[ hawke needs to live forever and never die and he can't emotionally handle any other thought. ]
To protect him. He is Champion of Kirkwall. If he knew, he would be honor-bound to stop me, to try and convince me otherwise. And if I had told him, and he wanted to help, I could not allow it. Whatever punishment and judgement that came down from the Knight Commander, the Chantry, the people: it would land solely on me.
[ oh this feels extremely familiar in offshoot ways they are not even sure how to feel about, and judging by the way they go still and just listen to all of this they understand the situation a little more. ]
And you knew that if he wanted to help and you tried to stop him, he'd just do it anyway. So it was safer to work behind his back, even if the end results led to a lie. It was something you couldn't just leave, because you saw the chance and you had to seize it while you could no matter what the people would say, but you didn't want it to reflect poorly on friends you care about.
[ yeah. see? they get it. anders' greatest sin wasn't even the chantry bomb, it was doing something behind the player character's back. gamers HATE that. ]
It was our very last chance to stand and fight. Hawke was the most important thing in my-- He was important, but some things are bigger than our lives. My life.
Such as the lives and fates of other people? Where you can only move forward to set the pieces in motion. [ ...yeah. ] We had our own Hawke back home of sorts. Someone we followed without question no matter the complications or sacrifice. I came later, but the others had been on his journey for a few years and would stop at nothing to help him succeed. But even then, they kept their secrets and went behind his back for other things they felt were important. He forgave them, even when the results nearly got all of us killed.
I know it isn't exactly the same. But maybe with the two of you here... there's that extra bit of time to really talk about it. It doesn't have to be now. But you both deserve some sort of closure, I think.
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[ hawke needs to live forever and never die and he can't emotionally handle any other thought. ]
To protect him. He is Champion of Kirkwall. If he knew, he would be honor-bound to stop me, to try and convince me otherwise. And if I had told him, and he wanted to help, I could not allow it. Whatever punishment and judgement that came down from the Knight Commander, the Chantry, the people: it would land solely on me.
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And you knew that if he wanted to help and you tried to stop him, he'd just do it anyway. So it was safer to work behind his back, even if the end results led to a lie. It was something you couldn't just leave, because you saw the chance and you had to seize it while you could no matter what the people would say, but you didn't want it to reflect poorly on friends you care about.
[ yeah. okay. okay. yeah. ]
... I didn't realize it was so complicated.
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It was our very last chance to stand and fight. Hawke was the most important thing in my-- He was important, but some things are bigger than our lives. My life.
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I know it isn't exactly the same. But maybe with the two of you here... there's that extra bit of time to really talk about it. It doesn't have to be now. But you both deserve some sort of closure, I think.
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So, you aren't Spirits.
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I think the correct term is "angel." Guardian, specifically.
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[ point blank. ]
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