[ stop leave him alone. also yeah, listen. listen. ]
It's very unnerving. [ she can at least admit that much. ] Before last year I'd never even seen them because I don't have those kinds of abilities. But last year was when Gansey appeared.
[ and blah blah blah, fate, etc. ]
But starting here is good. I think... people sometimes put too much of a an emphasis on trying to fit in everything because they're scared, but at the same time I don't think it's wise to ignore it until it's too late. That's the fastest way to create regrets.
[ YOUR BOY!!! FATE HAS THEM BOTH BY THE CHOKEHOLD. It will be funny when Jacopo becomes extremely resistant to the supernatural.
While sometimes he can wordy and also prattle on uselessly, he does understand that you can only put so much into a moment. Is he scared though? He isn't sure.
Better to just rip the bandaid off. He tries to sift through words as he feeds another corgi a treat. There's so much he can say... ]
[ i hope one day he remembers all of this and just goes :tails: as it is, she is giving a very good corgi a tummy rub while she waits, and when jacopo finally speaks she is clearly amused. but touched, because she does remember several of their early conversations. ]
Thank you. I know we all got off to a pretty rocky start, but I like to think things got better and easier as time went on. I know it became much easier to talk to you. I started looking forward to it.
[ oh yeah he will remember it in a psl or something and he'd be like oh shit... fuck me.
Mmmm. ]
It became easier as weeks passed. Not always, not all the time, but more times than before.
[ So he does agree... And there's a touch of fondness in emotions shared, betraying whatever steely facade he has. ]
I'd like to think I was rather cordial with all three of you in spite of circumstances. I gained very little in being aggressive... Firm, at best. But—I know I was difficult at times, especially early on.
[ Which he probably never addressed and instead his 22yo commandeered that. Even then, he never felt right for it to happen that way... But couldn't figure out how to navigate it. He was unhappy in general over how well his past version got along with everyone and didn't believe that iteration could truly speak for the man he currently is.
Either way, he really asked vague ways about unpersoning and going to hell. He is apologetic. ]
Did you actually ever look into it? I'd understand if you didn't since it was a madman's request.
I never thought any of this would be perfectly acceptable or easy for any of you. But I'll take "more than before", too. If only because it was more than before for me, too. I've... learned to be better in spite of everything, thanks to you guys.
You were though. Cordial, I mean. Moreso than some of the others who really almost made it a challenge to try and get on our bad side. I think there are some ways in which being aggressive would benefit you, but the difference between you and some of the others is you know how to utilize it. Timing, that is.
[ she does tilt her head though as she considers the way back when. ]
I looked into a lot of things for you, and for a few others. [ she's honest about that. ] But which one in particular are you most curious about?
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He is going to fuck this up, but thank you. Jacopo grimaces as she tells this tale... Help. Girl. ]
That's... A little unnerving, but duly noted? [ UH. ] I'll try to start here, then. With you.
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It's very unnerving. [ she can at least admit that much. ] Before last year I'd never even seen them because I don't have those kinds of abilities. But last year was when Gansey appeared.
[ and blah blah blah, fate, etc. ]
But starting here is good. I think... people sometimes put too much of a an emphasis on trying to fit in everything because they're scared, but at the same time I don't think it's wise to ignore it until it's too late. That's the fastest way to create regrets.
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While sometimes he can wordy and also prattle on uselessly, he does understand that you can only put so much into a moment. Is he scared though? He isn't sure.
Better to just rip the bandaid off. He tries to sift through words as he feeds another corgi a treat. There's so much he can say... ]
You did a good job.
[ Nailed it. ]
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Thank you. I know we all got off to a pretty rocky start, but I like to think things got better and easier as time went on. I know it became much easier to talk to you. I started looking forward to it.
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Mmmm. ]
It became easier as weeks passed. Not always, not all the time, but more times than before.
[ So he does agree... And there's a touch of fondness in emotions shared, betraying whatever steely facade he has. ]
I'd like to think I was rather cordial with all three of you in spite of circumstances. I gained very little in being aggressive... Firm, at best. But—I know I was difficult at times, especially early on.
[ Which he probably never addressed and instead his 22yo commandeered that. Even then, he never felt right for it to happen that way... But couldn't figure out how to navigate it. He was unhappy in general over how well his past version got along with everyone and didn't believe that iteration could truly speak for the man he currently is.
Either way, he really asked vague ways about unpersoning and going to hell. He is apologetic. ]
Did you actually ever look into it? I'd understand if you didn't since it was a madman's request.
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You were though. Cordial, I mean. Moreso than some of the others who really almost made it a challenge to try and get on our bad side. I think there are some ways in which being aggressive would benefit you, but the difference between you and some of the others is you know how to utilize it. Timing, that is.
[ she does tilt her head though as she considers the way back when. ]
I looked into a lot of things for you, and for a few others. [ she's honest about that. ] But which one in particular are you most curious about?