, in my opinion.
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What if I want that one person to be you, in this case? [ because it's obvious there are some conflicts with jacopo's feelings here, but she still believes that part of him wants to return, somehow. ]
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Me? In this case?
[ there are like thirty something souls ]
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... I wouldn't be offended if that's what you think. That he seems incapable—you know what I mean. I seem incapable.
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[ But he gets it. He's quiet, wondering if there's still potential when that is the future(?) If that is a path of no return... It's scary, actually. ]
I'll take your word for it. You probably have a better read than I do.
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[ but she gets it. it can be scary, not knowing what lies ahead. it's also scary knowing but not knowing how, so. bad vibes all around. but... ]
It's always easier for another person to read you than to try and read yourself. I know it's a lot to ask you to trust me. And you don't even have to. But that won't stop us from continuing to think the way we do.
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[ this one truly isn't as paranoid or guarded. ]
I remember how you've treated me and I think I'm in good hands. [ ... ] I might not think that way later, but you can just take it as another opinion.
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Even if you don't think that way later, you'll just have to accept it sooner or later. [ a little cheeky, but serious. ] We have time. Don't forget.
[ and before them, a door appears. ]
Looks like we get a free pass back out of here.
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... All the time in the world?
[ But, yay, a door. ]
This has been enjoyable, even though were were lost most of the time.
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[ easy to give, and easy to offer. ]
Again, we weren't lost. [ but the way she says it implies she knows this sure felt like being lost, and there's a slight smile. ] But I'm happy to be lost with you whenever our paths cross. Shall we?
[ we may be free. ]